My training log and thoughts

 30.11.2024 OHP session 10 - 5 sets of 4 with 80%. 103-105 kgs. Could be easy? Warmup - nothing too excessive this time. No stretches, just blood filling up muscle carefully. Workout Overhead press 20 - 40 - 70 90 for 5 kinda hard, but moved easy enough 100 for 4 same Working out really anchors me, floats me up to the surface in a good way. I'd buoys, but I'm not sure if I like this expression, cause a buoy just stays there statically, unlike an anchor which goes up and down when necessary. 103 for 4 kinda better. It felt kinda easy but the bar didn't move quite perfectly... But it was decent. I think we're gonna go back to an old meta - spreading volume between OHP and PP. I will get good at PP and set a PR. 105,5 for 4 lovely. My amplitude, my intended movement wasn't perfect, but my CNS carried through, as well as muscle did. The last rep was unnecessarily strict as I started too slowly. But this was a great set. Push press 70 for 2 very nice, super explosion. ...

 28.11.2024 Nice day so far. Nutrition feels okay. 82,5% for 4 sets of 3 - Deadlift session 4 . I think we'll be careful and go from 230 to 250 - rather than just 250. I've been playing a lot of Sims 3 after all. It runs smoother with the new disk and some extra mods. Revisiting the characters I created in May 2023... I can see my mind and soul have gotten healthier, happier. Workout Ponderations on warmup and how I currently associate warming up with getting injured - cause all these warmups recently did not help at all. Some thigh outward twists with a thick rubber band around knees 20 - 70 - 120 - 160 200 for 3 mixed grip, feels okay 230 for 3 not bad, mixed grip 240 for 3 nice, not bad, smooth, velocious Kind of a random thought - what all this wokeness garbage that had gotten into the throats of even the majority Democrat voters - what if all that is a form of inoculation to create a strong, healthy America for a hundred years? Works exactly like a vaccine - doesn't de...

 27.11.2024 Nice day. Not feeling too great, however - physically, that is. Yesterday, after those paused squats - and they were really long pauses - I kinda felt super limber, especially since I strained my back last Wednesday (technically it was Thursday after 0:00, but no matter). So yeah, I woke up yesterday feeling decent and had a lovely time until I strained my pec on mere 130 kg bench. It's a fairly light strain, it doesn't hurt outside of doing bench. I'd like to hope it was indeed very light and I'm not jinxing it, lol. Cause, as I said before, you can jinx it psychologically, which, I suspect, is something I'm doing all the time - thinking it's a super light strain/injury, continuing to load it and straining it some more until it's pretty bad. It's definitely what I've done with my left side on squats, and thus I spent all of October without heavy DLs and squats. But now they're more or less okay. My plan to try the adaptogens isn'...

 26.11.2024 Nice day. Tuesday, believe it or not. I was so strangely relaxed yesterday. It makes sense - I postponed my Saturday workout onto Sunday and now my Monday workout has slid to Tuesday. I slept pretty much all day yesterday and today as well. I've been sleeping way more. Must be the climate... Or the fact that I'm trying adaptogens again. I know, I know - it's pseudoscience. But something compels me, still. I just know they're making me feel different. I admit, I suspect that the most active ingredient in them is the alcohol. Two teaspoons of that stuff, chinensis and rhodiola. And that's enough to fuck me up... Hmm. I kinda doubt it'll last, me taking it, that is. But I just gotta see it. I'm certain it helped turn me into a casual alcoholic back in the day, before 2015 even... Today I feel great. My back feels much better, especially compared to yesterday. Almost nothing. I wanna do some bench and some very light squats today. And the alloted tim...

 24.11.2024 Ever since I came back home I've been noticing how my PC shits itself, disk-wise. It gets clogged and I'm like 'wth?'. So, on Friday I asked chatgpt what might be the issue, listing some of the things, like using the Eraser tool, windows updates or clogging up my disk to a point of having less that 10 gbs of free space - optimal usage, if you're unaware of the trivial nuance of how PCs work. Upon chatgpt's suggestion I installed CrystalDiskInfo and it said that my SSD is lowkey a zombie! It had 0% health. So, it was basically a functioning but dead item? Something tells me that it's been this way for definitely more than a year. I purchased a new SSD, an M.2 one - Western Digital WD Black SN850X, 2 terabytes. Sure was nervous on occasion, I even ended up deleting *all* of my games so that all me data only took 120 gbs, even backed up some of my music files and Cakewalk projects. Something tells me I simply didn't need to do it, since cloning ...

