My training log and thoughts

 27.02.2023 Nice day. Not much. Once again, obtained a habit of falling asleep, waking up in the worning, doing some stuff, and then going back to sleep. Very decent breakfast today - decenter than I've had in at least two months, I think. I even got tomato today. Gave a lesson. Coughing a lot still. Nose hurts. Gonna workout. Bought new coffee. Acidentally got an arabica/robusta mix again 🤣 So silly. Playing guitar a lot today. Through my new amp, and now I played a variety of stuff through PC. My SQUE strat is comfortable, in a way. I have so many strings. I wanna change some of them. Not sure which ones. I've gotten so used to mega fat strings. I'm not sure which ones I have on my SGs rn. I think both of them have Ernie Ball Mammoths. One is a year old, another - few months. Both in B. I almost started writing a song in B today. Not sure. Maybe anything. I have this jam from october. I wanna use a riff from it. Or is it from september? Now it's 19:20. I've taken...

25.02.2022 Not much interesting. Hmm. 9 days already. I've gotten out of the "sharp phase" of my illness early, but I had sore throat and horrendous rhinitis, which still continues. Yesterday I worked for the first time since I got ill. Throat okay. Still coughing and sneezeing. Lots of snot. Detoxed from coffee-based caffeine. Deleted Fallout 4 - played it a couple times and realised I actually overplayed it. I think I'll be playing FO76 when the new season comes out. It's a pretty great game to keep up the feeling of "routine". And a lot of fun, still. And I still haven't finished a lot of questlines in there. I have not actually still tried expeditions or Nuka World in there. I ordered groceries. Not much, but good ones. My appetite has been mostly nonexistenst. I'm gonna have yummy little things today and that should help me jumpstart my nutrition. I haven't pooped in over a week, I think. Sleeping almost all day. I guess my body needs it...

  16.02.2022 Really ill. The pipe in the centre of my chest hurts. Is it called trachea? All day sleeping, feverish annoying repetitive dreams. High temperature. But it's way less bad than what I've had in 2021. In november. I had a bacterial meningitis and it was very bad. What I have now is very little compared to it. Thank God. random picture of the time

 15.02.2023 Nice day. Wednesday. My "sleep schedule" seems to be getting "fixed". After a very "normal" Monday for me I "stayed up" until "6 in the morning" and then slep all day, cause I only had "work" in the "evening". I feel like I'm "misusing" the "quotation marks" "a little too much". In a way, it has to be a "parasitic" "meme". I wish I could "stop". Anyway, I slept at night, normally, and couldn't help myself but wake up early. Tring to hard not to write like previously. You could say it's immensely difficult, in fact, universally impossible to a highest degree. Is what I'm writing humor? No, it is in no way humor. Absolutely everything, 110% of every single symbol in this training log diary blog of mine is supposed to be taken as literally and as seriously as possible (111% of literality and seriousness). That doesn't mean i ca...

 13.02.2023 Nice day. On Saturday, I decided to stop using my daytime curtain. Yesterday I slept during the day, poorly, and feel asleep. Also I worked a bit, and then had a lot of fun with music. Played guitar a lot. And played the bass for the first time in a while. Cleaned it. I think it still had my summertime sweat on it. I need to work on more songs. I worked on just one song last summer. Should do more. It was fun, and it was fun in 2021. The thing, this strange restlessness I've been having, a desire for change - I'm not sure, but I think it went away. Circle. It's a circle. I still sort of want change. Yesterday, I fell asleep much earlier than normal. Deep sleep, full of dreams. The bed has been insanely uncomfortable the last two days. I've overstretched some muscle on my side. Funny. Upset at my Saturday performance. It was supposed to be good. Feeling a little weird today as well. ~~~ Gave a lesson. Today I'm high on the coffe in a good way. Was sleepy ...

 11.02.2023 Nice day. Not much. Slept okay. A little weird. A lot of dreams, today and yesterday. Nutrition - above decent. Didn't play FO4 yesterday. Getting tired of it. Of course, now that I'm having coffee I wanna play it and build some more barns. Funny. ~~~ Later. Gonna do my OHPs soon. It's time to switch back from OHP to pushpresses primarily. Obviously, you can learn to do both after some time. I'm supposed to do 4 sets of 3. So, I shall warmup with OHP and then do PPs. 107 for 2 sets of 3 in OHP, and, I think, 115 for the same. And some warmup before that. Might be harder than I expect. Should be nice. Workout Warmup - medium, upper body Some 27 kg presses Downstairs I felt weak and emotionally frail. Didn't eat well, didn't sleep well. I guess I need more rest. Wednesday and thursday were heavy. Alright. Two coffees somehow were too much today. Plus my other activities were quite "distracting" and thus not healthy. Feeling like a victim agai...

