My training log and thoughts

 30.10.2025 About to have my first coffee today. Please pray for me. Well, it's going well so far. I didn't sleep much. Received some purchases I made. A big ol' pocket shovel, really tough one. A nice pair of overalls, some "fleece" underwear - really nice too. A pair of waist bags, a more dubious purchase. I felt real mediocre yesterday, but as you might have read I got better. I wanted to write but I decided to leave it for today. Let's work on that. Alright so far. I'm having a 30/345, and you know, I forgot to tell you what coffee. Arabica, full arabica medium roast. Didn't finish my robusta I had - again I have a "stash" of something horrible, heh. Jardin Caffe Classico is the one I got now. It's good, almost 7/10 in my subjective opinion, given it's conventional brew. It says it's 90% arabica, well that's disturbing. That explains some things. Writing something, it's bursting out even without me following through wi...

 29.10.2025 Not a great day. I should have eaten when I woke up. I got over it. Not gonna deadlift today. I will have a nice high rep light workout though. I often think I should have more light workouts. Then I think the opposite, I wanna have more heavy downstairs workouts. Usually I mean upstairs, room workout when I say "light workout". When I mean light workout with a barbell exercise I usually add a caveat, like light bench workout. Now I again think about how light workouts are good. I haven't had coffee yesterday, a long time. I felt okay, good even. Interesting. Today I had a conventional pot, 35/435 - 1 to roughly 12 and a half, that was intentional. I felt okay and then I was gutkicked. I whined and complained and almost cried, that's how randomly bad you can end up feeling. How is that possible? Why is that happening with me? I wanna believe it's not a part of my character, that I'm just a heavily flexed softshell clam. But that might be me. All I ...

 27.10.2025 Technically 28th. Even though I woke up early! Warmup - pushups variations Workout Bench - medium 20 - 50 100 for 2 sets of 10 110 for 2 sets of 5 120 for 2 sets of 5 Enjoyed bench, it was not painful and moved well. Focused on doing the initial "hold".  Squat A few warmup sets with a 50 and a 100 Sets of 3, quick succession 100 - 120 - 140 - 150 That's about it. Gotta recover. CNS needs recovery.

 25.10.2025 Technically 26th. We're here again! Just this Wednesday I had a normal day, and now we're here. No biggie. I love my nights. Workout Warmup - pretty long and thorough, upper body - mostly variations of olympic overhead stretching, focusing on shoulders, elbows, wrists and L-flys; as well as shoulder protractors - a lot of those muscles. Overhead press 20 for some warmup - arms on their own felt good From here on, each rep was a clean and a press. All reps from the floor. 63 for 20 overall reps, split roughly between 4 long sets. Also it's possible I've done 21 reps - I preferred to be sure. The goal was to do 20 technically proficient reps, re-learn the clean. It was hard! Hard for my cardio too, mostly because of all the breath holding. But I'm happy - the bar didn't move wrong. Somehow, I felt like I have to stop after 20. It was getting too cold and too late. But I promised myself some stuff upstairs. Wall pushups - really gentle, feeling my wrist...

 23.10.2025 Nice day. Riding fairly high since yesterday. Not much tired, almost at all, at least right now lol. Searching for lost clothing, upsetting - can't find anywhere. Just a hole in a brain! Or maybe it's just that the items I put somewhere are not there anymore, that's silly. Warmed up real nice. Can't figure out some of my writing. I might be more of a pantser after all. Started my warmup and it went really well! I hurried downstairs. Workout Bench 20 - 60 - 80 stiff and uneven, somewhat 110 for 8 130 for 8 mediocre 143 for 8 mediocre but not bad. Wide grip, ring fingers on outer markings; I'm rediscovering benching with the sink into my chest! Let's see here... 143 for 8 confusing, messy but doable. I haven't properly *collected* myself, I tell you. Not very tight! 143 for 8 complete mess lol. Decided to go for a slightly narrower grip. All over the place. Last rep felt like I wasn't gonna do it, but simultaneously it feels like I'm just m...

 22.10.2025 ditillo2.blogspot.com got closed! What a great disappointment. Real sad about it. I've been reading, reading so much. Writing? Feeling confused about writing right now. Just mostly trite stuff, but my language - it flows very well, or at least it feels like it does. You see, I often used to say I don't like movies much cause you don't get to know the characters well enough over the two hours. The best you can do it imagine it's the same guy as the actor - you know the actor, so you know the character, that makes sense. Stallone in that buddy cop movie, with Curt Russell. I appreciate slow narration. Breaking Bad, that was a captivating story. I watched it back then! It's still somehow relevant, crazy. Workout Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 12 120 for 8 - done some weird kneeling DLs here out of impulse 160 for 3 200 for 2 okay OHG reps, two bad reps pulled above knee, one good rep and I racked it. It's all about forearm control, see, that's my issue ...

