My training log and thoughts

 29.05.2021 Nice day. Feeling messy. Made a poor quality video. Rushed a bit too much. Just trying to report the news. Training late. Overhead press Warmup 70*10 100*3 110*2 113 - 3 sets of 2 - feels nice, small volume PR :D Bench press 70*15 90*15 100*13 - did all the sets really quickly A tiny amount of lat rubber pulls. And here's a complicated video I made today. I would love to talk more about the stuff that's going on right now, but we'll leave it for nostalgic comments in the near future. TO be honest, I am experiencing excitement right now. I do thrive in chaos myself - if it's the right kind of chaos, ha ha. You know how I love hurting myself and forcing my brain to secrete endorphins. Well, this is the same... But on the internets! Ha ha.

 27.05.2021 Kind of a messy day. Low energy after a massive workout on wednesday. Had two batches of coffee - half a fistful of beans (not a lot). But I ended up training late in the day, obsessing over my video performance. Which just happened to be a short one - --- Training session Overhead press - warmup 20 kg dumbbell, one arm press - 3 sets of 20 each hand A few sets of BW squats - 20 reps. A moderate amount of drumming - first the warmup (8-7-6 etc...), then basic beats - boot-camp booty camp, then some beats with 16th notes, then I devoted some time to learning to play bass drum on 2 & 3 & WITH 8th note hihats on top - all around 90-95 bpm. Those are the music of an autodidact drummer. Well, I do watch the lessons sometimes, but still trying to figure out stuff on my own. 28.05.2021 Nice day. Feels short. Woke up late. Not very well concentrated. Nothing interesting happening IRL, but online there's massive drama which caused me to make the most emotional video I...

 25.05.2021 Succesful popping video covering NovelAI news - mega hype 26.05.2021 Insanely fun adventure with seems to be popular with the community but not getting a lot of youtube views... Curious. Well, it wasn't supposed to be too popular, even based on the previous video in the new series. But it is fun. Just watch it. Watch everything if you're reading this blog. I know I did, ha ha! --- Training session Deadlift Warmup 70-120-160 200 for half a rep overhand, almost a good rep hooked 230*2 mixed grip - do not like, can't position myself evenly 235*2 237 - knee was hurting just cause I rotated my leg, I decided to be cautious 237 for 2 - nice, smooth A few sets of drumming - I'm doing good, I think I can play double bass with both heels off, just bouncing, somewhat easy 16th notes at 96 bpm. Must train my left hand! It's not quite on time a lot of times. Some time later... Pullups - not very long range, overhand narrow grip 30 reps - 20 quickly, and then 10 more...

24.05.2021 Nice day. Feels short. Did a small amount of work. Had a micro breafast late in the day. Felt sleepy for a while. Had a small amount of coffee. Started making the video. There's a lot I could say about my video making process, but I'd rather just show it to you :D Although it is a personal blog, so i might as well talk about it for a while, since I'll be repeating the same ideas I already mentioned dozens of times in this blog. Hmm... Well, anyway, here's the video - I hope you love the thumbnail :) And I made a decision to make today a lighter day. I was so distracted I didn't finish my second batch of coffee. Squat 2 sets of 20 - BW 70*10 80*10 And that's it. I definitely shouldn't start with squats without warming up my back with some other exercise first. This summer we're heading back into heavy squat territory, and finish the Dl as well, hopefully. Since I had such a light session today, I was thinking I could have one tomorrow as well. ...

 22.05.2021 Great day. Messy. 7/10 at least. My mom decided to make some coffe because a friend of the family asked her. And they have no idea what ground coffee is and how much it can caffeinate you. They left me way too much pre-ground coffe and I, like a silly boy I am, madea  batch from this insane amount and got screwed up just a little bit. Then i had some of their leftover coffee, because obviously they couldn't finish it. Been thinking what kind of video i should make - and I made a really short one, with some sweet and sour self-ironic humor: Workout Bench press 70*20 90 for some reps 110*20 - small PR :D 120*10 stricter 70*20 Squat 10 reps bw 70*10 90*10 10 bw 92*10 keeping the appetite up And that's it. Had almost no sleep, or some really messy sleep. 23.05.2021 Messy day - carried over from yesterday. Barely ate anything. Did some work, made some coin, ordered some things that I'll probably end up returning because I only want to check them out (a better USB mod...

