My training log and thoughts

 30.08.2024 I kinda wanna work out today too. Had one cup of instant coffee. Yesterday I was busy very late, i.e. late into today, so I fell asleep late. But I had a great sleep. And I look decent too, if you can judge your ability-based shape on how you look. I don't look my greatest, but close. Pecs decent. Always had a reason not to train them. Mostly injury. Upper and lower pec separating, kinda like that one wrestler guy's pecs. But now they've grown back. Not really a workout in the end, but sort of an activity - one arm rubber pulls, spring chest expander pulls and curls. Curls both with raised elbow - 1 set and two sets on the floor, conventional. Pulls were 5 springs and curls 3 springs, allowing for some pronation. Curls with 6 kg dumbbells, completely flush against the wall including elbows - it is, in fact, difficult when it's this strict! 4 sets. 31.08.2024 Nice day. Head jumbled from coffee. Sleep almost good, but not enough. That's one of the things t...

 29.08.2024 Nice enough day. Not much food, but not hungry. Feeling okay. Gonna make myself feel good today. We're doing OHP with 90 kgs, I'm thinking we can lower the volume slightly and bench again as well. Should be good. Workout Warmup - some Overhead press 20 50 for 10 70 for 5 80 for 5 lovely, very easy 90 for 5 nice, very easy but does require effort 90 for 5 same 90 for 5 lovely Bench press 50 for 20 100 for 5 110 for 5 120 for 5 started to get uneven. How does it happen everytime? 120 for 5 120 for 5 okay, I managed to finish before midnight. All these lifts are kinda too easy. But I have not recovered as well as I hoped. I think all this, more volume idea should work out nicely for me. RPotD

 28.08.2024 Nice day. A little strange. Hot. Feeling mixed. Coffee makes me feel mixed feelings. Eventually, I felt good and I saw the potential for what's gonna happen, for all the good feelings I'm going to experience today. Workout Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 10 120 for 8 quick warmup 160 for 8 overhand, doing my best to not do fingertip hooks and have my palm fully closed 190 for 8 okay - one very nice rep overhand, 7 with straps. I have to use straps, it's a better alternative to mixed grip. I've proven to myself, however, that mixed grip is more comfortable and I have set my current DL PR with it... Hmm. 190 for 8 same, but the overhand rep was much harder 190 for 8 just straps, all fairly easy, not much different from 160 190 for 8 alright, pretty easy. Pinched a pair of 20s, handing from right to left and back. Could not do a pair of 25s. Some OHP with the bar. As you might have guessed, we've started a new program - well, the same old program with minor modif...

 26.08.2024 Nice enough day. Not perfect, but decent. Maybe I'll write more. BUT I ahve to admit we're failing our no training past midnight challenge again. not a big deal! It'll be dealt with, eventually. Today we're doing both bench and OHP. For once I"m thinking of starting with bench. That will be weird! AND we're restaring the program. 5 sets of 8 wuth 62,5%. Can't be bothered fixing my rtypos right now. Dont' care. 62.5%... So, very light weights. 100 for 4 sets of 8 on bench and same with 72,5 kgs on OHP. Very easy, must keep up super powerful high-acceleration technique! So if someone decides to take a seat on the bar while I'm lifting it I don't budge, capisce? That's the right way to do it. I wanna play FO76 and see if I can reminisce on the quests. I'm such a slow quest-doer in that game, it's kind of insane. There's so much other, completely useless, not even grindy or farmy stuff that you can occupy yourself with in...

 24.08.2024 Well, I gotta resign and admit I won't be able to follow through with my idea of not training past midnight, but I think we'll be able to finish it before 1 AM. Not a big deal. Yesterday was a taxing day, curiously enough. Slept well, ate poorly, not a big deal. Couple small conventional coffees. I've been overmodding my FNV so it started crashing again, lol. But still not very frequently. Workout Warmup - some, lower body Squat 10 bw 20 for 20 50 for 10 100 for 8 quick warmup 120 for 8 okay, kinda bouncing in the bottom, it's proper deep 140 for 8 lovely, easy enough, same technique. Not sure how I feel about bouncing nowadays, since I wanted to emulate strongman type of squat more, but it's far from hyperstrict gigapause squat I've been doing last year. 150 for 8 lovely, super easy for legs but hard for torso. I've redicsovered the special toothpicks - I used about 15 of them during my tour, and trust me, they were very helpful - and now I'...

 23.08.2024 My life is actually pretty amazing. There's like, so much stuff - awesome stuff - in it. Stuff that happened, that is happening, that will be happening. Just gotta appreciate it. Enjoying writing, enjoying coffee - two mokas, one small conventional. Almost started to lose my shit again, but Thank God, it's all okay, in between the lines of propriety. Just a lot of loud excited monologues. Workout Warmup - some, upper and lower body Overhead press 20 for 20 50 for 10 70 for 8 nice and easy, but I do find myself cheating a lot automatically, using my pecs. that was the quick warmup 90 for 6 lovely 100 for 4 - had a couple mistakes. First I unracked the bar a little unevenly, stepping out too wide and I had to put it back and take a break. On second attempt I uncacked it properly, but ended up staying in a super narrow foot stance, thus putting a lot of unnecessary strain on my mid-back rather than my hips. I did 4 reps pretty easily, but I felt unsure after the 4th an...

