My training log and thoughts

 31.07.2023 Nice day. Nicer than average. Nothing to today once again. Writing Marco. It's more fun than even. The plot complexifies in my head. It's something. Had enough food, maybe a lot, even. My Saturday peformance puzzles me. I really want to have an earlier workout today. We'll do cleans, bench, squat. Just keeping up the energy and working on our weaknesses. It my second coffee. It's very powerful today, despite how hard Saturday was. I love it. Hallelujah! Okay. It's 20:23 and I'm done with coffee, Thank God. Not gonna go further with it. Now let's begin the warmup. Workout Warmup - extensive, upper body stretches, calf raises, variations of squat and ducks walks (underrated exercise leg and ankle mobility, do it with slight hand support on the floor on each side). Then, finally, after a while, front rack and overhead holds. I reckon I really need to maintain the "bounce" as I hold the bar, not be static, not put it on myself. Clean 20 - f...

 29.07.2023 Very nice day. Had fun for way too long yesterday. But I ate very well. Today, we have PPs and squats. I had two coffees so far, and a cup of a refreshing liquid that I tried to make. More soda experiences. I accidentally poured most of it in the sink as I tried to transport into the bottle from the pan, because I was high on caffeine and did not bother to control my internal desire towards comedy. I put one 200mg caffeine pill into it, so I only got about 10-15% of it and I also did not get the chance to carbonate it. Hmm. That's okay. I was really wishing to start earlier today. And I might. just a little bit. I still have some time for my third coffee that I yearn for so much. In the end, my body develops a strong enough tolerance to coffee, but it fluctuates indirectly, because it is tied to my training exertion. My body, purely consequentially knows to drink less or resist it more on days when I don't need it (lighter days). I only do take it 4 days a week. Aga...

 27.07.2023 Nice day. Slept little. Ate a medium amount, but decent variety of food. Wanna do overhead today. And squats? Could try. Then Saturday and Monday will be way too free, hehe. Perhaps just overhead? Could I try? Do I have enough? Today I doubt, but not much. Let's see first... Week 11, Session 2 - 85% for 3, and 90% for 3 sets of 2... So, around 130 and 140? Feasible? I don't know. I'd feel wrong not lifting heavy. But can I? Do I feel fresh enough? No , sadly, I will have to admit that I simply do not feel fresh. My frontal lobes are full of stale blood. Today we shall have a light workout. And on Saturday we will go nice and heavy. Workout Warmup - very long and extensive, front rack and overhead holds, squat variations, a lot of calf raise varations for mobility Clean and three presses 50 - I was too lazy to take the bar and load it on the floor, so I loaded it to 50 while it on the rack and moved it to the floor, where I first did a couple high pulls. Then I ...

 26.07.2023 Nice day. Sleep decent, food okay. Week 11, Session 1  - 5 sets of 3 with 77,5%... Another intersection, ha ha. Well, it will be powerful, I should hope. From 230 to 240. Reasonable? Quite. And I'll have energy afterwards, I reckon. Yesterday I played GTAV, going towards overplaying once again. I decided to buy the vehicle that is currently on sale (Avenger), so I saved up and purchased it. It's fun, and there's something primordially scary about it's aesthetics. It's big! Been re-reading and re-editing the new chapters of Marco... I gotta tell you, AI is not yet as smart as singularity-ists would have you believe. But deep in the dungeon there might be the basilisk waiting for us, hehe. Joking, half joking, not being serious. It doesn't matter right now. All I know is that the media is manipulating people. Playing it is more fun that reading and realising it's not the same as you imagine it. But it can be. And it can be more. Played guitar a lit...

 24.07.2023 Nice day. Slept little, messy. That's cause yesterday I fell asleep early. Woke up around 5 AM after seeing the best dream ever. Very positive. Flying in it. It felt very artful, more beautiful than a lot of things. And my brain felt good in many different directions. Feeling a little ill, as I have been. Irritated nose and throat, sneezing. Not sure why. Probably the weather. Had one coffee. Feeling nice. Sunday was also nice, a decent day. I really enjoyed playing with Claude AI. Now I wish to reduce it's usage and write more myself. ChatGPT is simply bad compared to Claude. No personality, or, rather, an abrasively cold one. Maybe I'm being subjective. Well, it is very smart, even if it is in developers' interest to curb and control its abilities. Saturday's squatting got my adductor magnus muscles sore the most. It's surprising, even. It's getting better. It wasn't that bad. My mood, that is. Just a little confused. I guess I should be th...

 22.07.2023 Nice day. Last night was a little unpleasant due to intrusive thoughts. On Thursday I decided to delete GTAV for now, just for a break - it's reached the overplayed point. Today I woke up late, having cancelled a lesson due to the lact of mental energy. I felt drained, and I also might a tiny bit ill. Woke up with a sore nose, sneezing. Had a nice breakfast, properly calorific. And I ate well yesterday. Made my arms and the muscles beside my lats - the ones that pull my shoulders back - maybe it's infraspinatus? Can't be sure. But it's a result of me switching up the technique on pullups, that was a lot of fun. Made my first coffee. It's already pretty late. Wondering how it's going to affect me mentally today... Some time later. Coffee doesn't seem to affect me much today. I have to figure out what I'll be lifting. And I will be. I already did it on Thursday. So, we shall go for 5 sets of 3 with around 120, and it's supposed to be powerf...