20.05.2021 Yes. A year ago I had such an awful training session I just simply had to change everything about the way I train and life. Is that an overstatement? Possibly. Made another video today - probably made a lot of mistakes, most notably missing the text at the start and, possibly, overly loud music?.. Not good. Must work on it and learn. Making a new video tomorrow. Overhead press Warmup 90*3 100*3 110 - 4 sets of 2 - nice and easy 117,8 for 1 - feels good, thank God for everyhing. Squats 10 bodyweight 70*10 90*10 Drummed a tiny bit as well. Feeling mroe confident. Maybe I'll unlock a new double bass technique soon - both heels off the floor. Maybe I need a massive fat ass throne, ha ha. In fact, I'm confident I do. So I'll look for one. I was supposed to do more stuff, but I got distracted looking at my video's performance and chatting with people in the AI discords. It's not too late RN, so I gotta go and do something. A great idea for hamburgers when you d...

 19.05.2021 Nice day. Definitely at least 7/10. Had too much caffeine - definitely wrong. Had it for too long, so I just exhausted my CNS, and, possibly, my heart and my cells. Pullups - outside - very hot day! Overall 30 reps over 4 sets - feels hard today Superset - BW Squats / Pushups 3 sets of 20 - sweating massively And here's another news video about AI Dungeon! And finally, the long awaited Random pic of the day! A very confusing photo -  https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:-Seated_Young_Woman_with_Hand_Raised_to_Jawline-_MET_DP700001.jpg It says it's a daggerotype of a woman, but I can only see a decorated album cover, perhaps? Oh, I see now - there's multiple photos that have the same name, and that indeed simply a cover of a photo - here's the actual picture

 17.05.2021 Nice day. I could rate it 7/10 so far. Spent some time on the internet. Had some coffee. Had a couple lessons early in the day. Overhead press Warmup 102*2 105 - 2 sets of 2 113,1 - 2 sets of 1 Bench 70*20 120*7 a bit too much for the day 70*30 Light lat rubber pulls Narrow parralel grip pullups on the street 20 - not too strict, but nice, since I'm so much heavier today Did quite some drumming as well as random guitar plays. I gotta go through some more lessons at some point soon. As I mentioned a few days ago, I'm learning the fretboard and different chord positions and voicing, so it's not just noodling - I'm actively trying to generate some knowledge. I have to remember to not refer to notes in a wrong way just because i"m playing outside of C Major - I'm too used to calling the first note of Myxolydian as "G", for example, even when it's not, so it leads to a lot of confusion. A meme I made today - paint.net FTW! Ha ha.

 14.05.2021 Not a great day. I don't know why I want to write about all this negative shit. Maybe I want to "get it out". It's like my mind, my will is poisoned with a realisation that I generally don't want to accept, but it forces me to pay attention to it. A curse, a grudge that I hold. Pain that hasn't been returned. Damage that hasn't been undone. Empty wastes of a human soul, with barely anything being able to grow there. If it wasn't for a couple of (massive) spikes of negativity it'd be an above average day, at least 59/100. TBH I'm starting to hate waking up early - yes, that's what I did today. I woke up early, then had a nap, then had a nap later in the evening and I guess this lack of energy might be one of the reasons I feel like shit. I want to believe it's seasonal. Last may I was also low on energy, and that's when my new life began, when i decided to make a change. And what a change that was! Now I have to make some...

 12.05.2021 Nice day, about 54/100. Low energy. Did some work, a lot, in fact. Woke up way too early, couldn't help myself. Deadlift 160*5 - decided to stop here. Which tells you something. Did some poor video posting and uploaded a clip from my minecraft gameplay a couple of months ago - it's kinda funny, but audio decisions were indeed poor, once I discovered that i dind't record game audio. 13.05.2021 Much better. Woke up early on accident again, but then went to sleep. Didn't have anything to do today. Wrote a basic script for my next video. Remixed a couple of my midi tracks from over a year ago. Overhead press Warmup 100*3 105 - 2 sets of 3 107*3 108*3 113*1 nice Squat 70*10 80*10 That was it.

 08.05.2021 Nice day. I think my sleep schedule has been reset, but I had to pay with my energy during the day. Had way too much coffee, and then did a lot of music - noodled on guitar, bass, and drums. I feel like my CNS was really out of shape that day, but I still enjoyed it. I was supposed to lift very heavy, but my heart was beating too hard, I had to have pity on my body. Deadlift 70 kgs - 2 sets of roughly 10 kgs 70 - 2 sets of 15 And that was it. Played drums a bit. Couldn't even do squats. Still, felt okay. 09.05.2021 I'm still not sure, but I feel like my scleep schedule has indeed been reset. Fell asleep before 2AM, woke up at 7AM. Couldn't play Fallout 76 at night yesterday, it kept disconnecting, so that feels good. 10.05.2021 Weird day, but nice. Almost 7/10 so far. Woke up at 1AM after a somewhat sufficient amount of sleep. Played FO76 a lot, got tired of it. Too bad it doesn't have a main quest. But it can, if you want to frame it in a specific manner. S...