 20.10.2025 Slept very well. Woke up pretty early. Nutrition decent, above average. One conventional 35/420 - arabica's about to run out. A couple cups of instant coffee as I read, enjoyed. Brain is clear today, rare. I was bored, but it came, slowly. I wrote. Not bad stuff. Workout Warmup - a while, mostly upper body, elbows and wrists Overhead press 50 - 70 90 for 5 90 for 3 100 for 3 110 for 1 one bad rep, feeling wack here. One unrack - it felt really wrong in lower body but good in upper body, strange; I didn't bother pressing - still not warmed up. Just so we're completely candid I came up with an idea to try 120x3 in ohp and 150x3 in PP... We'll see what happens from this point lol! You do need something to shake yourself up, don't you? 110 for 1 better. Just one rep, but it felt enough. I'd like to reach the warmup point and see what's there; so far I'm just not fully "in the groove". Let's consider the fact that bench loads up pres...

 18.10.2025 Nice day. Awake for 17 hours so far, but I slept okay and ate well. Workout A lot of warmup - wall pushups, rubber stretches for wrists, back and shoulders, pushups; pushups with elbows out for 30 reps - really nice, satisfying. One more set, mostly stretches. Bench 20 - 50 100 for 5 100 for 5 150 for 5 - not bad, hard but no injury or cramps. That's the least pound-for-pound amount of warmup-to-working weight I've ever done... Impulsive, but lucky now. Thank God! 150 for 5 kinda lame, took too long to rest, too relaxed, not tight enough on the set, grip slipping 150 for 5 - much better, best ever 150x5 I ever done! Very tight, good breath, good grip, it's moving! 150 for 5 - okay, that's another good set! About 1 cm narrower grip, but I reckon that didn't help much. 150 for 5 - yes! Thank God! 5x5 with 150! Another good set! Volume PR!😁 Overhead press 50 for 5 70 for 5 80 for 2 sets of 5 - feels good enough, very easy albeit connective tissues feel on ...

 16.10.2025 Thursday. Morning workout, rare! Feeling better than the last time I've done it, lol. Some weird feelings with blood pressure and breathing but it all went away after first warmup sets. Okay, here's the detailed breakdown: after Monday workout - which finished at night, early Tuesday morning - I went ahead and gone to the city to work on three of my issues, including having stitches removed from my leg. Didn't sleep, felt okay at first, when I got there I realized my walking is much more wonky in boots outside; my outer calf muscles have been severely weakened by what happened nine days ago, the cutting somehow affected them and then the tourniquet must have damaged them. So I was walking and almost twisting my ankle, doing a real weird wiggle UNLESS I forced those aching muscles upright - which they could barely do. They're a little better now, Thank God! But I walked, experimented, grown dehydrated. Post office and got my new diploma, then the service cent...

 13.10.2025 It's technically 14th, as per usual 😁 I gotta go somewhere *today*, a simple task but heck I'm feeling so fuckign lazy! 😆 Frick me, I'm such a lazy bitch! Pick up that diploma and hopefully have stitches taken out at the clinic. Anyway, today I'm feeling good and writing something TRULY new. Well, to be fair I have been writing a great bunch of truly new stuff since chapter 6 - thus the recounting of chapters. Slowly turning into a plotter from a pantser! Also please pray for me, dear reader - I have been praying for YOU! Do you feel that, feel that right now? That's GOD'S GRACE travelling to YOU right now, through time! Workout Warmup - pretty long, a lot of cool rubber moves for shoulders and wrists; wrist feels almost okay, just a little stiff. Overhead press 20 - 50 - 70 90 - 4 sets of 3 - it's a light workout focusing on CNS. Weight is medium but I'm pressing it as fast and powerfully as possible, also very strict. Close to full-rackin...

 11.10.2025 Nice day. Slept well, ate above average. I've been thinking how my re-aggravated wrist is likely connected to my leg. Leg is stiff after that cut & sewing surgery, pain avoidance adding to it, outer muscle hurt probably because of vein or the fact that I had it tied with a tourniquet. It's been stiff, in other words. And I couldn't shift the weight on my right leg correctly on Thursday. So that could have contributed to my right wrist stiffness. I really should have worn weightlifting shoes. Workout Warmup - a lot of wall pushups, elbows out, gently pressuring wrist, moving to variations of floor pushups until I'm doing more or less normal ones. That took a while. Slight digression - listening to jazz on big speakers, quietly. My jazz2 playlist, the ones I don't have in New Vegas heh. But very similar. Formulating a new chapter in my head, a lot of random stuff, as per usual. Bench 20 - 50 - 100 120 for 10 wrist okay, feels good, Thank God! And again...