 21.08.2024 Nice day. Woke up relative early (earlier). If I could wake up like this every day it'd be nice. I didn't sleep much actually, but i feel alright - possibly because I have recovered after my genuine but failed attempt to restore a more normal sleep schedule. I've been thinking - it's possible it's broken because of video games. I wanna play more and more, so I play when I should be sleeping, especially on my training days, because on those days I don't play until after my workout. So naturally I just drift in that direction. The reason I wanted to play FNV again is because I wanted to reconnect with all those memories that inspire me to write/play Marco. I still can't get over the fact that I'm not a real writer, and the book isn't really a work of art, but rather a reflection of my psyche over a period of time - in a pretty distorted mirror, mind you. And it's written with the help of various AIs. Because I like playing with LLMs. Th...

 18.08.2024 Trying to reset my sleep at least a little, so I ended up sleeping very little in the end. Only started to feel excited around ten, but still low energy. I wanted to squat today. But can I? Would it make sense? Or would it make more sense to actually rest and actually focus on squat on Monday? I already know the answer. I resolved not to overstimulate myself and not play a dare game with myself. I'm really slow today, although I admit I don't feel weak, which is good. So, I will indeed be squatting on Monday, not so sure about OHP but it'll happen. 19.08.2024 Things aren't going according to plan and my sleep schedule doesn't seem to be resetting. I have a really difficult time sleeping. I don't feel physically great. But I will be working out. That's the plan, at least. I'm feeling better. It's 11 PM, it's raining, the coffee tastes surprisingly balanced. It's a moka. Not overstuffed, managed to screw on the top of the pot secure...

 17.08.2024 Nice day. Did not take melatonin yesterday, ended up sleeping long anyway. I gotta stop taking it when I don't really need it. It's great when you take it for the first time after not taking it for a while. However, I had a very nice sleep regardless, feeling good. Yesterday I was feeling a little anxious cause I got some stuff to deal with - bank and my salary problems, the dreaded bureaucracy. And I've been skipping out on going and requesting the documents I need, but then the fact that I decided not to go cleared up some misconceptions for me, so that's something. Ultimately, I'm not really worried about it, I'll just go to the prosecutor if I can't get my pay. Who would have expected, am I right? The mammon will not have me worried. Anyway, today I'm starting with an instant coffee and a banana. I'm seeing some merit in skipping breakfast, provided I wasn't too hungry the day before. I got squats, relatively heavy squats planned,...

 15.08.2024 Nice day. Slept long again, couldn't help myself. Last night was a lot of fun for me. No food today, started with coffee and a banana. Workout Warmup - some, upper body Overhead press 27 kg ez bar 20 for 10 50 for 8 70 for 8 83 for 8 85,5 for 8 88 for 8 lovely. Done making myself a meal here, but left it in the kitchen, so it doesn't distract me before the final working set. 90,5 for 8 great! That was a real grind, a toughie, if you will. The last rep at least. They all weren't too strict, I admit. But I locked out my elbows properly after a long grind on that last rep. Close, but not too close to being as strong as I was in March. Not that close to being my strongest self ever, heh. Squat 50 for 10 technique felt nice here Accidentally ate most of the food I prepared. Squat is supposed to be light today, so it's not that big of a deal. 100 for 10 feels nice, very easy and stable. So much easier than it used to be somehow. Also not wearing a belt, cause I do...

 14.08.2024 Nice day. Slept late, couldn't help myself. Nutrition medium. Workout Warmup - a tiny bit Deadlift 20 for 10 70 for 8 120 for 5 serious leg pain, just from effort-strained muscle. It's different from lactic acid. Very similar to cramping. 160 for 5 200 for 3 mixed grip. First I attempted to do overhand, but could only get off the floor a little. 230 for 3 decent, medium-hard, can't really stop myself from dropping the weight. Mixed grip, no straps! 230 for 3 alright, sort of easier, but I feel my left ribs clashing against muscle, so I think I may wanna use straps to even out my sides a little better. 230 for 3 - not bad, some unevenness still. I experimented with the suppression by adding a layer of those new red tiles on top of the doormats. That might be making it excessively tall, it felt so. The reps were pretty slow. Left ring finger callus is starting to come off as well... 230 for 3 lovely. I removed the doormats, increasing hte range. It felt great. I d...

