My training log and thoughts

 30.10.2023 Nice day. Woke up feeling both sleepy and not at the same time - a strange feeling. Like, a part of my brain must have gotten restored and part not. Been having stomach issues, it's been hurting. Omeprasole didn't help much. Decided to try some tea with caffeine mixed. Could feel it, but it was kinda weak. New coffee is gonna arrive tomorrow, at a reasonable price. I ran out of hyper expensive, left with old cheap overroasted one. Made a small brew - it was not bad. Went number two just from smelling it, it took quite a while. Yeah, I'm talking about it cause it's the part of the physical culture process. My stomach got better, hurting less, only for short periods of time. I hope it'll all just pass, cause ofter there are ailments that come up and disappear. Cause the doctor aint ever been able to straightforward tell me what's wrong. Giving me silly herbs and stuff. That kinda stuff - "traditional" medicine - it still around. That's ca...

 28.10.2023 Nice day. Been "tunneling". Slept little, ate moderate. Been having some kind of issue, some kind of irritation in my head. Don't know what it is. Something's a little off. Need help. It's all about pacing yourself, perhaps. I'm not sure how I feel and when I should work out. I feel like it might be a good day for a little break. Make my light sessions even lighter. See how I feel tomorrow. Cause I sort of woke up earlier today, that's good. Also, it only took me one night to redownload GTAV - that's great. Just a few hours! Workout Flys, full range - sets of 15 only 2+2 kg dumbbells - 1 set 6+6 - 1 set 8+8 - 2 sets, nice, surprisingly hard Pushups, sort of a hollow body - more like when you push something or when you learn to do planche, rather than when you bench 3 sets of 20 - cool, hard, technique uneven, unusual muscles loaded, very easy pump. I even had to hake a break after 15, cause I moved my arms way too low. Good news - my right ...

 27.10.2023 Nice day. Been succumbing to sleep. Worked today. Had little food, but not too hungry. That must be the weather. Ever since my brother and I closed the water pipe to the porch sink the pressure stopped dropping in the heaters. It must have been leaking there. Last night (this morning) I finally finished Baldur's Gate 3. Awesome game. 176 hours for one playthrough. Deleted it - the ending was impressive, lovely, better than a movie in a cinema. I'm gonna reinstall GTAV and maybe play it until Christmas. I wanna see the end of the Halloween month in it, and the Christmas events too. I've been sort of missing the virtual Los Angeles, no matter how unrealistically small it is. Hey, it feels big if you play it right. It is still an utterly detailed world. And I also can't wait for that curious soothing effect that this game has one my brain. Unless you're fighting toxic griefers, of course. Else it's a lovely relaxing kinda game with moderate action. You ...

 26.10.2023 Nice day. Could not fall asleep for an unusually long time yesterday. I guess it's cause my workout ended much later than normal. And I've only had one moka and one small conventional brew yesterday. Played BG3 again, almost got to the complete end. No spoilers, perhaps. Maybe after I'm done playing. I wanna reinstall and play GTAV before the end of October again. I sort of foresee myself entering another small GTAV and RDR2 period. A little confused as to what I'd like to train today. I've squatted on Monday, so I can wait til Saturday to squat. I think I might do OHPs and attempt to reintroduce PPs back into the fray again. Although my right elbow might have shown a symptom of misbehavior tonight, possibly related to DL. I love my yesterday's workout. The only painful thing was skin pain, even my backbone wasn't very strained. I love how I can deadlift without straps suddenly (almost). I found myself watching a lot of random BG3 videos again. I...

 25.10.2023 Nice day. Yesterday was just horrible, except for playing BG3 later. Well, not "just horrible", it had some prolonged bad moments. Not a big deal. Except it must have drained some more of my energy. I feel good enough for my late night DL today. Only having my first coffee now. Been watching some of Steve Wallis videos. He's the cool guy that likes to camp in wild conditions, urban too. Kinda like a very well prepared hobo. I love his vids, they're so atmospheric, they stimulate my imagination immensely. Also, I've finally gotten to writing the actual story again. Once again, still too much fluff volume, a-la sims gameplay, but I still prefer it this way. Really enjoyed BG3 yesterday, finally did that, uhm, portal to hell mission, not to give too many spoilers. Killed em all, freed the hostage. Was kinda easy, but I was overpreparing, summomed a lot of creatures - angels, djinns, and little funny ice imps. I wish there was a game like BG3 set in a semb...

