My training log and thoughts

 30.05.2022 Nice day. I really want to be careful today. Had my work cancelled and postponed. Woke up, decent breakfast, then slept for a while - weird dreams. Not too weird, when you think about it. I think something nice was happening in them. Started haping coffee. I think my brain has regained much sensitivity to caffeine. I made a 19 gram portion with 195 grams of water (accidentally too much). And now I'm getting jumbled already. Or perhaps it only feels like it. It's a possibility that I got Pavlov's (conditioned) reflex at this point. I should post all of my tabs somewhere where I can read them easily. Recently I reread some of the post from a year ago and was shocked. So much emotion, apparently, I do put in some of the posts. Mostly it's nonsense, isn't it? I don't really feel like I have a lot to write about today. Today's goal is to not overtire myself in any capacity. And maybe finally do some guitar sanding. I think it'd take me just a coup...

 28.05.2022 Nice day. Yesterday I got hit hard with the "second day syndrome". CNS energy was low, even though other energy wasn't. Fell asleep early. Slept okay. Weird dreams, as is normal for all people. Woke up early, worked a plenty, had a nice breakfast for once (haven't had it in a while). Rested some more, didn't feel sleepy, which is great (means I got enough sleep). Now having coffee. It tastes nice, better than okay! 21 grams of double ground beans over 170 or 180 grams of water, poured over hot and just brought to a boil on a stove. --- Playing bass. I wanna practice if I'm record it. And the absolutely massive beautiful bumblebee sat on my window. I wondered if it was attracted by low frequencies and played it much louder. It didn't fly away. But when I stepped to take a photo of it it flew away. Oh well. It was massive and fuzzy and had thick legs! Astonishing. --- Alright. I think it finally started. I recorded a significant portion of the so...

26.05.2022 Well, here are some points to think of. I wrote em up here yesterday. (P.s. - Put em in the bottom) Yeah, I am upset about failing a weight yesterday. And did make a lot of mistakes. I only shifted the weight intentionally to the left on monday when I was squatting, and it caused soreness in the small muscles and connective tissues around my left hip joint. That's about all that is - not an injury, just a tweak. Realistically speaking, I did set overly high goals for myself, with my "minimax" being 280 and "supermax" being 300. Minimax is okay. Supermax is called super for a reason, he he. Logically, that was to be expected, especially considering I still haven't developed a skill of maxing out. On the other side - I know I am significantly stronger than I expected to be earlier (like during winter) and my gainZ are way higher than average. I used to have this mental block regarding how much you should gain, and yet here I am, having improved my d...

 24.05.2022 I just wanted to remember today. I got so massively "distracted" yesterday, after I was done working out. Didn't even have my supper on time, that was dumb. Didn't get any sleep at night, stayed up until a lesson. Lesson went very well, then I slept a little until another one. Had a moderate breakfast that somehow filled me up a lot. I had to go somewhere to take care of a tiny business, so I thought of either taking a taxi or walking. Decided to walk, did now accompish what I had in mind, but at least I bought some juice, milk, coffee and chocolate (for all the members of the Order). Coffee is for me though. But I do share it! When I don't get enough sleep I get "distracted" very easily. Something in the brain. Feeling like floating in warm water under scorching sun. Basically wanna sleep, but can't fall asleep yet. Tomorrow's a deadlift day. It's gonna be nice, one way or another! 25.05.2022 Nice day. Woke up early enough, but m...

 23.05.2022 Nice day so far. Worked some, had a nice breakfast, sleep = okay (not too much, not too little). Had some coffee - 17 grams of arabica times roughly 8. Feels like very little. I'm about to run out of coffee. I'm thinking of adding some old robusta that I have to the arabica. Maybe 1/3 of it. It will be bitter. But more caffeine?.. I wish robusta tasted better to me. It's possible to like it though, isn't it? Let's give it a shot. Made the coffee. 8 grams of old robusta + 24 grams of arabica + 297 grams of water. NGL, this Bushido arabica isn't as great as my previous brazilian coffee. Hmmm. Surprisingly tasteless. Watery. At first, at least. Then I can taste something resembling a woody taste. Tastes like oak smells. Way better than pure robusta. The aftertaste lasts for a while. Okay. One quarter robusta was okay. Rating it okay out of excellent. Ha ha. Well, it's almost 8 again. I think today I'm not going to be taking a lot of time. Thank ...

 21.05.2022 Nice day. It's been two years and one day since my new lifestyle began. I wrote about it in my earlier posts in this blog. Today - slept little, woke up early to work, had a decent sizeable breakfast. Could not fall back asleep after that. Must be cause I finally got enough sleep yesterday. I feel decently fresh. Arteries in my head feel a bit stretched. I wonder why. Started having coffee. Today - it's mostly bushido witht he leftovers of the old brazilian coffee. 38 grams over 319 water. Tastes nice. Been seein a lot of espresso videos in youtube. Thinking of trying that moka pot thing. Maybe I'll go somewhere tomorrow. Interesting fact - it's only 14:45 now. Hmm. Early for me to be writing in here. So much time wasted on bull silly things. Sometimes you just wanna confuse people. You want em to suffer just from seeing you. Just from seeing you act unnatural. Maybe not confuse. Maybe attract attention. --- Spent a lot of time cleaning the guitar, changing ...

