My training log and thoughts

 31.01.2022 Not a bad day. Woke up, had three eggs and some spaghetti for breakfast, did repeatable quests, had tea, started having coffee, ordered some groceries - really wanted some sweets with my coffee, and I think it helped me to not have my CNS overstimulated. One good use for sweets - close catabolic gates, help slow down caffeine ingestion. And, most and foremost, a really nice training session, got a good hit of endorphins. Bench Tiny warmup 50 for some reps 70*15 70*15 still a little squeaky and creaky 80*15 80*15 finally achieved warmup here - felt a "micro pump", when you get it - you know you're ready 100*15 average, kinda harder than I wish it was. Well, I am not completely in shape since the illness 100*15 made the reps more strict - gave myself a mental direction to go for "179 degress in elbows, 89 degrees to the floor" - to make sure I don't overextend my joints. Felt good enough. I'm regaining form again. Got a nice pump. Decided to de...

 29.01.2022 Ain't been too happy. Not too bad overall, but sometimes something does something and something happens in that little old noggin o mine. And caffeine, of course. Been feelin empty sometimes, but that's quite normal, it's just me being something, I dunno, barely got any brain energy at this point. Nice workout today. I preserved my energy. Drummed for the first time in a long time. That's great. Redeveloping my interest for music, so I'm not just fiddlin around on the acoustic. Tried writing a little bit to jam to earlier today, opened Cakewalk after a long break as well. I really simply must occasionally jam, so i don't forget how to mix and such. Been praying to God so he would make good things happen and make bad things go away. Been praying and praying. I'm a big ol sinner, of course, so i don't really deserve to be heard, perhaps, but then again, it's not for me to decide. It's not like I'm about something nonimportant. Yeah,...

 27.01.2022 Strangely nice day. Feeling like I used to when I was a kid. Very unusual feeling. Feeling somewhat happy for not much of a reason. Had some coffee. Not enjoying it too much. Body tired since yesterday. Still want to have a nice workout today. Supine lat pullups 2 sets of 15 - not too easy Bicep curls 6 kg dumbbells - 20 reps 16 kg kettlebell, grip by the body from the sides - 20 reps, seated 32 kg kettlebell - 15 reps - pretty hard, getting a nice pump though 15 more reps - nice and hard, sort of switched ot the underhand grip in the end Then I was busy. Felt like enough.

 26.01.2022 Strangely nostalgic day. I've been getting good sleep. Still not completely healthy, but I think I'm basically ready for something heavy. Did some repeatable quests. Had some coffee, felt the effect. Time feels like it's moving quickly. Tried playing FO4 yesterday and realisted I got bored of it. That's how it always happens. I still wanna play through the SimSettlements storyline though. Coffee got me severely jumbled today. Gotta get to deadlifts. Deadlifts Had plenty of doubts during warmup. 70*8 100*8 150*8 not bad - all easy, overhand 190 - 3 sets of 8 - not bad. Muscles are still strong, air and cardio aren't as strong. Kept drinking tea like silly, a little vomity. Surprised pleasantly, considering the illness and recovery. Loaded my quads nicely - must have been the high belt position (it allows you to really shove your knees in). Got super sweaty after the third set. Of course, ideally I'd want to be able to do much higher volume. IIRC, 190 ...

 24.01.2021 Went to the doctor. It's viral tonsillitis (angina), as opposed to the bacterial one two months ago. Feeling better today. Walked back from the clinic, got way too sweaty. Not perfect, hoping to get better again soon. I will work out today, but I'm not sure what exactly I'll do. I wanted to not have coffee today, once again blaming it for everything last saturday. But my energy is much better, and my guts aren't being drawn to the floor as I stand now. Had two small portions of coffee. Diluted, quickly got cold. Nostalgic. One arm kettlebell press - all 15 reps 16 32 - 3 sets - it got easier and easier. But i decided to do fewer sets in order not to annoy my nose as much. Supine ring pulls 3 sets of 10

