My training log and thoughts

 29.04.2021 Nice day. Sleep schedule still broken. Deadlift Warmup 200*6 mixed grip - hard 202 - 2 sets of 6, straps - much better Bodyweight squats 3 sets of 10 Rubber lat pulls Floor supported ring pullups - easy version 3 sets of 20 Pushups 10 2 sets of 20 with additional rubber resistance - much harder --- Made a video explaining the current situation with AI Dungeon, and has been chatting with different people, obtaining more information. Here is is! Well, it's my personal blog, so there isn't gonna be extra details.

 28.04.2021 Nice day. Sleep schedule = broken, again. I thought I was just gonna take a nap, ha ha. Real funny stuff is happening at AI Dungeon, and I just can't stop meme-ing devs and players - here's a short insight: https://www.reddit.com/r/AIDungeon/comments/n05f7t/update_to_our_community/ I've been making memes and posting them after a handful of coffee beans. And it's so late. I think I'll still be able to work out nicely today. Also, this morning I succumbed and bought Fallout 76 - it's been downloading on and off, really nice and consistent speed compared to so many other services. I just want to explore another piece of (fantasy) rural America. And I also love buildcrafting - figuring out the most efficient way to play. And there's a lot of it in there. Plus they released some update, so I watched a video and got hyped. It's almost 10 PM, and I only ever played guitar a tiny bit. So inconsistent. But music isn't military, you know, it's ...

 26.04.2021 Nice day. Not too much sleep, but enough. Chugged a lot of water right after I woke up - that energized me nicely. Why don't I do it more often? I feel so dehydrated after sleep, you just gotta shove some water down there so your body hydrates quickly. I don't drink enoughy clear water. Nice workout session - I had just the demeanor to go for some more volume today. Deadlift Warmup 200 fail with overhand grip, did it mixed 230*2 mixed grip 232*2 straps 235*2 237,8*2 238,1*2 - nice and easy, but not too easy, of course, it's supposed to be 85% of my max. Really enjoyed drumming today. Tried playing double bass in just my socks. There's no significant difference. Finally re-learned the boogaloo groove, really enjoyed playing it and playing different cymbals and accents with the bass drum. 16th notes on the bass drum - almost semi-decent, played at 94 and 90 bpm. You really gotta practice. The front of my calf din't get too pumped. Gotta keep practicing for...

 24.04.2021 Nice enough day so far. Yesterday was too. Both days seem to be at least 65/100. Maybe today will go up to 70. Did some long awaited work in the morning. Internet didn't slack out on me, thank God. I'm too nervous about it. Well, I'm less nervous than I was before. Fell asleep relatively early yesterday, then woke up at night and stayed awake until I had relatively little time to sleep. That was okay. Except my mind was all jumbled up and I confused some things that I had to do. I reckon if I grow any more lonely I'll be even deeper in dementia, ha ha. Accidentally fell asleep during the day and woke up at seven past meridian. Life is like a burning fire. Existence itself is. Endless, boundless, limitless movement and change. How can it stop? How can it start? As you can see, I'm already enjoying my coffee. I came here to script myself and tell myself that it is indeed my duty to write music rather than just practice. It's been over a month since I s...

 22.04.2021 Nice day. About 65/100. Less coffee than yesterday - only a handful of beans. Nice thick taste, and then a couple or re-brewed cups. Overhead press Warmup - very relaxed 100*2 110 for one and a half - pressed a bit to the front 110 - 3 sets of 2 - nice, easy and powerful, amped up. A tiny bit of drum practice - I played double pedal in weightlifting shoes (higher heel shoes), I think it's not comipletely right. Managed to play 16th notes so evenly at about 95 bpm - with right hand on the ride bell. And the snare was even too. I don't know how even it was in reality. but it felt good and groovy. At that point I play playing alongside a mechanical metronome. Bench press - very light 70*15 90 - 2 sets of 10 - I gotta do it more often. Squat 70 - 2 sets of 10 Floor supported ring pullups - 2 sets of 30 with some rest/pause. Been playing Fallout 4 today. Even though of purchasing Fallout 76. Just might do it.

