My training log and thoughts

 30.10.2021 Nice day. Energy right now - around 65/100. But I gotta admit something. After getting that thing I yearned for for so long I've been feeling pressure. Been nervous all night after thursday for some reason. Maybe it's my training and caffeine poisoning though, haha. I haven't had a "really nice" workout on thursday in what feels like quite some time. So that might mean more CNS load. I've been postponing working on new videos and just sleeping. Yesterday I had some repeatable quests in the morning, so I did some and went back to sleep, still totaling very little. Then I went to sleep early after having eaten a rather moderate amount of food - maybe I've having too much candy, admittedly. I oughta share. Still didn't get enough sleep. I remember last time I had way too much candy - in april, when I was playing FO76 for the first time. I also had diet and energy problems. Refined sugar is distracting from normal food. Today I had some buckwhe...

 28.10.2021 Nice day. Inevitably slept for too long after yesterday's caffeinated debauchery (haha). Got some good ol' buckwheat and a toast for breakfast. Buckwheat is underrated - high fiber, nice glycemic index. As I was waking up I checked my news and I WAS FINALLY MONETIZED ON YOUTUBE 😃 Not only was my association approved, but my channel was straight up accepted into the partner program. How did that happen so fast? I was overjoyed and had a lot of different ideas that I'm not going to reveal yet. Had one batch of coffee - felt nice, browsed the web, played guitar with a junior acolyte, was running out of time for the workout. Squat - felt surprisingly comfortable today Only sets of 10. 50 70 100 120 140 150 On the last two sets I made sure to squat as deep as I could - i.e. utilizing the questionable "butt wink" technique - and to extend my legs fully. Didn't extend my torso fully because it's a low back squat. I've literally never done a heavy...

 27.10.2021 Hmmm. Well, I'm off my rocker right now on caffeine and workout endorphins, so I'm wary of writing anything, hehe. Caffeine - funny stuff. Makes me feel expressive. But, truth is, I'm always expressive. Had two batches of coffee today. Felt nice and smooth. And I'm not sure what I've been doing on google. Trying to set something up, but it's not working well. Wrote a script for the next video. Maybe that's the aforementioned splitting of tasks. can't do everything at once. That's lowkey lazy. I wrote short "demos" for two of my songs in my last EP, and two were made faster. I oughta reuse my old "short songs", treat them like demos. Working out right now. I actually upped my supposed max in OHP to 135 kgs. So far it's not going too poorly, my wrist is hurting though. Overhead press Warmup 50*6 70*6 90*5 100*5 last warmup set 105*5 107,8 - 2 sets of 5 107,8 for 4, the fifth one I pressed forward and didn't reach...

 25.10.2021 Nice day. Woke up early enough. Had nice enough breakfast - nutrition is at 7/10 I'd say. Sleep 8/10. Overall recovery - roughly 7/10 as well. CNS feels great, 8/10. Did some repeatable quests. Had three posrtions of coffee - arabica. Over a long period of time. Felt kinda lazy, but then I got into it. Deadlift Warmup 150*4 overhand 190*4 - first one was a poor overhand (didn't lockout well), the rest - hook grip 220*4 hook grip 225*4 same, toke a callus off my left pinky. Didn't bleed, so that's okay. 225 - 2 sets of 4 - straps Nice. Nice, sufficiently volumatic deadlift. Everything moved quickly and easily. Powerful velocity. That's why I oughta pump up my supposed max. Today was 80% for 4 of 4. 225 is easy. I should try 290 as my max then. Bent over rows - 50 - 70 - 100 overhand, narrow grip, short range, nice pump Those three sets were supersetted with Bench press 50 and 70 for 10 100 for 20 - sufficiently easy. Wrist hurted a lot, so I put wrist sup...