 22.01.2022 Nice day. Been feeling slightly better. Sleep is getting better. Still mysteriously ill. Coughing up phlegm, having trouble breathing when I exert myself. Isn't it pathetic? Well, despite it being bathetic I'm still capable of exerting myself rather hard. Been cancelling my lessons, not completely sure. The main symptom is weakness and rhinitis. Had some coffee today - it hit hard, made me play music for a while, feel fresh. Now I'm coming down, after a couple of initial sets. Overhead press Minimal warmup 27 for 10 ez bar 16 kd kettle for 15 - one arm 27 for 10 ez bar - 2 sets - That felt enough. Way too exerted. Despite feeling okay in almost everything, I straight up don't have the energy. A few minutes later Ifelt the opposite - it must have been the endorphins. I'm just so confused about what I should do to recover correctly! Obviously, no garage in this weather while I'm ill. Maybe next wednesday I'll be ready. Falling asleep right now, how...

 19.01.2022 Not the greatest day. Not bad. Once again, I tripped my mistake and lowered my immunity by not getting enough sleep. Today isn't as awful as last time, but I'm not in a good shape. Some fewer, headache, weakness, rhinitis. Feeling cold. Low appetite, but present. Very slow. Had two portions of coffee. Maybe a bad idea. Head not think good. Ha ha. Been hard to stand, but now it's okay, but now it's okay, since I'm working out. Can't do DLs. Just gonna have a super light general workout with elements of cardio. A teensy bit. Moved my legs around - hams, quads and calves (or is it calfs, if it's not an animal? That'd make sense) Squats - 15 reps - slow and gentle, the risk of a massive cramp is super high. A smell in my nose made me nostalgic for when I kid having ear-nose diseases. Lots of em, not a big deal. Strange smell. I love nostalgia. Strong, imminent sharp pictures in my head. I guess I'm getting high on my illness, ha ha. Drinking ...

 17.01.2022 Oh, the good days I've had on this blog. They cheer me up. Looking for random pictures. Going through "tunnels". Getting way too high on coffee - in reality, just overstimulating my own brain and enjoying the workout. Writing music, talking about music. This blog has been in the background of all of these things, helping me to remember my own life better. Even since I was a child, I found a strange sensation amidst grief and other negative emotions. I sort of enjoyed it. I don't have the same feeling anymore, and bad things are just bad. I looked myself as a scientific subject of sorts ever since I was very little. I didn't just accept the fact of wanting to do something. I wanted to know why I want to do things. Some answers came. Answers that are an explanation of an aspect of human nature. Explanations, but not profound answers. Don't know why we exist the way we do. Most likely, the question itself is incorrect. If there a "why-type" ...

 15.01.2021 Rare moments of inspiration. A lot like stepping on a nail. Not always, of course. Stong feelings make me want to create. That's just how some of that brain piping works, I guess. Fight or flight response. I guess when your legs become "light" it's more of a flight response. I often wonder, why is it that by nature someone like me experiences so much internal conflict when faces with violence? I believe we - or some of us - have evolved in a way to protect civilization. It is evolutionarily benefical to be anxious and stressed, rather than rushing to kill and be killed. I've evolved from people who managed to abstain from impulsive killing but were ready to do it when necessary. Or so I would have myself believe. I seem to leaning towards "yay science" crowd more every day. They're not too bad, but they're 100% cringe and often stupid. You know you're seeing one when they start talking about multiverse seriously, with some scienti...

 12.01.2022 You know, if you got a body part that you rarely train - you should still do it. Training it once a month is infinitely better than never. Take my neck, for example. Not very interesting in doing, plus doing doing neck curls (not extension) can easily make me nauseous. But my neck feels so good today, somehow, despite lotsa inevitable headbanging in between DLs. Which is a good sign, it's a sign that my DL is going well. Deadlift Warmup 190*4 215*3 225*3 super easy 230*3 smooth 235*3 very nice and smooth That's it for the garage. Gotta leave upper body for tomorrow. 13.01.2022 Nice day. Some... mess, I guess. This time not just mine. Not a problem. Two smaller portions of coffee Late night light workout A long warmup - kinda wanna do some cardio and feel a very special kind of cardio high, ha ha. Gotta do it more often. I think I used to do a lot of it in summer 2020. Supine ring pullups A few reps with different techniques and 10 normal 2 sets of 10 Pushups 4 sets ...

