My training log and thoughts

 31.08.2022 Very nice day so far. Slept well, actually at night. Yesterday, however, I didn't sleep at night or in the morning, only a little bit during the day and the evening. Got woken up by a grocery delivery. The deliveryman was lost and thought I stole the drinks when I carried them out from his car and he couldn't find a tag on the box. And also because my order was split in two. Maybew he was a noob. I'm tempted to feel insulted, although I've been in his place too many times - lost and confused while trying to do something right. And it was late at night. Just a little memory. Late at night I sanded and painted the guitar once again. That's the first of four remaining layers I wish to do. After that that'll definitely be too much, I reckon. And I think I oughta try sanding less violently. Perhaps I'm removing too much every time. That's what I thought right after, and so I sanded the sides in a much more gentle fashion. I think I'll cover th...

 29.08.2022 Nice day. Inexplicably woke up early. Must be cause I somehow managed to go to bed early yesterday. Nutrition = good. Sleep = nice as well, although I feel like I had high cranial pressure for a while. Worked for quite a while. Satisfying, although I kept feeling nervous before. Started having coffee. Had first one. Played guitar a lot. Fixed broken Ugritone drums. Wacky stuff. Ended up having a third coffee after all. It's 7:48. Not too late, I guess. I really want to come up with and record some of my vocals today. I keep thinking. So many songs in are just purely instrumental. I don't like it. There needs to be a voice. I keep wondering when I want the vocals to enter. I'm thinking about either the first or the second verse. It'd make more sense to start with the first one. Because the riff is too simple. Hmm. Damn, I'm so much less productive than i was. Well, at least my psyche is getting better. Workout Bench 20-50-90 130 for 5 140 for 5 kinda nice...

 27.08.2022 Nice day. Worked. Ate. Slept. Woke up with moderate difficulty. Enjoyable dream, don't remember what. Had first coffee. Arabica. Very smooth. Not any kind of powerful caffeinated. Second coffee - 1/3 robusta. Nice taste. Kind of better, even. I still really joyous over the fact that robusta isn't useless now (with moka). Played guitar a tiny bit. Experimented with RAT pedial emulatiors. Cool sound. Might wanna incorporate it. Maybe even just replace my Metalzone emulator, seeing how it's not the only thing responsible for my tone. I may wanna change my tones more often. It's been alost a year since my last release. And a small one it was. I really need to release something. I wanted to practice my vocals today. I feeel inspirationally disoriented. It was never as strong. But I do have a few ideas growing. It's 10 PM already. And I'm only starting my workout. Hmm. 75 for 3, 82 for 3,  87 - 4 sets of 2, 90 for a strict single. Hmm. So, let's be con...

 25.08.2022 Kind of a messy day, but overall nice and calm. Sleep - mediocre, nutrition - good. Late at night, having an actual light session for once. Workout Overall light body moves, with a stick too Having a curious idea. I want energy in my legs. But mostly creatine and explosiveness. What if I did low reps on squat, keeping good form? One arm presses 12 kgs - 2 sets of 10 - I believe this exercise is underrated for the wrong reasons. You're supposed to always do it usilizing as much body movement and shoulder mobility. And it will really help you in your weak spots. I can already feel the parts of my body that never get stretched. Overhead press 27 kg ez bar for 11 40 - 42 - 45 - 47 for 5 Using the rising weight to teach my body for it this way. Maybe it's a stretch, of course. But quite likely it isn't, even considering the minimality of the effect. Squat - high bar 15 BW 10 with a PVC pipe 40 for 10 70 for 5 90 - 3 sets of 3 - explosive, with acceleration, proper gr...

 24.08.2022 Nice day. Slept for a long time. Good nutrition. Listening to more music, and playing as well. Weird dreams. First a random shocker that invaded my awake reality. Might have had too much sugar before I went to bed. Then, before waking up, a postapocalyptic dream where I had to protect some random child, first walking through a completely destroyed urban area, then a park near my home. Then I had a dream that I was student once again, thinking that I skipped all year, then forcing myself to realise I'm dreaming. If you can do this - you sure have some control over your mind! Doesn't always happen, of course. Yesterday I managed to finish the scoreboard of the season in FO76 and even got one extra rank. It's the Meat Week. All players gather and cook meat with the friendly supermutant Grahm and his double headed cow Chally the Moo-Moo. Fun times. I played it normally last year. Now casually. Then I played GTA Online. It's so hard to find other players to do al...

 22.08.2022 Nice day. Slept little, worked, didn't eat, decided to have coffee right away and have my workout soon. It's been a while. Some problems arose. On saturday I cleaned my SG and took off the strings and just just put it back on the wall. That mighthave been a mistake. Put the new strings on today. Minimal wrapping on the tuners. The tuners seems whacked out a bit. There might have been too much tension. These strings just might be too tough for C Standard. Anyway, I put em on and decided to tune them in Cakewalk, in TH-U, and my prject just doesn't open. After some fiddling I found out you're supposed to turn off the plugins in safe mode - to do it, you have to hold the Shift button while opening the project. Turns out it was KVLT Drums by Ugritone causing problems. Deleted them, and now I'm redowloading the whole thing. Apparently it's been almost a year since I bought them. It doesn't make that much sense to use them if I play real drums. But sti...