 12.08.2024 Woke up earlier than expected. Had a nice breakfast for once, ate it all. Had to take a little walk, done it as intensely as I usually do. My mustache has grown extraordinarily big. Enjoyed one cup of instant coffee with too much sugar accidentally, one moka, jammed for the first time in my Cakewalk template. It'd honestly be so very easy to record a song. Perhaps it's be sensible to play in my room. It should only take up to 20 minutes to take the drums up here. I could use the bed for a seat, but it wouldn't be right, a little too restrictive. But there would be less reverb, especially if I covered the window. Might be a nice idea to record it this way. Just need an appropriate enough floor covering. Could use the rubber tiles I purchased recently. They might not cover all of the space, but it should be good enough for bass drum and hi-hats. Gonna squat today. Not sure how much. I'm thinking I want to spare myself just a little. Not sure. Got a potentially...

 11.08.2024 Yesterday's workout felt insufficient, but I've gotten pretty fatigued. Possibly not just from the workout. Today I wanted to do some more work. But I've been made busy again, skewing my plans slightly. I think I can do light squat and medium-light bench, something of the sort. I feel like I know I need it. Workout Warmup - mostly upper body Bench press 40 for 2 sets of 15 - for some reason I felt awkward with the remaining pair of 10s and had to put them on 70 for 15 90 for 15 nice, feels kinda smooth 100 for 10 nice enough 110 for 10 even better, after a longer break 120 for 8 - not bad, but hard. I don't think I could have done 9 in my state at the time. Perhaps I should not have been eating in between this set and a previous one, I could feel my digestion being busy and thus likely distracting my energy. 100 for 10 very easy 100 for 10 nice, enough volume. Squats tomorrow, pray for my elbows and shoulders, please! Heh, Jock's hill

08.08.2024 Light day - been busy, didn't sleep well, lats severely fatigued and were cramping yesteday Rubber lat pulls - 2 sets of 20 light, one arm, 1 set of 20 hard rubber Floor supported ring pullups - very light, a lot of leg support 2 sets of 20 Squats 2 or 3 sets of 20 Curls with raised elbow on a 5 spring chest expander, one arm 2 sets of 15 - it's a lot of fun  09.08.2024 I just now realised why New Vegas Hydra is called that. And I'm not gonna tell you! But it has been almost fourteen years... How curious. I've switched from two greater evils to Duckduckgo. Somehow I feel so much more free, even though I can't put a picture on my empty tab now. I probably could find a way, but I don't care enough to do it. AND duckduckgo has the small LLMs for the chat mode! Not bad. 10.08.2024 Workout Warmup - decent, not long Overhead press 20 for 10 50 for 10 70 for 10 - this was my quick warmup as my CNS finally felt fresh enough to lift heavier weight. 90 for 4 93...

 07.08.2024 Lovely day, honestly. Yesterday was even better. Yesterday I felt like I had coffee even without having it. And then I had a couple cups of instant coffee. Today I finished my black ethiopian Jardin and ended up purchasing the blue Colombian jardin that I bought many times before already. It's lovely. Been writing a little bit. Played a lot of FNV and Red Dead Online last night. RDO is pretty annoying with all the silly grinding. It's my own fault for choosing to grind, of course, but it was at least a little bit fun. Grinding collections. Jean Roepke's map has become partially inaccurate - some stuff is wrong. They changed something about collectable item cycles. I had fun little in-my-head adventures as I did, that's why it was fun. There are events there all the time. Like having to shoot up a bandit camp in order to be able to collect one of the items safely, or a lost traveler asking for a hitch turning out to be an ambush, or another lost traveler bein...

 05.08.2024 Nice day overall. The bar really did a thing on my vertebra. It's all a little swollen, but doesn't hurt. Shoulders and elbows a little overstretched from holding it. IIRC it took me a while to get my mobility functioning well enough before I left. I am not exactly sure how I need to work out. I'm leaning towards keeping it on the easier side. Again something like 6 sets of 4. Should be reasonable? I mean, I gotta build a new program when I get into a slightly better shape. Right now it's mostly intuitive. A list outlining cycles and microcycles. I know myself well enough to build something. But of course, there's still a great amount of nuance you can discover amidst your delusions about yourself and about your physiology. Elbow hurts... Not sure what to follow with. Not working out would have been a mistake. I simply mustn't load it in the same angles. And I will be done earlier today. Workout Warmup - some Overhead press 20 for 10 50 for 10 feelin...

 01.08.2024 I've been pretty severely whacked today, about 8/10 whacked, hehe. My legs were hurting from squat yesterday before DL, and now my ass hurts, and muscles under and behind hamstrings. And all of the back and rear delts. Today I've been busy doing some menial stuff. I've been learning to quantify and hyperfocus on pleasant things. Doesn't feel completely right, but it does allow me to enjoy those small things more. Had a couple rotten porkchops for breakfast, but I cooked them well so I didn't feel any rot. Lucky? We shall see. The meat only started to spoil, so maybe not rotten. Been writing Marco. There's epic stuff. Brain chemistry possibly returning. Good stuff. Like a year and a month ago. Now it's past midnight again. Late after doing even more stuff. Had a couple cups of instant coffee. Smooth caffeine high. More of a hum than a buzz. Workout Warmup - not very long, mostly upper body. Left shoulder feeling a little stiff and impinged. Hard t...