 Random picture galore!      The Grand Canyon Photo of an Owl by Mark Broadhurst - https://www.pexels.com/photo/white-and-brown-owl-106685/ Really random pic from Artbreeder - an album cover https://www.artbreeder.com/i?k=bf0a4c029bdcf622e0fa87d6d8b6 A small shrine on the mountain trail - File:登山道にある小さい祠.jpg The river god Scaldis (the Scheldt), seated on a stone block. A shell in his hand. Sixteenth print from a seventeen-volume, numbered series about river and sea gods. Engraving by Philips Galle after own design drawing; numbered '16' at the bottom right; signed. Velarifictorus micado is a cricket in the subfamily Gryllinae (family Gryllidae) and tribe Modicogryllini. A common name for Velarifictorus micado is the Japanese burrowing cricket. The distribution range of Velarifictorus micado includes North America and Southern Asia. Another cute picture from pexels - pexels dot com/photo/crop-housekeeper-with-pink-bottle-of-cleaner-5217913/

 06.05.2021 Nice day again, despite still broken sleep schedule. I realised I sleep very well due to thick curtains. Right now I'm playing Fallout 76 - Nuclear Winter. Never played battle royale games before, actually. And since this game has RPG elements, that means more like than not you're gonna be really underpowered at first. But I keep surviving until there's less than 10 players left... Then disconnecting! It happened three times in these last couple days. Quite hilarious and dissatisfying. Bench press 70*20 100*26 - it's a small PR, if I'm not mistaken :D not too strictly, of course. A PR is something to celebrate! 102*16 who would have thought 2 kilos would make such a difference! (jkjk) And that was it for the garage. Lats - rubber pulls Prone floor supported ring pullups 2 sets of 15 - strictly, squeezing it hard Measured my chest again - still 133 cms at max stretch (I have to note that my measuring standarts are somewhat lax, however). And I'm still...

 05.05.2021 Nice day. At least 65/100, despite a still broken sleep schedule. I think my sleep hormones affect my emotions in an unusual way, hard to describe - when I see my dreams I feel like I'm just so much more sensitive to my emoties, and I speculate that it carries over into real life. Had a normal amount of coffee - one handful, and no more. Monday was tiresome. Overhead press Warmup 100*3 105*3 115*1 118*1 nice, slow lockout, kind of hitchy, but good. More reasons to pay attention to my recovery. Squat 10 reps bodyweight 70 - 2 sets of 10 - back feels stiff And that's about it. Been more hyped about music today. Spent some time practicing my last jam. April was so not creative of a month for me, but I practiced my drumming a lot, which is great. Just gotta get back to writing and recording songs. I sort of fear recording the beat for my next song, that's why I keep practicing the 16th note double pedal at 95 bpm. Solution? Just make the beat into an 8th note beat i...

 03.05.2021 Nice day. Woke up way too early. Had a long nap. Not sure about tomorrow. Had a lot of coffee. Made a next video - might post it here. I think I've been shadowbanned on AID reddit. Deadlift Warmup 200*1 mixed grip after failed overhand 220*4 mixed 222*4 straps 225*5 nice 225*2 tweaked my left hamstring again. You know, hamstring muscles just slide and pop alongside each other, like a bow string. I need to change my deadlift stance a bit - feet forward. Yes, toes outward were a wrong choice, again. Technique is something you always have to remember, can't rely on muscle memory. After the tweak I felt too tired. Decided not to do drums. Feel tired. Strangely better than feeling nothing. I'km not really tired, I hope. I hope it's more of a sign of CNS exhaustion, rather than "tired". It's not wrong to be tired, it's just not. Strange word, strange meaning. I'm rambling, and I'm not quite eloquent today. Been really hyped about Fallout ...

 01.05.2021 Random pic of the day - Androsace mucronifolia. Saturday - or Sabbath Nice day so far. Was supposed to have two lessons, but I canceled one and the other one didn't show up. Woke up and had some oats and two eggs - I barely eat eggs anymore. In 2019 they were my main source of protein, and I was awfully thin. One day I might make a video about my progression over the years. I still have photos from 2010, as well as some videos. Maybe in september, when it'll be 11 years of me training hard, on my own, making so many mistakes and enjoying myself. Man, if I knew how to train early on. But no one was really giving me the right advice. I had to come up with it on my own. And it probably works just for me. See the first posts in this blog for more details. It's been almost a year of me working out completely differently. Inevitably, drinking MORE coffee overall, rather than less. Resolving a fake dispute between quantity and quality. Realising that just because someo...