 20.11.2024 Nice day. Slept well. I came to conclude that the only way to switch up your sleep schedule is not to wake up early, but go to bed early! Waking up early does not change the time when you fall asleep , going to be early does! It makes all the sense in the world. Today my nutrition is decent - I had a lovely breakfast with pork cutlets and a lot of veggies, and quite some time later I had three eggs and some toast... Kinda very basic. I think our session a week ago can be considered session 2 in the program... I know it's kinda silly to use the same program for everything, but there are differences. So today's session 3 - 77,5% for 5 sets of 5, and don't forget nice warmup? 230-233 kgs? Reasonable, I think... My side has been only bothering me when I lie on it. My abs and obliques have grown bigger and stronger - mostly cause I just focus on the mentally throughout the day, doing tiny little exercises, flexing them... Yesterday was kind of a weird day. It was oka...

 18.11.2024 Nice day. Slept well, ate slightly above average - my own chicken soup that I lowkey went overboard with again. Way too much spice, caramelized onions, a great amount of borth that I kept pouring in... At some point I decided to remove all bones from the chicken, but realized it'd be excessive. Still ended up doing it (most of the bones) in the end. To be fair, my method of removing bones was to just cut off large chunks and eat the meat off of the hard-to-reach places. Then I put the meat back in the soup. Somehow, I felt like I was overfilling... A random black cat started meowing outside. I decided to feed it the wing, with a large part of breast meat on it. I walked out and it ran away, no matter how much I tsk-tsked it. I had to drop the piece there, but I only decided to leave the top part of the wing. Later I gate it more bones, like the backbone and I think pelvis. Do birds have a pelvis? I enjoyed writing yesterday... You just have to make sure you stop at the ...

 16.11.2024 Nice day. I've been sleeping a lot, really enjoying my dreams. It feels good, like I'm back in my teenage years again when I could almost always sleep for 12 hours. So very different from recentmost years... Had one large conventional brew. Buzzing properly. I wanna buy a gun, a pump shotgun ideally, but I'm lowkey lazy to get a license and all that... I ended up gorging on my second coffee. It feels excessive, hehe. Time to get to it. Workout Warmup - some, upper body Bench press 20 and 70 100 for 10 110 for 10 120 for 5 I was too bored to take a long break, so I frog-squat-jumped around the half empty garage, using mostly my calves while in deep knee bend relaxed position, with my elbows in on my thighs 130 for 5 nice, pecs start to feel strained, but relatively evenly. I'm doing some cheating - not touching to the chest, pushing up ass a little. Velocity is great. 130 for 5 nice 130 for 5 alright, after a short break as well. Unloaded the bar very easily,...

 14.11.2024 OHP session 20 - 85% for 3, 4 sets of 87,5%. 103 and 105 kgs... Could be light. And then 108 for a strict single. I feels decent, smooth. Pulling muscles a little sore, mostly glutes much to my curiosity. All stiff like some kind of plastic insulation, hehe. CNS feels fire, excited even. I'd say I'm 67% excited, overall energy-wise, arguably even more than yesterday. I was feeling so strangely numb yesterday, it was weird. My little elbow tweak was hurting, but not from action, it was hurting after I kept the hand on hte mouse for too long, cutting circulation. My desk is a little awkward, it could benefit from being a little lower. I wonder if I could buy adjustable table legs, or maybe just and adjustable little table instead of what I have. I don't wanna tweak my elbow further, and I also wanna work on my PP, as well as my pushing power. I've been thinking of simply adding rack squats, partial ones, for reps primarily - back and front. Could do some toda...

 13.11.2024 Deadlift Warmup - some, just pwc pipe dls 20 and 70 120 for 5 163 for 5 all lovely and smooth, grip strong 193 for 5 smooth, using mixed grip, skin hurts like it used to a year ago - all that was done as a 'quick warmup', relatively quick anyway (I went to the WC before this set) 213 for 5 okay, pretty smooth as well, but not as light as I hoped! Possibly because I was in a hurry as I made a silly bet with myself to finish the set before the song is over, which led to a very curious time dilation effect - something that usually takes about 10 minutes took only three (3:11, a Dominus song) 223 for 5 okay, about the same. Again ribs popping on the left, clashing with the muscle - but at least it wasn't an issue on a lighter weight 223 for 5 a little better, although I took at break after three reps to put the belt higher since my hip flexor was cramping (a normal thing) 223 for 5 nice, smoothest set of them all. Put the belt up high. Haven't recorded anything ...