 20.07.2023 Nice day. Slept during the day, very lightly, waking up often. Ate quite moderately after wokring a little bit. Now I'm having coffee. One lesson got cancelled. Not sure if I would prefer to have a light workout or an OHP workout, straight up. It feels like it's been long enough since Saturday. Let me see... Week 11, Session 1 - 5 sets of 3 with 77,5%. So, around 115-120? Sounds quite feasible. What about my legs? They feel okay. Still a little sore, inner thighs mostly. Having my doubts about these particular numbers and efforts. But when I think about it, 115 feels like a small number. Played guitar through speakers a bit. Practiced what I'm working on, and I think I might have come up with a chorus, also experimented with various modes in A trying to work together. Harmonic minor, locrian and phrygian licks confusing each other, but somehow sounding nice. Now it's 11 PM. I should start. Workout Warmup - some, squat variations, front rack holds. Having do...

 19.07.2023 Very nice day. Slept well. Nice dreams. Nutrition - sufficient. Really kicked my own ass on Monday. It's been very long since my glutes have been so sore and full of lactic acid. Quads - a little bit, they are more resistant to stretching. But also my inner thighs, the gracillis muscle, I guess it's called. I'm having my first coffee. It's almost 9 PM, however. Last week my deadlift was too much. Seeing how I'm so sore but I feel great I still should approach today's numbers with caution. Week 10, Session 2 - a set of 3 with 85%, and 4 sets of 2 with 87,5%. So, I think we can settle for 250 for 3, and around 260 for 4 sets of 2? Is it reasonable? We will have to find out. And now it's almost 10 PM... As per usual. 22:27... I sure am taking my time. But if I warm up before 11 PM and start around that time I might be done shortly after midnight, not much disturbance. I really wanna buy a better moka pot, cause this one burned my finger so much. It...

  17.07.2023 Nice day. Slept a lot. Was really low on energy this Sunday. Managed to fall asleep relatively early, woke up early as well. Had a very intense dream shortly before I woke up. It was reflecting parts of me and the things I've been watching. Nutrition - above average, feels good, enough protein, enough healthy fats. Healthy fats matter a lot to me.  Been a tiny bit ill - sneezing, rubbing my eyes, ears itching on the inside. Dust makes it worse. Been noticing a lot of dirty and dusty things around the house, ever since boys came back. Feeling way better than I did on Fri-Sat. Honestly, it was simply unexplicable how I randomly felt so bad. Well, maybe not randomly. I was planning a straight up light workout today. But I feel so hyped. After my first coffee I felt craving for Cannibal Corpse music that I used to listed to earlier in this short life of mine. Very hyped. Scourge of Iron is the real memorable song for me somehow. Also, I got earwax lodged deep in my ri...

 15.07.2023 Nice day. Yesterday I slept very little at night, but a lot in the evening. Same today, except less during the day. Sleep is okay. Nutrition is above average - have been having enough. Been feeling strangely gloomy. Now I'm having my first coffee. My strained back after Wendesday's unreasonable deadlift has gotten better. Received the cables and strings I've purchased. Including the big pink Ernie Ball instrument cable. I like pink color, what can I say. I always see that Saint Vitus' album cover. Provocative color. I'm having a coffee and I'm feeling sleepy. How weird. That always happens. Well, often. Played guitar a little bit. Grooving pretty nicely. I got that something in head now. Ideally, I'd wanna write some music now. My back got a little cramped on one side (from the guitar). Oh well. The only way to overcome it is to play every day. Hmm. Time for a second coffee. Made one. Boiled my index finger again as I was carrying it upstairs. I ...

 13.07.2023 Nice day. Back very stiff after yesterday, worked out well. I've been really dehydrated. Today it's gotten better as I worked and warmed up. Now I'm enjoying my second coffee with my own soda. Once again, it's pretty late. Ordered some new cables for the guitar and the stereo, and the big ol Ernie Ball Mammoths again. I'm thinking of going B Standard this time. D has been great once again, but it just doesn't feel right anymore. It's good. But not what I'm looking for. Today we're just having a light one. Workout Warmup - long, a lot of variety, squat stretches, front rack and overhead holds Clean 50 - 2 sets It was done in a following manner: squat clean - short hold - overhead press - hold - back into the front rack, but with a wider grip - long hold (up to 20 seconds). Pretty nice! I am almost able to rack the bar properly even with just 50 kgs. Squat - sets of 5 50 - 70 - 100 - 100 It was pretty hard to force myself to do that last se...