 20.08.2022 Really nice day. Got about six hours of sleep, woke up and worked, had a medium small breakfast, went back to sleep, woke up later, now I'm having robusta for a change. It's bitter in a good way. I would to see how it compares to the arabica. Strange how it didn't lose the taste despite being stored not fully sealed. Something important happened yesterday - overcome with stored up zeal towards music I finally got up and started painting the G310 SG. Preparing took a while. My little brother helped. Covered almost all the holes and attached a faux handle in place of the neck. Did a tiny bit of all around sanding, then wiped it with white spirit. Painting itself took very little effort, except for the bottom, cause I was using it with the handle. Took some maneuevering. And it's been drying up for almost 24 hours now. So, I shall do some super light sanding and wiping and do another coat of the sealer. It's got the factory sealer - most of it - on it still...

 18.08.2022 Nice day. Slept unusually, but well. Woke up feeling pleasant. I tried to force myself to go sleep. It was wacky. It was like dreaming awake. The caffeine definitely took a lot of time to clear out. I prayed so much, fo so many things. God listens to my prayers. I am grateful. I wish I could more grateful, all the time! Turn my head to Him and feel gratitude. That's something! So, I woke up around 4 PM after not too many hours of sleep. I felt smooth and not sleepy. Thank God, I programmed my subconscious well. Had a nice breakfast. Started feeling sleepy again, but I figured that I might have uncleared sleep hormones and that's not a good enough reason to fall asleep. I have a lesson later today. It's 6 o'clock, and I made my first coffee. Thinking about moving the PC to the drum room. However, it might be in my interests to record lyrics upstairs first. And I also keep contemplating about moving the drums upstairs as well. 9 PM. Gave a lesson, drank coffee...

 17.08.2022 Nice day so far. Woke up around 3 or 4 AM at first after about 6 hours of sleep, played some GTA Online and had a proper meal. Then the heat started rising - didn't feel good. Fell asleep for a while and woke up at 7 PM. I still have a pretty weird sleep schedule. Is it problematic? Partially. Thankfully, I do get enough sleep to work out well. And the nighttime is simply so alluring. No people, no heat. I've not been feeling that positive about people lately. Rationally - I love people. On a gut level - not so much. Only my "close ones", and even they make me suffer quite often. Like when somebody forgets to close the fricking garage door. And the house get flooded with fricking fumes. Take me out now, please. Don't make me fricking suffocate. Ah, sorry about that. I would edit and remove all the cusses, but I find it somewhat disingenuous. It's my "flow of the consciousness", isn't it? Ah, money. The old tale. I hate money pathologi...

 15.08.2022 Nice day. Not much interesting. Decent food, almost decent sleep (7/10). Great recovery. Yesterday I got really bored with GTA. Takes CNS energy to play games. I was running out of it. Worked a little bit today. Feeling overall fresh. Made a coffee - used my new Arabica, this time I made it stronged by doing a slower extraction. I put a bit more water in the boiler of the moka pot, and extracted it over the smallest fire possible, at some point moving it off and lifting it up. It didn't spurt. The taste is excquisite. The right kind of bitter. Too many of my posts are marked with "coffee" tag, there's no way to fond any useful information about it from here 😂 Only randomly. I've binge watched the first half of the third season of Better Call Saul yesterday. There's a big ol' hook that really makes you want to find out what happened. The main character is kind of a bad person, well, not too much, slightly skewed morals, and impulsive combined w...

 13.08.2022 Nice day. Accidentally slept for a very long time - cause I somehow managed to go to be relatively early. Playing GTA Online and it's getting quite boring. There's still some fun stuff, of course. Bought arabica. Tastes nice, although acidic in the end. Definitely feels less "strong", taste wise. Tried connecting the old large boombox to the PC. It works as a clean amp on its own. Really great with bass, shakes the whole room. With PC, however, the sound was pretty bad. For the guitar anyway. It's tucked in a place where it defeinitely steals a lot of frequencies. Ultimately, it is still not monitors. So nothing to worry about. I'm realising that amidst all the experimentation I'm dirnking my coffee very slowly. And it's suppsoed to have less cafeeine that robusta. What if I'm desenetized? I can feel it, but I am not jumbled. Well, the "jumble" mostly comes from stored stress, if I can make a hypothesis. And seeing how my reco...

 11.08.2022 Man, I sure wrote a long post yesterday, didn't I? He he. Nice day so far. A little bit of sleep. Deep sleep. I prayed to God to help me get slightly more normal hours. A prayer needs to be faitful. I often wonder if should pray for specific things. How do you see God? God knows. He knows you better than you do. Not much else to tell. Perhaps one day I'll more theology of mine, if it can become more refined. Things are unexpectedly tense. Not as tense for me as they are for someone I care about. Someone who I mentioned in "Prayer of the Unavenged" seems to be in the mood to mistreat many Unavenged. One day it'll be time for Dark Avenger to come, eh? He he. I didn't even realise I took the lyrical theme from Manowar's Dark Avenger song. A song with one of the greatest buildups! I remember doing awesome overhead press (OHP) while listening to it. Absolutely exciting your CNS, responding to your primal stuff. As I went to bed I had a few spoonful ...