20.04.2021 Man, you gotta pay for having fun. Having fun one day - too tired the next day. That's what I was today. A little grumpy, too. But thankfully I was able to avoid acting grumpy with the poeple around me, either by avoiding conversation or being very clear about how I feel. And now I feel really nice, after giving a lesson online and having almost no serious connection issues - the sound disappeared three times, but for no longer than a minute. And I had some drum practice - once again, practiced beats from this lesson , and practiced some 16th notes on the bass drum until my phone ran out of energy. Snare is much better today, at least that's how I feel like. Started playing Fallout 4 again - inevitably, it's an awesome game where you are given choices. My absolute favorite moment from it is the taking of the castle and rebuilding it. This game is just full of style and atmosphere, just like I want it. 21.04.2021 Nice day. At least 6/10. A lot of coffee. Jumbled a...

 19.04.2021 Nice day. About 7/10 so far, like many mondays are. On mondays I just happen to be full of energy, or at least I have the capacity to feel like I do. Overhead press 20-40-70-90 warmup 100*1 105 - 3 sets of 3 - I thought I put on 107 after the first set, lol. Very nice anbd strict reps today. Not military, but without heaving upwards. 108*3 - nice and easy as well. The plan was roughly 82% for 3 o' 3, so I had to add the 4th set, since I forgot to increase the weight. Squat 70 - 2 sets of 10 - once again, I keep forgetting which technique is good for me. Apparently it's the one with the narrow stance and knees pointing outwards. In between sets, as customary at this point, I played drums. Played those special exercises for limb independence, and spent about two minutes practicing 16th notes on the double pedal at 92 bpm - I went up one bpm since list time, and it's almost good, but I goota do some more practice. Interestingly enough, playing the bass drum with th...

 17.04.2021 Nice day. At least 6/10 overall. Had very small breakfast, did a modicum of work. Had coffee - first bland, then thick, then re-brewed. Nice weather, bright sky. Feels like "good old days". Deadlift 70-120-160 200*1 overhand - didn't hold it, just lifted and put it down, but didn't drop it. 220 - 222 - 225 - 225 - sets of 4 - nice and easy. Technique almost okay. Supersetted with drum practice. Improved slightly today - shortened the beaters, and leaned them back even further. Leaned myself back, touching the wall - like a throne with back support. Currently my drum throne is really something amusing - At least it's better than any alternatives that I currently have access to. And, very important thing - after double pedal tweaks I finally was able to play 16th notes evenly - at 90 bom. 95 - no cigar, yet. Close though. Kind of struggling to play the snare alongside them. Gotta do it slower, I guess. Also tried playing the snare on "ands". Wh...

 15.04.2021 Nice day. Keeping it light, once again. Played guitar a tiny bit. Decided to not go heavy on overhead press or to play drums. Overhead press 31 kg dumbell + 32 kg kettlebell 10 reps 15 reps 20 reps - nice, feels easy enough, not too strict, of course. Bodyweight squats 5 sets of 10 Pushups 2 sets of 20 Lat rubber pulls 2 sets of 15 Ended up drumming a bit after all. This time I set the pedals very close to each other, and found out that I accidentally overtightened the left string again. Well, in relation to the past before the previous one, I just wanna clarify that I don't feel a negative emotion towards someone that I care about. But there is a lot of pain that's been gathered over the years. So it's hard to resist negative impulses, even when I don't completely agree with them. Random picture of the day

 14.04.2021 Nice day. At least 64/100. A lot of overly sour coffee. Light session, moderate drumming practice. Deadlift Warmup 160 - 2 sets of 3 Prone floor supported ring pullups 4 sets of 15 1 set of 20 Curls, one arm 22 for 15 31 for 10 16 for 15 Nice. Obviously didn't spend too much time. Been playing GTA Online lately. Really nice game getting ruined by dirty business practices. A lot of "physical", "action" fun. Listening to the Great metal podcast while playing, cause it's mostly a gtrrindfest. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tUP37Byy_E Thought of buting a semi-hollow guitar today. I think I can only allow myself to do it once I save up money, so I'm not broke again after I buy something. Been buying way too much stuff this year, ha ha. If I haven't been buying stuff I would've saved enough to feel safe in case something happens. But I gotta live happy, not paranoid. Behold the fowls of the air! Random pic of the day

 12.04.2021 Nice enough day. Roughly 2/10 so far. I hate people from my past. If you ever call someone mad or crazy - I think you deserve to be removed from society. Why does a child need to suffer? Just because he's acting weird, the only people he trusts start to act like he's some kind of rabid animal. Your parents aren';t very good parents, are they? My father is long gone. I respect him for being a hrd worker. I think he was going crazy too in his last days, but I never put he down for it, unlike vice verse. And my mother is the worst offender, basically convicing me that I'm mentally ill. Guess what, people - I've beed through many doctors and medical commisions (when I was going to army, for example) and no one Oh, you deserve to burn. You, with your petty meaningless threats, intended to stimulate my imagination into creating a horror scenario inside of my mind. Is it gaslighting? It might be. To be fair, I often notice myself accidentally gaslighting people...