 10.10.2025 Day a little weird. I have an inferiority complex. In my dream I cried after a perceived minor slight. Why? Why is my mind so, I dunno, non-newtonian? Why can't the government treat me well, me, a good citizen who's been paying his taxes, just pleading? God, please have mercy on me, I can barely take it anymore. Please don't take it as a threat of any kind. Please pray for my unstable, undeveloped soul, dear reader from the future. A soul that can do so much. Wrote, enjoyed, staving off wrath successfully. Read too, three different books that have become a part of my habit. Workout Deadlift 20 - 70 - 120 - 160 200 for 5 overhand grip - I think it might be a PR 😃 230 for 8 - nice, 6 reps quick, I stood up to put the belt high, two more. Belt was loose all the time though. This set was not yet "warmed up", but felt good. I wanna do it more powerfully though, balance it with breathing. 230 for 8 - nice, much easier. Warmed up here. Tighter belt, high. Ag...

 08.10.2025 Nice day. Slept okay, some fever dreams, repeating - unknown scenes from the book, endless teasing dialogue between Marco and Henry. That's the fever part. I was trying to write something as I was sleeping. Ate okay. Had some pork and eggs, no carbs though. A lot of carbs yesterday however. Wrote for a while. Quiet scene. Workout Warmup - some, a lot Overhead press 20 50 for 10 nice, feels smooth 70 for 10 90 for 10 real nice, I love how easy it feels even without warmups. Potassium lacking in body but that isn't stopping me. I only have *some* cramps. 100 for 5 nice, pretty strict - although struggling with balance in crocs. Not wearing lifitng shoes or any kind of belt, not even wool belt right now. 100 for 5 - nice, way easier, focusing on pressing "past" the lockout really helps. 100 for 5 harder, some random superstition - not good, although the weight still feels light. 100 for 5 much better, very easy, easiest so far. And strict too, mind you. 100 f...

 06.10.2025 I had a cut on my ankle that was deep, supposedly arterial. Yesterday. Called 911 and went to the hospital. Had a rubber tourniquet underknee. Don't know how much blood I lost, but I didn't go dizzy. Was very thirsty though. Thank God, they did a good job and sutured it up. Went home limping, but I was actually limping from the tourniquet use and not the cut. A little worried. I have a tiny piece of glass in my left foot but it should come out naturally. It hurts but I'm able to stand pretty easily. All that weakened me a little, sure. Just when I was feeling really, really strong. Not a big deal - it's just a deep scratch. Workout Warmup - some, shoulders, elbows and wrists, mostly with rubbers, some wall pushups Bench press 50 for 30+ 100 - 3 sets of 20 - feels nice and easy. Nice round number, easy pump. Feels good. I think you're supposed to press in a way that feels like you're trying to push away the bar with the space in between your thumb and...

 03.10.2025 Some real thorough warmup, some nice writing. Had too much coffee. Overhead press 70 - 2 sets of 10 Dumbbells 26,5 and 25,5 - 3 sets of 10 Squats 10 16 kg goblet squat for 10 32 kg goblet squat for 10 48 kg front squat with kettlebells for 3 sets of 10 04.10.2025 I've been buying clothing. Bought some real nice tactical pants, size 60 Russian. They're too damn tight. I'm bigger than I've ever been. These pants' crotch is going it tear, I just know it. They have really small belt loops too, I couldn't shove either one of my field belts inside so I took one of my dad's old dress belts and wore it that way. And I bought leather suspenders, so I needed a belt in there. They're a little awkward. They un-loop way too easily compared to my old stretchy ones. But then again, if I'm gonna leave I'll likely lose weight. But my legs lose little weight. My upper body might, but not my legs. I struggled to order a return, but I'm thinking I mi...

 01.10.2025 So apparently I'm not allowed to use WordWeb app if I fly more than 2 commercial flights per year. And I don't! Still, I think that's kind of a stupid thing to do, even if you got an agenda that matters to you. Telling you that as a customer. Manowar got my money even though I never ever had to buy their albums. But I bought their albums, CDs and online - remember Google Music? Lord Of Steel (Hammer Edition) is still on my youtube music - and I went to two concerts - and I never had to, I always had full access to their primary product. I didn't have to pay but I paid! That's what good capitalism is like. I paid cause the product is so good. And a lot of other bands too, of course. Some bands I bought cause they were popular enough to have their CDs everywhere and I liked them just enough to wanna spend a little bit. That's good capitalism too. Now, the fact that they're shutting a perfectly functional and very normal and simple, lightweight DAW ...