 10.01.2021 Nice day. Slept very little (less than V hours), but that's okay, cause I wasn't tired. Not pumped with energy either, though. Well, I was a massive workout on saturday, or sabbath, if you will. Some junior acolytes returned to the citadel today. We had fun together, learning music theory and such. Had a lot of coffee. Shaved my face after a long while. I like to imagine I have what's called a "woodsman goatee" style. I like it the most for my face. My sideburns aren't that thick, but I like em. Although having a face is a funny thing. It makes you vulnerable. Not having a face would be better in some way. But it would make communications complicated. I actually love the way I look. Not as much as I love the way I sound, however. Funny. --- Been playing Fallout 4 Survival mode. In between level 30-40 yesterday. Did a few quests. Did the "Big Dig" and I had to run between Goodneighbor and Diamond city so many times. And some other quests. ...

 08.01.2021 Merry eastern Christmas. Yesterday blinked by, sort of. I enjoyed playing Fallout 4, and managed to complete all daily challenges in FO76 very quickly. Wanted to do some repeatable quests, but the quest givers weren't around. This morning, after a rather short sleep - did some repeatable quests as well, then went back to sleep until evening. In other words, I'm making my recovery not as good as it could have been. But it's sufficiently nice, based on how I feel. Had pasta yeterday and today. It has lotsa nutrients, but I've been feeling like I might want to get my hands on some fruits and veggies, or some vitamins of some kind. At least I'm not out of minerals right now, or so I would think. Been having oats, my specialty sandwiches (basically hamburgers) and pasta in the last two weeks. Might want to try some buckwheat or rice again. If only I could get osme good rice. And cook it properly. I'd like to find balance between sludgy porridge rice and w...

 05.01.2021 Nice day. Woke up earlier. Nice breakfast. Recovery = nice. But monday was a really heavy day. So, I've been feeling hungrier and calmer during my coffee drinking. Overhead press Warmup, 70 and 90 for 3 reps - joints feeling really stiff, need time to recover Bench press 50*10 50*20 And that was about it for the moment. Well, monday the heaviest session I've had since november. Still not sure if I've never done 230*5. I most probably did do it before. I really want to switch from Fallout 76 back to Fallout 4. And start a new playthrough with Survival mode. It's gonna be fun, similar to how I used to play in the past. Not the same, of course, but similar. I like high damage gameplay in these games. And I'm not even going to enable fast travel until I reach some kind of milestone. Because fast travel is an important part of these games, since the start. More importantly - it saves time, as fun as walking around is. I want to play with the new mod - Sim Set...

 03.01.2021 Nice day. Quiet days. Nothing to do. Well, I actually only lost one thing I normally do, and only for a few days. So, no complaining. Sleep - nice, at least 6/10 despite not sleeping for too long. Nutrition - great, at least 79/100 somehow. At least that's what it feels like. CNS recovery - 6/10, coincidentally the same as sleep. Had coffee. Ran out again. Shouldn't have bought a 250 gram bag. Had some old robusta. That was the second batch, I ran out on the second batch and had to have a mix of robusta and arabica. It was nice. I dislike robusta way less now. It can be as good as arabica, I believe. Ended up having some olives and herring with coffee. Curious combo. My stomach hurted for a few seconds, unfortunately, but it went away quickly. Deadlift - only sets of 5 50 100 150 190 straps 210 220 easy enough 230 for 5 - nice, really hard last rep, my knees shook like they haven't done in a long time. Gotta work on my legs more. It just might be a PR, especiall...

01.01.2022 Nice day. Nutrition - 7/10. Sleep - 65/100 (very good). Recovery - nice as well. Woke up relatively early, considering the time I fell asleep. Mostly just porridge for breakfast. Tea. Rested a bit, had some coffee. It tasted really good, stimulated me in a way I've not experienced in a long time. No jumbling, but the opposite - overlexification, if that's a word. I enjoyed conversing on the internet and writing detailed messages, and talking to myself a lot, since I enjoy my own company so much, ha ha. Had another batch of coffee - that was a little bit more undisciplificating, if that's a word as well. Took way too long. What didn't help was the fact that ended up eating a little bit of food that I had left in my room (which have summed up to a lot of calories, actually). That isn't helpful when you're trying to warm up. Don't right right before the training session. But know your own organism, of course. Sometimes you need to break some rules, e...