 10.04.2021 Very nice day. 7/10 so far, I'd say. Did some work, had coffee way too early - about 150 beans, then 100 more beans about an hour later. Deadlift Warmup - didn't do more than like 4 reps in warmup sets 190*8 - first rep was overhand, second rep was also overhand, but I only got it above my knees, still counted it for the session volume, the rest were mixed grip. 190 - 2 sets of 8 - straps, nice and quick, final set was the best. All reps dead stop on the floor. Bench 70*15 70*30 90*15 all nice and easy. I concluded that for my bench technique I'm definitely better of flaring my elbows out a little bit. as well as pronate my hands. That was my elbows don't hurt. And that was it. Drummed for almost two hours, constantly tweaking the double pedal, practiced different grooves as well. Using a wooden stool and a pillow, since my old throne is about to snap. I don't know what kind of a chait someone like me is supposed to get. Something super sturdy, or just u...

 07.04.2021 Great day. Woke up way too early. Had way too much coffee again. Received a MIDI card so I can connect an ancient keyboard to my PC, it didn't work at all. Requested a refund. Watched "The Little Girl Who Lives Down the Lane" - it's a movie made in 70s, so it was a really different experience to what I was expecting. Spend an hour practicing drums, but this time I dedicated some more attention to conventional beats, rather than just double pedal work. Really important - I changed the spring tension to somewhat low, and really pulled back the beaters, so they're almost hitting my foot. It turned out to be so much better than the opposite. That's because a lot of tutorials on bass drum settings come from lazy boyz who love to play their kick triggers rather than bass drums, which they actually use for just decoration. Overhead press Warmup 90 - 4 sets of 8 - nice, not too hard, strict enough, felt good And that's it. Taught the kids some music, t...

 04.04.2021 Nice day. Didn't make too many mistakes yesterday, so I feel good. Well, I did make mistakes, but they weren't as severe as in the last two weeks. It's really important to preserve your brain biochemistry if you want to be a creative person. 05.02.2021 An even better day. Had some coffee (a lot, but not as much as last monday). Deadlift Warmup 200*2 attempt at overhand, did with mixed grip 220*2 mixed 230*3 straps 235*2 240*2 nice and easy 70 - 2 sets of 10 - wide grip Some drum practice. About an hour later Floor supported pullups - slightly shorter range 15 30 Bodyweight squats 20 30 30 more - nice easy pump, if you do it right. That was it for the day. Random picture of the day - I've been missing them Woronora dam in Australia  

  03.04.2021 Nice day. Not much to say. Actually feeling slightly better than normal. Had some coffee - about 120 beans, didn't get too uninhibited. Overhead press Warmup - really quick 100*3 110 - 3 sets of 2 - nice. Training time - about 40 minutes. Very good! Practiced some basic beats and 16th notes on the double pedal. Some light shoulder pumping with a 16kg kettlebell and a 7 kg bar. Prone ring pullups (legs on the floor) 3 sets of 10 Bodyweight squats 2 sets of 20 That's about it for now. Not much else to say. Played GTA5 a tiny bit yesterday. It felt like I entered a different reality. It really is a parody of real life though, very much a comedic game. Played GTA Online for the first time ever - but it was late and I felt bored. I think I'll stick to singleplayer for a while, if I am going to play this at all. Well, single player is worth doing again, I guess, it's like a long rather captivating movie.

 01.04.2021 Nice day. Only a moderate amount of darkness crawling through my shriveled mind. Overall, a joyous day. Late night training & drums session. Looking at funny april 1st on the internet. EMC Productions baited his viewers with a thumbnails of fnially making a hihats out of gongs - silly idea, isn't it? It'd made more sense to just cut two large sheets of any metal into hihats rather than to use actual gongs. Ans then you can call it a "gong hihat". Maybe one day I'll do the same - just use random sheet metal as cymbals. They're not going to sound conventional, that's for sure. Ha ha. Also AI Dungeon made a funny thing - they added an "emoji interpretation" of text. Link here Deadlift 70*4 120*4 160*4 200*4 - one nice overhand rep - PR since my finger injury :D The rest were mixed grip, which, albeit gratifying, might have been a dubious decision. 210*4 straps 220*4 nice and easy Floor supported ring pullups, somewhat prone position...