  24.10.2023 Nice day. Yesterday was a total blaster. Even my neck is fatigued somehow (might have been the pillow). Felt great. Today felt nice too. Slept deeply, I'd rate it 74/100, maybe more. Ate well, at least 65/100. Not too much. Having one oldschool brew with 18 grams of beans and around 250 grams of water. Smooth. Works strangely fast and good, like I'm very young again (The caffeine, that is). I remember when I wasn't much of a coffee drinker, back in 2011 and I tried it, the instant coffee. It was fascinating. Like having that unbridled energy after sleeping for 12 hours quietly and undisturbed. But, of course, it's just a way to exert more control over your CNS. Obviously, it can be done very unwisely. Been re-reading the book a lot, remembering. Editing, mostly small edits. Not writing somehow. Today is pretty late. I'd like to do bench. Thinking of 130-140 for 4 sets of 3 - mirroring the OHP. Smart? Maybe. Is it silly to mirror? Not necessarily (althou...

 22.10.2023 Nice day. Woke up early, took a caffeine pill to cement it - it has been working, although it does lead to inevitable dips from time to time. Just another somewhat gentle method to control your body. Gave a lesson, ate almost nothing - I catch myself eating vegetables for some reason. I had a decent fatty meal yesterday. A little sleepy, as it happens, but now I'm gonna have my first moka. Re-reading part II of Marco (not chapter II). Also read part I couple days ago, it's better than I remember. It's got simple language. A genre/tonal shift. It's funny how little in control of ourselves we are. A clear separation. I find myself feeling things my mind has no reason to feel. A mute communication. If you tried being closer to yourself, you would feel something. You'd understand the part of you that doesn't speak words, but still very much thinks and feels. A clear divide in me, forced to speak for two, or even more than two. But hey, sometimes we agree...

 21.10.2023 Nice day, lovely, actually. Yesterday was great, but kinda messy. The first part of the day was nice, cause I walked and took it all in, and I had fun. Then I cleaned compulsively, cooked potato after cutting out rotting parts. It turned out lovely. But then it all went hazy, into split layers, like when you drop a cake. Too much caffeine. Today I gave some lessons, it felt good, had some coffee right away, slept tight, also took a painkiller cause of stinging pain in my right hip. I've been partaking, but not as much as I did in 2017 with aspirins, that deats damage to my stomach, nowadays I occasionally take one per month, and not aspirin too. Hmm. I've been enjoying butter coffee today. Cause butter is a lot like milk, you know, it goes well into hot coffee. So, I wanna have a third one. It's kinda late. How angry will my body become? Not too angry, acutally, cause we know each other and I can feel it. My body is my buddy, hehe. So, one more coffee, 40 minute...

 20.10.2023 Nice day. Slept well, gave lessons, didn't eat (wasn't hungry), decided to take a walk for groceries. I took it seriously and listened to my music, also used euqalizer to help with the outdoors sound, so it's not that overbearing and loud and I can still hear it. Enjoyed the walk, the sun set during it. The nearby store was closed, walked a little further away. really enjoyed my time there. Also, I popped the caffeine pill before lessons, so no wonder. So many faces, it's absolutely ovewhelming. Very few people wanna look me in the eyes when I look at them. I hope we humans don't have the exact culture as gorillas, cause then it would be awkward. Hey, at least i wasn't showing teeth, I was just smiling contendedly. The blue coffee in that store costed two times the price of it in the online store. Outrageous! So, it's not so obvious after all. Had one coffee. I wonder if I have Tourette's syndrome. I've succumbed to the millenial trend of...