 09.02.2023 Wow, it's only 9th of February? I thought it was 15th or something. Nice day so far. Very little food - forgot to eat properly, ate a little today. Took a shower yesterday - very relaxed now, energy not as drained. Worked a little. Gonna have a light workout. Gonna have instant coffee with a tiny bit of sugar. Not sure how I have left. Let's hope it's not gonna make me fall asleep all of a sudden, eh? He he. ~~~ Quite some time later. Busy helping with something. Positivity doctrine holds up, but makes makes me doubt it. Hard to interact with people sometimes. Feels like internal pressure. But being positive is not like holding yourself back! It's supposed to be different. You're supposed to ease it in. Let things smooth out on their own, without direct interference. In your mind and in your body, particularly your nervous system. Gonna do some light squats today. That's about it. Workout No specific warmup Some calf raises Squats 3 sets of 15 - BW 1...

 08.02.2022 Nice day. Managed to get some night's sleep. Woke up, decent brakfast on the smaller side. Yesterday I feel asleep violently after having a small cup of instant coffee. My father told me about it, how he did it when he was younger. I'm not sure, but I remember watching a video describing the mechanism behind it. Very counterintuitive. Doesn't always happen. Played FO4 at night/morning. Fun times. Just settlement gameplay, mostly. Re-did the quests that I had to roll back during the third caravan network fail. Can you believe I've actually gotten it fixed? IDEK's logistics station should be recommended as a part of SS2 main game. I still wish the characters were less cartoonish. The story is not too cartoonish, I admit. The characters are mucho over the top, even in comparison to vanilla characters. But that's just my opinion - a lot of young people would probably love that approach. Because kids love cartoons, that's why. I have purchased the $25...

 06.02.2023 Nice day. Decent nutrition and sleep. A little distracted, having my coffee for a long time. Warmup - very little Squat 20 - 70 - 90 - 100 for 5 - great, pretty easy. Forcing my belly forward more than usual, and hips back. Imagine you're pregnant. That seems to help with technique 😁 120 - 140 - 150 for 5 - nice, RPE 4 or less, I'd say. Did them quickly, then another break. Wanna keep it short. I wrote about the length of the session being an important factor for CNS load. Don't remember when. 150 - 100 - 70 for 5 - alright, technique improved. Happy. That's about it. I can only permit myself light things. I want to have a great Wednesday. ~~~ Didn't end up doing anything else. Went back to my 3rd Survival save in FO4, back from the first one, I think I figured some stuff out and was able to have some of the innate SS2 bugs fixed. Hooray! That is a massive win. Although I've not done anything new, it still feels like a great accomplishment. I've...

 04.02.2022 Really nice day. Weird. Did not play FO4 at night, and now I have energy. Who would have thought! Slept about 3 hours at night and then more during the day. Really nice breakfast. Nicer than I've had in over a month, but still very simple. Then I slept smoothly and calmly. And now I wake up and can't keep a smile off my face. Also worked a bit, earlier today and yesterday, it's going alright. In FO4 the caravan network bugged out again. It was going so smoothly. But I just could not join up Croup Manor and Coastal Cottage. SS2 is unnecessary complicated. It has to make checks and I think there's a lot of corruption with the IDs of the settlements. I am not really knowledgeable about this, but I've read the forums. That cost me some in-game progress as I rerolled to the previous saves while turning off some mods. And it's clearly not the mods' fault. Oh well. SS2 doesn't have an appropriate game engine for all those small things to work. I gue...

 02.02.2023 Nice day. Very relaxed. Slept deep. Worked. No food almost at all. I kinda wanna do something, work out in a cool way, even though it's way too late again. By wednesday my muscles have gotten stiffer and now I'm as loose as a jellyfish. I wouldn't have imagined this to possible. Relaxed. Not feeling like I'm burning down. Not that I was before, mind you. But now I really don't. Hard to transcribe the way  you pronounce things. The best way to imagine someone speaking is to listen to their voice previously. It's a funny random skill to have - not just to read, but to read it in your head in different voices (vocal tones). Not sure. I think I'll end up having a large cup of a mild instant coffee with a can o meat. Then I'll work out a tiny bit. Ordered groceries, as well as a few little things. So many things to do. Apparently, Fallout 3 and New Vegas really were warning me about life with the whole speech skill thing. And I do have a somewhat ...

 01.02.2023 Nice day. Meaningless sweet sadness. Empty. Can't see anything. Walking the foggy road. Took a shower yesterday. Yeah, I know. I'm a slob and I don't care that I am. I'm a slob for specific reasons. They say cats hate showers cause they evolved not to drown, and cause it's too hot for them. Makes sense. Me? I don't know. Maybe I subsonsciously know what exactly showering brings. And I tell you, I really noticed it. My muscles were stiff as a brick. When I relax - I don't. After the shower, somehow, I got so lazy and so relaxed. It made my sleep better, which is definitely a plus point. That is good. That is what I intended and what I got. I just don't like the feeling of weakness and relaxedness, I guess. It's a little weird. My brain. My nervous system. Like a torn up rag, a sponge. Been played with too many times for too long. Used and abused. Oh well. Thank God I'm not as bitter and resentful as I could have been. In fact, I am sim...