 23.10.2021 I had a rather awful dream in which I stole a baritone guitar from a dead man. Tells you something about my subconscious, ha ha. In my dream it was a signature guitar from a certain guitar youtuber, and it's funny because this person is quite unlikely to play baritone guitars and is rather stuck in a niche. But he is quite rich and impressive. A long time ago I watched his video on electric vs acoustic and decided that I indeed do want to buy an electric. Back then I knew so little. Let's talk about my life recently. It's been quite nice. I haven't been playing any The Sims 3 or any other videogames. I've been waking up in the morning and sleeping at night - except for wednesday, when I fell asleep at 4AM. Well, I wrote about it. My wrist hasn't been hurting. The darkness deep inside of my mind has been showing itself a little bit - not very good news. That's the kind of 'negative' stuff, rather than 'twisted'. Maybe it's good...

 21.10.2021 Interesting day. Didn't sleep too much. Kept checking my mail and youtube for that one wednesday video. I oughta postpone watching it to thursday. Had nice nutrition. Possibly too much. Still feeling somewhat tired. Had almost two full batches of coffee. Desensitized atm. Shouldn't have done anything on tuesday. But today is going to be better than tuesday - cause I have less energy to waste, but somehow I have more to work out with. Nice warmup - starting with small things, short range Squats - 2 sets of 15 Goblet squats 16 kg kettlebell - 2 sets of 15 32 kg - 2 sets of 15 - taking short breaks, nice cardio, getting sweaty Pushups 4 sets of 30 - first set was hard, second was incredibly easy compared to the first, as well as the rest. Warmup is a big science. Explosive press-flys (not flies) 2 sets of roughly 10 reps - actual;ly hard for my middle delts. You fly into T-pose, stop the momentum and then finish with an explosive movement. Really cool assistance exerci...

 19.10.2021 Squats - 4 sets of 15 (more info below) 20.10.2021 Overhead press - the plan for today dictates 72.5% for 4 sets of 6. Not gonna lie - I've been fussing over trying to figure out how to monetixe my channel. What's wrong with my adsense? Well, anyway, I followed some instructions in doing something, and now I'm more hopeful again. Cold. It snowed for the first time. I remember. I've taken way too much time. Also I've been writing a long drum sequence cause I wanna create stock music for myself, so I don't have to use someone else's. There's a lot of things you can do quite easily to create a nice background sound for voiceovers and such. And it's a great creative process. My wrist has been hurting a lot. It's been hurting from me using my thumb. So I won't play durms with my right hand, or use my thumb in fingerstyle on guitar. Today, and maybe tomorrow. Just limiting it. And ideally no riffing on the elctric guitar, no tremolo pic...

 18.10.2021 Kinda of a weird day. Yesterday I fell asleep early, despite being somewhat hungry. Woke up at 4AM and had some food, then I fell asleep again only to wake up at 3PM. That means I slept for a really long time. My be the CNS load. Wrist has been hurting yesterday, gotten better today. My internet connection has been rather shotty, so I went to speedtest it and realised I had VPN on for a very long time, lol. I don't even remember what I needed it for. Oh wait, I do - I read an interesting article about Tyson Fury and Deontay Wilder's fight on quora and went to check the fight highlights on youtube, and there was this TV channel that had regional restrictions, so that's when I switched to USA. And I din't even watch it! And all this time it's been really shotty. Ha ha, how funny. Having coffee right now. Have done some repeatable quests. Wanna record a song, any song. I oughta work on my song structures. Well, I have my own semi-unique simplistic structure...

 16.10.2011 NOTE TO SELF - PUSH ELBOWS TO THE FRONT WHEN PUSHPRESSING It's one of those rather inane but valuable training tips you always forget. Today I've been PP'ing, as evident. Very nice day. Nice recovery, I don't feel any cortisol in my blood. Smooth sleep, staying chill. Decent nutrition, maybe even 7/10 I'd say. Did some repeatable quests, enjoyed my coffee. Jamming, trying to play Black Sabbath. I was able to figure out how to play Children of the Grave correctly after some site presented me with wront tabs. I felt a bit out of shape today, since it's been so long since I last played the electric guitar. P.S. I think I gotta start using a slightly narrower grip on PPs - so that my wrist doesn't have to bend inwards. Another big thing, possibly a revelation - I think I might've figured out my AdSense problem. Cause I created it the wrong way the first time. It's been so frustrating I might've been unable to read the instructions. Now I ...