 19.10.2023 Lovely day. Slept well, ate okay. A little tired, CNS slowed down a little, like on T o uesday. Heh, I genuinely mistyped "Toesday". I have so many stereotypical typos, they're a little annoying. And I also find myself pronouncing some words (or parts) instead of typing them, so they're just missing from the sentence. Anyway, I had a moderate protein breakfast, did not want any tea, so I went for a moka with 17 (rather than 20) grams of ground Julius Meinl (overpriced) coffee. The coffe that I've had before costed less than a half and was surprisingly just as good. But it was not as good as Blue Jardin Colombian or Red Japanese thingy... Bushido, right, they got good instant coffee (even more overpriced). Been wondering to myself if instant coffee might be cheaper. Could calculate, if I had a habit of drinking it, if I knew it can replace my beans. So, I'm gonna add a workout to my squat program, cause it's moving too fast. I would have been We...

 18.10.2023 Nice day. Slept well, nice dreams. Ate alright too. Writing, playing with Stable Diffusion ML on my own card. Mostly random stuff, after I overcame an impusle to generate very specific things. I did, believe it or not. So, we're once again going from 250 to 265 in 4 sets of 3. Should be nice. Workout Warmup - minimal, a few reps with the ez bar Deadlift 20 70 for 10 120 for 8 160 for 5 fingertips 200 - one failed rep overhand, but I knew it was about my CNS. One medicore oh rep, one good one, one half rep (laft hand failed!), one mixed grip rep (so 4 overall) 230 for 3 pretty easy, mixed grip feels very comfy, partially tore off some calluses 250 for 3 nice, easy, skin hurts only for a minute 255 for 3 nice, did two reps, skin hurt, dropped, did a third one slowly. Realised I'm deadlifting with almost fingertips on mixed grip. 260 for 3 very good, just effort. Straps. I put on left first, I dunno but I feel like it helped avoid some of my typical problems. Also, foc...

 17.10.2023 Nice day. My body's taking the energy back. Are well, slept long, woke up completely groggy. Had a moderate meal, a lot of carbs. Had one moka and one small brew. Just gonna condition and pump my pressing muscles and legs. Workout Flys (not flies) full range, angles similar to OHP (but arms straight, of course) 2+2 kg kg dumbbells - 2 sets of 20 6+6 kg dumbbells - 3 sets of 20, nice pump Calf raises 2 sets of 30 both legs 2 sets of 30 one leg (switching at 15, then again) - a lot of fun, they're blowing up. I oughta do one-leg jumps too, cause here I'm trying to control the the weight (my whole body!) without using support (except when I lose balance) As I might have mentioned before, I love calf raises cause they warm up your whole legs while the blood gets there. And the legs are, of course, not just standing there, but also flexing a little bit. Squats 4 sets of 10 - trying to keep my feet on the floor and going deep and also keeping the torso braced and avoi...

 15.10.2023 Nice day. Slept little, ate well, finally had some carbs (buckwheat). Carbs are underrated imho, at least this type. Been wanting to play GTAV again, the toxic game, do all the semi-mindless action-full missions. But also I played BG3 yesterday after a short break, enjoying it. I'm close to finishing the main story. Act III is longer than it seems on the surface! And I really breezed through the first part of it way too quickly. The first two acts though, they're still more fun. If I'm gonna have a second playthrough I'll make sure to intersperse overworld Act II content with unfinished Act I content. The amount of lines the characters have in the game in astonishing. The devs thought of so, so many things other companies would have never even gotten an idea about. The game is more interactive than any other game I've played... ever. Yes, ever! Astonishing that's it's claimed it's place on a pedestal of my most acclaimed games, the ones that ...

 14.10.2023 Nice day. Slept and ate well, 7/10 maybe even. Week 8, Session 2  in squat - 80% for 2 sets of 3, 87,5% for 3 sets of 1. Hmm. Not so sure about this today, honestly. Is Saturday a better choice than tomorrow? Well, I do feel pretty good, although possibly maybe a little too relaxed, just like last week on deadlifts. Haven't had any coffee today. It'd be great if I worked out after only a little bit of coffee and did it all well. Let's see... I wonder if I really love pain, or is that, like, an overexaggeration that happened to have to come to life on its own? Obviously I don't love pain, especially physical pain, and it is the only type of pain you can, you know, experience very direct pleasure from - simple endorphins. Everyone can do that, but the panic and worry usually hide it. Exercise is a much safer way to epxerience endorphins and a feeling of mental satisfaction. The fact that it's low reps today sort of makes it easier. Should be nice, and I de...