 12.07.2023 Week 10, Session 1 - 5 sets of 2 with 85%. Hmm. Not quite sure exactly what I can try today. What weight I should be picking. It's only reasonable to attempt to go big, but do it cautiously. Deadlift. So, we'll be going roughly from 250 to 272... Good enough? Okay. I've played guitar. I recorder a short riff in A. Listened to it from the large speakers. Sounds good. Want new strings on the guitar. Took quite some time. Had fun, drank coffee. Now I'm on my 4th - a small brew, just a pourover. Previous three were normal mokas, the third one was a half nice coffee, half cheap. I wish I never bought the cheap coffee. It's pretty late. I'm sick of coffee. But I wanted to have it. I enjoyed jamming today. Workout Warmup - no initial warmup Deadlift 20 - 70 - 120 - 160 200 for 3 overhand - poor reps with long breaks, still a small improvement 230 for 2 okay, not so great, but it's still warmup 240 for 2 250 for 2 260 for 2 okay, the most powerful set, d...

 10.07.2023 Kind of a nice day. I got two days merged into three. Sunday was my night. Today I've had almost no food, but enough right now. Worked way more than normal, feeling satisfied about that. But also, comparatively, insanely angry - for my conventional reasons. Can't be bothered describing them again. Having my first coffee. Pray for me. *** I need help. Everything annoys me and I can't handle people. What do you know. Maybe it's cause my thingy got triggered. I have so much hate in me. Not helpful. And I'd like to squat today. Normally coffee time is a good time. It's better than it was on Saturday. On Saturday it was so much worse. Today it's less energetic, less destructive. More painful. Brain chemistry, whatever. I don't want any antidepressant bullshit. I don't have it. I just wanna fucking get my hands onto someone that deserves it. Feel the fucking blood flow under my fingernails as I see the life escape from that wretch's body. F...

 08.07.2023 Week 10, Session 1 altered . I feel good. Nice day overall. Sleep messy. Feel like I'm about to do something. Food - average, stomach not very busy. Yesterday I got a carbonating thingy. Made soda. It was wacky, didn't cool it properyl. Mixed cold brew coffee, earl grey tea, some bargamot extract, lime and vinally syrup. It's nice. They do compliment each other. You think coffee and tea don't mix, but they do. And soon I shall try to make a second one, this time properly chilled. Coffee made me cranky today. Internet is bad. Feeling unfilfilled. Played guitar - uninspired, but at least I feel it a little bit. Having a third coffee. Maybe it's too much. But I think I prefer this. So, we're supposed to be lifting 85% for 5 sets of 2 and 90% for 1... Hmm. Let's say we can do between 115 and 127. Reasonable? Perhaps. Not sure about my power level after the illness and weight loss. Made the soda. This time it didn't go flat. Taste is nice and subt...

 06.07.2023 Nice day. Yesterday's rest of the day went well as well. Healthy, didn't fatigue myself too much. Today I'm edged out and jumbled by coffee. I ordered a carbonating thingy. I wanna try to make my own soda with a few unique recipes. Played guitar, played small classical downstairs during coffee brew. Colored strings aren't too bad sounding. Mellow. Something in the garage makes it overfilled with fumes. I can't go there today. I need to fix this. It's unhealthy. Workout - light Overhead press 6+6 kg dumbbells - 3 sets of 20 3 sets of holding the dumbbells in the front rack - slight stretch Calf raises, full - 3 sets of 20 Squat, BW - 3 sets of 20, trying to not do any buttwinking, so they were all with heels off the floor. That's about it. Generic light workout, but it makes me feel good. I reckon I gotta do more of these and spend a tiny bit less time down in the garage now. GOC Hexton 153 Deacon Hill

 05.07.2022 Nice day. Today, at least. I've been quite ill. If I remember correctly, not as bad as I was in February, but still unpleasant. I was unexpectedly fatigued on Saturday, and then it all went down quite conventionally - fewer, chills, stomach problems, nose problems, raving a little while unable to fall asleep. On Saturday I might have worked out too hard and hard a cold draft in the garage, and turned up the heat in the house and it might have led me to get a temperature spike and drop later. Possibly sensing what's gonna happen in advance I took and analgin pill, but I think it wasn't smart. Then it happened. I forced some porridge with milk and protein in me - don't know what I was thinking. After having orange juice and milk it felt like I was peeing acid. And at some point my stomach got pretty bad. It was feeling uneven, I was burping. I made some warm lemon water and had a lignin pill and an antacid pill. Not sure if that was smart or not. But short tim...

 01.07.2023 Nice day. Not much. I slept little between Thursday and yesterday, and fell asleep shortly after midnight. Woke up around 3, ate some food, then fell back asleep for two hours. Very deep sleep. Woke up, worked, had a micro breakfast, managed to fall asleep again. Slept until the evening. Strangely deep sleep. Woke up, made coffee. I haven't been "distracted" for a whole week by now. A strange feeling of blank calmness. Coffee works though. After starting the first pot I ended up playing bass, tweaking the bass tone. I'd like to believe we are one step closer ton finally writing something once again. Yesterday, fascinated by the ability of those small exercises to being about limberness and freshness in my legs, I did a few variations of them, but I ended up hurting my left hip joint very casually - bone against bone. Basically, it was a variation of a sideways leg raise, but standing on the leg, so it's forced to support the whole body. If your thighbo...