 11.11.2024 November 11th... Thirteen years of Skyrim. Bethesda has turned into a fucking zombie, brain overtaken by corporate parasites. Yeah, I've enjoyed playing ESO and FO76, those are quite alright. FO4 was great. They wanted to replicate the success of Skyrim with Starfield. They don't want to admit that all this work they put in is going to be wasted. They've grown complacent under the whip&carrot of the suit-wearing fat cats. Fuck all this corporate this. It's kind of obvious to me that Microsoft is to blame. Make big money, they say. It was a beautiful, snowy white day. I strolled into the store and saw it on the shelves, in the jewel cases. I think I still have it. Came home and realized I need teh internet to play it... Didn't have it back then! No stable internet connection, no nothing. Freedom isn't free, baby, you rent it out with your blood one fiscal month at a time. I support piracy. If you don't own the things you buy then there's n...

 09.11.2024 OHP session 19 - 5 sets of 2 with 85% . 102 kgs. Hmm. It's kinda light, isn't it? Well, I gotta do it super strict then. And then one strict rep with 90%... Had one nice conventional coffee. It felt good. I had a decent meal - a stew I made in a rice cooker - before I went to bed. It got potatoes, onions a lot of pork and a great amount of spice, some oil and water mixed in which ended up making it more soupy. I put six tomatoes on top of the mass to 'mix them in'; it was really hot when I ate it. Should have added more pepper. Today I got some honey toast and one conventional brew, took my sweet time to double grind it, it felt good, not irritating. My testosterone, subjectively speaking, feels surprisingly high. My mood is great, I'm smiling; the imagery in my mind is comedic more so than violent. Workout Warmup - long, mostly focusing on my stiff legs. I wore a really narrow rubber band on my legs and did some half-squats while maintaining relatively ...

 07.11.2024 Nice day. Slept well, nutrition mediocre. Properly blasted after yesterday, since my dl muscles were all untrained, hehe. Next week is going to be very different, hopefully... I had so many nice dreams but forgot most of it. Generally nice, no disturbing moments. Today I'm hoping to do some squat and bench. Workout Warmup - some Squat 20 - 70 - was surprised to realize I started with 70 100 for 2 sets of 5 110 for 2 sets of 5 That's it. My side almost doesn't bother me... Bench 20 - 50 - 70 90 for 10 95 for 10 95 for 20 That's it. Feels good. No lasting repercussions!

 06.11.2025 Lovely day. Sleep uneven, this workout is gonna happen real late. Good okay. Been force-eating fruits and veggie, needs that NO2 or whatever. Feeling angry, but that anger is kinda under a blanket. I've been feeling just a little bit like I wanna kick shit around but it's so much easier to not do this than on other days. I'm a fcuking bomb and I don't give a shit, hehe. Piss on me the best you can, you ain't gonna wet my gunpowder. Kick at me, chop at me with shovels til an errant spark lights my fuse, hehe. I'll blow the fuck up and tear you into pieces, bleed, lie down and bleed and forget yourself. You are done and I have always been done. Anyways, I'm finishing my second conventional brew. It's a curious physiological thing, pre-deadlift anger. And today I'm thinking of doing 4 sets of 5 with appropriate weight. Pray for me, for real! I don't wanna get more hurt. Writing, very slowly... Gonna write more later. Gosh, I so wanna dea...

 04.11.2024 Nice day. Slept a little too long, very peaceful again. Yesterday was kinda the opposite, played a lot of music with my little brother. Today I got up real late, had a porkchop and an egg, had one conventional. It got really sour in the end, so for my second one I poured the coffee into the little old teapot I bought in July, a metallic one. Yet to see how it turns out. Kinda feeling a little too full, the training session is going to happen pretty late. OHP session 18 - 4 sets of 3 with 82,5% . 99, rounded up to 100, maybe more... It's all so easy, I'm kinda cutting myself some slack by picking 120 as my max - but I have not really done 120 strictly, and so far all of my sessions were done very strictly. I have a lot of extra power. And I am bringing back PP again. I'd love it if I could make PP a mainstay... Also, good news - I had absolutely no issues with my side yesterday. And I've also been doing some squat variations with rings, mostly just staying in...

 02.11.2024 Nice day. Slept way too much, felt way too good, too undisturbed. I've been successfully shifting my sleeping schedule back to more normal, simply by taking melatonin earlier. Today it shifted back somehow, all that energy pulsing, not having coffee yesterday, all so weird, but not bad. Been off, been feeling off but not in a bad way, like I'm trying to walk on top of a sideways slope, it's not bad but it's weird. The dreams I saw, they had the usual phenomenon, they both felt nice and were disturbing, curious. Also I had a little hallucination, if you will, well, not really - I saw something in my dream which I believed to be true (received a message on my phone), something that someone usually sends me but the fact that they sent it at the wrong time felt awkward, so I woke up and checked it all and apparently I dreamt it up. I blame the weather, hehe. I've been feeling so good physically, so loose, so lazy, so undisturbed, it feels so weird. I gotta w...