 12.10.2023 Okay day. Sleep 6/10, food about the same. Pretty tired, but not that much. Gonna have a lightest workout again, help my elbow, ease my supestitious fears. Workout Curls / overhead presses superset 2 kg dumbbells - 2 sets of 20 for each exercise 6 kg dumbbells - 2 sets of 20 27 kg ez bar - 1 set of 20 Calf raises 20 - 30 - 40 Squats 2 sets of 30, plates under heels 13.10.2023 Much better day than the previous two. On the prvious two we've gone down to 89, both good and bad. Not to confuse with my BW, which, according to the scales, is between 105 and 108 in clothing. Sleep 5/10, but I felt good after waking up. Food 65/100, maybe even 7/10. Ate well, appetite mediocre but not hungry. Been eating a lot of veggies and fruits. What else? Feeling nice today. Playing the acoustic inpiredly. I got the rhythm. Gotta learn more of those semi-cheap tricks... or come up with them on my own. Acoustic is a vibe. Writing. Done with the spin-off story. It messed me up. It's a bad...

 11.10.2023 Nice day. Sleep 55/100, food 6/10 albeit low appetite. I have to rest my elbow, perhaps - lighter weights for a short period. I've come to this conclusion after being slightly scaremongered after watching Omar Isuf's latest video where he talks about his own elbow, lol. I've had mine for fourteen years, it's good for everything except extending to 180 degrees, so I'm pretty sure I've nothing to worry about, especially today. Workout Warmup - just EZ bar for 10 smooth fast reps, feeling my CNS. Never stretch anything before deadlift. Deadlift 20 for 10 70 for 9 120 for 8 160 for 7 200 one partial rep overhand - definitely haven't got the grip today. Could summon it later. Then two or three reps in straps, impulsively experimenting with some aspects of the technique. Well, warmup sets can be usable this way, perhaps, even if still off-putting. And the gentle staircase from 10 reps to 4 reps isn't gonna happen xD 230 for 4 mixed grip. Unusual an...

 10.10.2023 Nice day. I haven't been more crushed like that in a while. Elbow hurts from mechanical tension I exerted on it yesterday. Absolutely no appetite. So, last week I started writing a strange little spinoff based on a fairly random idea I had, but also not that original. Back when I played AID, it was still a game, I wasn't trying to write a book and all, but all the adventures I've had in them felt so real, still. It's good that I kept my imagination alive. In this littel spinoff, that little idea I explored strange things. All my characters are based off various psychological ideas. In Marco, there's a whole hidden sublot based around an organisation. And it's just not in the book. And I have not posted, or anything that happened in November that year (in Pleasantview). If you have not been reading everything in this blog meticulously, this might sound confusing. And if you have then I'm sorry for intentionally confusing you, because I just can no...

 08.10.2023 Great day, feeling great. Woke up earlier than normal, worked more that usual. Feeling extra energy. The night was cold. I kept seeing dreams about (spoiler) The Emperor from BG3, hehehe 😉 Cause I watched one of his cutscenes, even though I ain't been playing yesterday. Yesterday, I was drained. I was drained on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday at night, to a varying degree. Today I feel much more fresh than I have been in a long time. Like, a part of my brain is extra creative. Also, I have been eating rather little - a couple eggs swallowed hastily, a few bananas, a few glasses of milk. Two mokas and one small conventional brew. I'm thinking of doing bench today, and PP + Squat tomorrow. Reasonable? Yes, on the surface it is reasonable. Light-medium-light bench, sets of 5, around 120. 4 sets of 5, maximum velocity, no pauses whatsoever. When you've got the same muscle strength composition as me it sort of feels easier to bench with a pause, and bumpi...