 14.10.2021 Nice day. Slept for less than 6 hours. Didn't cover up my window as much to ensure easier wakeup. Glad I didn't burn out yesterday. I wasn't overstimulated. But my energy stayed high for quite a while. I didn't get an "inflamed" brain, which is how I feel sometimes after having fun. Nutrition - 6/10, got some canned meat and oats, and some veggies again. Had 1 and a half batches of coffee. Played classical guitar a lot. I oughta record myself. Maybe even make a video just for this blog. I came up with a couple nice grooves. Not metal, but groovy. And it can be metal. Haven't been recording songs for a while. I will do soon. Inspiration fluctuates. Sometimes it makes you wanna create. Sometimes you wanna create even without it. Sometimes you create even when you don't want it. Bench press Some warmup 50 for 30 70 - 2 sets of 15 - mild pump, nice Some drumming. Warmup from 8 to 1, paradiddles, hihat on 4th then 8th, then 4-ands, that's ab...

 13.10.2021 Nice day. I gotta admit something - I slept the whole day yesterday, and even cancelled an opportunity to do a repeateable quest. I literally slept for over 15 hours. That's fascinating. I don't know how that's possible. Maybe I'm more lazy than I expect. Maybe my CNS is going through changes. I had repetitive dreams, borderline fewerish, but enjoyable. There was even a plot of some kind. Maybe I was ill. It's the proper season for it. Plus I do have a rhinitis - very hard to breathe sometimes. Only easy when I work out. Had two batches of coffee. Before that; nutrition 5/10 - too many veggies. And I had too much coffee, but not too much caffeine. I just had too much liquid that didn't drain for a while. lol. Deadlift Warmup 50 and 100 cramped up my left hamstring, which was still kinda tight after monday squats 150 190 - 4 sets of 8 - very nice :D 😄 I think this is a volume PR . Difficulty - medium/easy. All reps were swift and powerful, but maybe ...

 11.10.2021 Nice day. Woke up at 11PM on Sunday. Then slept during the day for a while. Did some repeatable quests. Had two batches of coffee. Squat - sets of 10 20 - 50 - 70 - 100 - 120 - 140 nice and deep. Got tired though. The garage was too cold. Drummed for 3 sets - enjoyed it a lot today. Paid attention to being able to plau the and of 4 on bass drum and then crash on 1. Grooved. Wanted to do light bench, but I hurt by wrist again as I unracked the 50 kg barbell - just sort of lifted it with my thumb like a silly goose. Decided to do DB bench. Bench press with dumbbells, in my chambers 17+17 - 2 sets of 30 - too light of course. One arm press - for the abs 17 kg - 2 sets of 15 And that's about it. In a "tunnel vision" state right now. I wish to make tomorrow feel productive. File:Kaiserdom, detail, Frankfurt, 2017-10-14-3.jpg

 09.10.2021 Nice day. Fell asleep early yesterday and woke up really early today. Had a lot of food somehow. Did some repeatable quests - felt good. Felt good overall. "Fixed" the car - put an accumulator in there and tightened it, and it worked this time. I was afraid the thing wasn't gonna charge. Had coffee. Today there is some good liquid in my head. I noticed it when I started riffin on teh guitar instead of playing it the way i play it normally. It's different. i'm different now. I hope to have a good workout and be able to go to bed early enough. And have a nice tomorrow. Wokring on some basic MIDI stuff right now. Whatever I do I prefer to play real drums than just have midi. But some of those midi packs give me an idea for new beats I can actually play. What to do, how to do it?.. Interesting. Everything is. Apparently there's some curious biochemistry out there. I heard some things, not sure if I should trust them. Having a seconed batch of coffee no...