 19.05.2022 Nice day. Slept very little. Woke up, had one quest cancelled, went back to sleep for a few minutes, did another quest, had breakfast - the same as usual, pretty much. lept some more. Woke up and made a soup, the one I like making - some potatoes, a lot of onions, some (or a lot) of tomatoes, ground tomatoes, tomato paste, meat, pepper, other spices, soy sauce (and fish sauce). Threw in some old rye bread for good measure - that'll make it super thick. It's basically a tomato soup tbh. I translated an article from english in russian wikipedia when I was fifteen. "Vale Tudo" and "Tomato soup". These days wikipedia saddens me. It's not knowledge they seek, but power. People who have control over it. Shame! Still, most of the stuff in wikipedia is normal. Maybe one day good people will come to be in control of it. You know, I forgot to do my "clean single" yesterday. Could've been done, if I kept my mind on it. Loaded 270 after 235...

 18.05.2022 Nice day. Slept little, had an awesome dream. Woke up, worked, ate decently (also ate a lot yesterday), tried to sleep, worked some more, fell asleep until almost 7. Now I'm having 24 grams of once ground coffee with 217 grams of water. Recently found an incredibly awesome band. Fullness of sound is what they have. Unusual but great vocal mixing and comping. Lyrical themes? I've not listened too much. They sing about the devil. Well, they sing about how devil is bad. Dark Passages - Satan's Diary. You know, like what's his name... the guy who wrote Narnia and his letters between big devil and small devil. Funny and curious. Talking about human nature. Satan's Diary by Dark Passages They ain't selling their stuff for free, which is a shame, but good for them. I finished my coffee. Did I tell you about the shit I took just now? Simply massive. Might be a PR (personal record). I think just smelling coffee makes you wanna poop a lot. The fact that I'...

 15.05.2022 Feeling strangely good. Things aren't as bad as they seem sometimes. Very stiff body today. CNS energy low. 16.05.2022 Nice day so far. Slept for a few hours, woke up, worked, had a decent breakfast, slept some more, then I couldn't work due to some telephone or internet malfunction. A little upsetting, but let's hope it's gonna fix itself, like it does sometimes. Slept some more. Yes, I did. Had groceries delivered. Had some new old coffee. New - meaning freshly bought, old - meaning I bought it once before. The taste didn't impress me too much, suggesting I'm still tolerant to coffee. Maybe not exactly. Today I'm having a "lighter" session. No heavy work. Thinking of doing some OHPs and benches, and squats. Lets still really sore from the weightlifting style squat I did on saturday. I think I oughta do BW squats every day. Just, like, 5 sets of 15 as a minimum. My new headphones seem to be giving me a headache, that's how strong t...

 13.05.2022 Did I tell you how not long ago I watched a cool movie - "The House That Jack Built"? Really cool movie. Very disturbing, confusing, a little disgusting, definitely not for kids, but the ending - as well as some nice details through the movie - make it worth it, give it some kind of meaning. I think I might have talked about it. Anyways, if you're a boy - I recommend watching it. For girls - only you're older. Made me interested in more movies by that Lars von Trier guy. I took him for an overrated pretentious director. Maybe he is, a little. Those epithets aren't quite condemning. But a nice movie that was, the one that I saw. 14.05.2022 Nice day. Woke up, worked some, no appetite, energy below average. Slept for quite a while. Woke up at 7PM. Energy = higher. Dreamt I was Superman and picked up a gun with cryptonite bullets, just in case there's even more cryptonians out there, ha ha. Had 20 beans of coffee, double ground, over 180 grams of water...

 12.05.2022 Nice day. Feeling a little fatigued from yesterday. Not very busy. Curbed my appetite (cause normally I force it), but I think my body is really demanding nutrients after a deadlift like that. Still, had a smaller than normal breakfast. Worked before, rested, saw a slightly strange but immensely enjoyable dream. What was it about? I dreamed I was in love with Courtney Miller from Smosh, heh. Woke up feeling very good. Energy is nice, but CNS is still fatigued. Had a smaller coffee, and another one. I think I should come off caffeine for a while, since I'm planning to have something like a max out soon. Received my new heat gun, not sure if I'm gonna try using it today. I was pondering whether I should go for heavy PPs today or not. I think I'm not gonna. Kinda wanna do bench and squats. It's 20:34. Pretty late. Coudn't even finish the second coffee. You know your body doesn't want any more caffeine when the coffee starts to taste bad. I have to find ...

 11.05.2022 Nice day. Slept nicely. Worked, had breakfast - pork sandwich with onion, tomatoes, ketchup and seared bun, some cucumbers, some bacon, some lettuce and feta cheese. Oats with raisins and cherry jam, some green tea. Relaxed for a while. Got a call from a potential client and realised I do indeed like tutoring, cause I kept imagining the stuff I could teach them, all the new themes imagination-involving techniques etc. Had coffee. Well, started having it. It's 17:57 right now. I had 35 grams of double ground arabica over 300 grams of water. Very nice. Still have a lot. With God's grace I'm way less "distracted" and I came to conclude that some problems I imagined I had didn't actually exist. God pried my eyes open and let me see reality for a second. Gratias Deo! I wanna use latin cause it feels more expressive, in a way. More people should learn and use more languages in their everyday speech. --- Almost an hour later. Did some mini quests around t...

 09.05.2022 Nice enough day. I switched from being generally "distracted" to being somewhat angry again. Just so we're clear - you don't get to know what exactly I mean by "distracted". Sorry about that. Some knowledge isn't for everyone. Slept okay. Woke up, worked, had a large enough breakfast, tried to sleep, worked some more, slept for a short while, started having coffee. Received some of the things for guitar refinish. Breakfast: leftover dumplings, seared old chicked shashlyk, some kolbasa (frick those who say "kielbasa"), two eggs, some cucumber, onion and tomato, very large bowl of instant oats with raisins and some cherry jam but I only had like 40% of it, left the rest for the evening. Had 40 double ground beans x9 water first, then 30 something (drinking it now). That's a lot of caffeine, you could say. Trying to figure out how to desolder and remove electronics from the G310 and it's hecking me up, especially with caffeine...