 07.10.2023 Nice day. Finally slept well, it feels like more than 7/10. Ate - not as much, I don't feel hungry. Walked to the store, picked up a cart there, ended up buying more groceries than I ever did on foot. The walk was funny. I realise naturally I have upturted front facing ribs, due to my stature and my lifestyle. And that, funny enough, made it harder to breathe with the backpack and a bag in my hand. I also had to keep my hand fully supine. So, breathing was much easier when I leaned forward. At some point, however, my backpack's zipper slid open, a pack of eggs fell out and a as weel as jar of tomato sauce. I didn't lose any eggs, curiously enough; some of them cracked, so I immediately cooked them once I got home. It must be curious to walk the road and a see a random glob of tomato sauce on it, like somebody must have tried to feed a stray animal with it, right? Hehe. You don't gotta be afraid of the road, even if you ain't got a car. A psychological th...

 05.10.2023 Nice day. Not much. I was mentally exhausted yesterday, not tired, but feelign empty. The more neutral kind of empty, if you will. Slept kind of too little, woke up at 15:30. Food? Somewhat decent, 6/10 right now. Had one coffee so far. Feels smooth. I kinda wish to have warmer coffee sometimes. I'd like it if it was possible. Week 5, Session 2 - 5 sets of 4 with 80%. I think I'll just do exactly 100, maybe slightly more. Workout No warmup - silly Clean and press 20 - 50 - 70 went smooth 90 - 1 clean, 3 presses - smooth, although I got close to losing consciousness 100 - 3 attempts at a clean, one of them succesful, although I was pinching the bar, the weight on my thumb muscle (between thumb and index finger). I only really have problems with my front rack and catching the bar. Should have warmed up better! Overhead press 100 - 5 sets of 4 - very strict. Shorter break between last three sets - just stood in the garage, doing a few stretches and talking about the ...

 04.10.2023 Nice day. Not much, very quiet. Sleep slightly above average, six hours, but woke up easily. Food about the same - not much variety, but I think enough nutrients overall. Had a caffeine pill. They actually taste nice, in a certain way. I just chew on them though, cause I think it absorbs easier this way. And then dilute it with some tea. Been writing a lot. Yesterday I got a little "distracted" from the main storyline, and started writing a background story for a set of currently unimportant characters, set over a decade from the main storyline. In the early nineties. I put very few era-appropriate references, but when I do, I become overwhelmed with nostalgia. I wonder if there is a good place to share the stories somewhere. I'm pretty afraid of negative constructive comments, cause I'm a natural elitist, in a way. But you have to be pretty skilled to hand out those. Heh, like a deluded aspiring chef getting put down by Gordon Ramsey. That's I'm a...

 03.10.2023 Maybe it's a little strange, but today it's gone down to 94. Only 94 times til I'm out! That means next time it'll be 93. Nice sleep, above average. Nutrition - almost exactly average, maybe below. I'm getting my proteins and fats, at least, have little appetite. I really enjoyed my first coffee today, second one was nice too, shaking my heat to cool music, listening through large speakers, feeling the vibe in my feet. Actually, I feel the vibe even when I'm just wearing headphones, the literal physical vibration. It's a light one today. I have things to work on. I wonder if my wrist and elbow problems on the right migth be stemming from mouse usage, how there's little bloodflow often. Time to add blood then. Workout Rubber pulls Light - one long set, long range, a lot of variety, muscle hurts from overflexing - it aint got enough space to flex into itself 😁 Hard rubber - 3 sets, similar attitude. Some one-armed static moves a-la armwrestlin...

 01.10.2023 Nice day. Apparently I had the leftovers only til the end of the month, so I got very little extra in poe.com. No matter - bought a new monthly subscription today. We'll see if I can use it all up in time or not. Kind of a late workout today. Automatically woke up at 4 today, as I have been for the last three days (after 6 hours of sleep, just so we're clear). Workout Warmup - some Cleans 20 for a few reps 50 - 5 cleans and 4 presses 70 - 5 disjointed cleans, got better in the end, one press. Dropped the bar once as it flew away from me. Push press 70 for 8 100 for 8 funny how PP feels harder than OHP. 103 for 8 okay. That was decent, but I decided to stop. I think it's that moment when you can proceed, but it'll end up being too damaging. I'll compensate with extra energy tomorrow. After, I am still getting used to training so often. 02.10.2023 Nice day. Sleep 6/10, nutrition about the same, not sure. Had a coffee pill first, later two mokas. Workout A ...