 07.10.2021 Okay day. I had a really nice dream that I was confused about. It was about a girl, and about youtube and youtubers, and about about confusing architecture. I managed to remember some things cause I got woken up. Anyway, I'm really pissed off with my decisions recently. Intuition - what does it mean? In the old days (and recently) "intuition" forced me to overwork in the garage, and it does the same now. I should have not been doing DLs last friday. And if I did, I should have made yesterday as easy as possible. It was easy, but I had coffee and I was agitated and hyped, ergo I wasted my CNS power. And today I had mediocre sleep and not very well working CNS. Anyway, here's the workout Deadlift Warmup 50*5 100*5 150*5 190 for 5 really ugly - wanted to do 5 reps overhand, failed first rep, got straps Then i was dubious and really wanted to end it, but I decided against it 210 for 3 - easy enough but I got some kind of micro-tweak in my back and that was the...

 05.10.2021 I dunno, I feel like writing something today as well - mostly just documenting my sleep. It's rather poor - I woke up at 3PM yesterday, which was okay - to a degree - and then worked out, and I couldn't fall asleep until roughly 11AM. I think I also have poor eating habits - I was actually unable to fall asleep due to hunger. Well, I got a massive breakfast and then I feel into a dead sleep. Dreams were nice, but I don't remember then. What did I have for breakfast? The aforementioned tomato/vegetable soup and nesquik cereal. Isn't it weird? Well, it had all the macros. I think the soup could have turned out much more savory if I added more fat. But I wanted to be subtle, cause last soup was too fat. But it was hecka appetizing. And this soup wasn't spicy. Note to self: buy pepper and other spice. Honestly, I'm just reflecting today, cause I'm not feeling that well. Well, I'm feeling much better now, after waking up at 6PM and cleaning up a b...

 04.10.2021 Time to write about my day. It's almost 7 PM, and I'm having my second batch of coffee. I also had some candy with it, which might not be optimal for caffeine digestion. Woke up relatively late, but earlier than in the last few days. Had a really nice dream. A strange one, of course. I only remember the last ten minutes. I was wandering through a strange hispanic-speaking land and kept thinking that I have to learn spanish. It looked like Russia, however, just much sunnier. An edge of a village and an evergreen forest. And some other provocative things. Did a repeatable quest. Had oats and mildly spicy tomato soup I prepared yesterday. Also I marinated some meat, looking forward to having it. I always overcook meat. I never feel sure. I just don't really like the idea of eating raw meat. And I don't care, because no one else cares, realistically. Some members of the order are experiencing health problems and are having dubious medicine. That's about all ...

 02.10.2021 Nice day. Sleep = a bit messy. Recovery = 4/10. Feeling overall = 55/100 (not bad). Nutrition = 6/10 (not very disciplined, but enough). Did some quests - I always mean IRL quests. Later - had coffee with sugar and milk. Might have been hungry. Didn't get amped up too much. CNS must quite dormant. But I think overall I'm better at not accidentally overtraining. Did some pushups for warmup. Feels strangely uncomfortable. I guess my pecs might not be in shape or something. Bench - only sets of 15 20 - 50 - 70 - 80 - 90 - 93 - 93 Narrow grip 73 - 73 Nice. Got pumped. Chest = big. Upper pecs = really noticeable. Overuse of equals sign = high. Haha = funny. Some experiments with different grip on overhead press in my chambers Overhead press - two 6 kg dumbbells for 15 Push press - 27 kg ez bar for 10 - getting the technique back. PP is underrated for strength and endurance. Then 2 more sets of that. One hand underhand wrist curls (long range) - 12 kg for 30 reps / then ...

 01.10.2021 Nice enough day. Got enough sleep, did some repeatable quests, had a rather slight breakfast - roughly 100 grams of pasta and like 50 grams of fish. I thought it was gonna be enough and didn't bother. Then I came across reddit and some really big news, and I knew it was time to come back to youtube. So I made a video rather quickly - I hope I'm not gonna be as obsessed with anylytics and such in this season 2. And I hope I'll be consistent, because I feel like I do want to return, and I think that this work really helps me unburden my poor tortured psyche. Well, I'm overesaggerating. With a body like mine my soul can only be tortured so much, ha ha! Had two large (but not the thickest) batches of arabica, and then I decided to top it off with a cup of instant coffee for some reason. It was already 8 PM - I was stuck reinforming myself on AI games. Deadlift Warmup 50 - 100 150 for 5 190 for 8 - first rep overhand, second failed overhand, but I still decided t...