 10.08.2022 Nice day. Slept little yesterday, slept little today, worked some, then slept a little bit more. Last night (this morning) I took  a melatonin pill for the first time in a while. I have a feeling that it makes you sleepy for, like, 12 hours. So you may wanna take it 12 hours in advance of waking up. And if you take more pills it lasts even more. When I first bought melatonin this summer it helped. Or so I think. I had over a week of normalcy of sorts. Have to learn to use it. Having my second coffee. Let my little brother play Minecraft for a while. He has to stand on a stool to play it. I believe that makes playing videogames more even - so you don't wanna play when you're actually tired and waste the last of your brain energy. Not exactly the case with me, I'm afraid, he he. I remember sitting with dread. It was somehow both comfortable and uncomfortable. After standing for over two years I simply cannot sit for long. Not on a normal chair. My body is more opt...

 08.08.2022 Nice day. I've been sleeping well for two days in a row. Undisturbed. Not being disturbed during sleep is underrated. Hmm. Not being disturbed while awake is great too. I'm having a medium-light workout today. I'd like to do bench and squat. Maybe light deadlift, too? Ultimately, I wish to take as little time as possible, because I believe that one of the major factors for CNS fatigue is the length of the training session. I'm saving money by drinking the robusta I had for almost a year. I think you can find all the mentions of it in this blog. Coffee is one of those "micro hobbies" I imagine I have. I'm interested in it, in theory of when and how and what for you should consume it. For me it's a PE additive, he he. A simple drink. Robusta caffeine seems to affect me differently. There's also a possibility that it's low in this coffee. But i can feel it. I'm only finishing my second one right now. Hmm. And it is really late. Las...

 05.08.2022 Feeling mixed. Dreadful sleep, as if intentionally disturbed by calls, messagess and forgotten alarms. Also tense. You know when you know you have only a little bit of time left to sleep and you can't relax because of that? How funny. Weather is a promille less awful than yesterday. Do some conventional acts of work or something along the lines of. No breakfast. Impulsive sleepless yearnings. Overall though, it's gotten way better. I'm sleepy. When you're sleepy but you can't sleep it's pretty dangerous. Alsmost as bad as being drunk. Close to it. As if I had a teaspoon of alcohol, which is a large amount of an non-habitual brain. Can't believe I used to take "adaptogens". There are strange wishes. They're strange. They look like they can be bad, but realistically they aren't, on their own. All of this is nonsense, isn't it? Maybe you can relate if you have similar brain chemistry. I often wonder if I'm autistic, but the...

 04.08.2022 Nice day so far. Well, not great. Sleep is mediocre, weather is hot and humid (awful), nutrition is inconsistent, CNS is in shambles. Yesterday and today I had a nice "breakfast", but yesterday i had massive hunger pains at some points cause I just frickin forgot to eat the second time. Absolutely no food for a while. That's how it's easy for me to drop my weight so quickly. Today my mood is really lowered, unreasonably stressed and upset. That happens, I guess. I blame the weather. Silly. And people too. Inconsiderate people. And the idiot that can't stop talking about suicide. I just wanna fucking kill that guy, ha ha. Today I'm working out. Planing to enjoy myself. A little bit of OHP to keep the energy, some squats, some forgotten muscles. A curious thought! People talk about how strong gorillas and chimps are. But guess what? A gorilla wouldn't be able to beat the best humans at lifting weights overhead. They've not evolved to do this....

 03.08.2022 Okay day. Yesterday I felt a little bored, but not really bored. I fatigued myself by staying up too late for no reason. All these funny videos I've been watching mad eme wanna reinstall GTA 5. I'm starting to remember why I uninstalled it. Easy to find in this blog, early spring 2021. I managed to install it in one night. Watched Better Call Saul. First season is a little cartoonish, as per usual, but a lot of fun. Wanted to record something, but it was too late. Today I woke up slightly earlier to do some work. Got upset at some small thing and that really took me out out balance. Cause that "small thing" dragger a lot bigger things behind it. Painful realisation of my reality. But honestly, better than so many other things that seem better but are actually rotten. Constant conflict. That's life! The weather today has gone hot and humid again. Not pleasant if you're like me. Had my first coffee. Gonna have another one. I wanna create music. Remem...

 01.08.2022 Nice day. Nutrition - plentiful. Impulsively ordered takeout yesterday. Supporting the chain that stayed here, ha ha. And they got better - the hamburgers weren't as dry this time. Sleep - also alright. Weird dreams. Recovery - great. Did a tiny bit of shoulder gymnastics yesterday. They felt tight. Wasn'r sure what I'm gonna lift today. But I think I know. I'll do bench. Should be nice. And squat too. Before that I shall take my time. Actually want to record music. Played the SG acoustically. Felt that strings are grimy again. Wiped them. It'd take ten minutes of playing to finish this. I've not come up with the lyrics yet. I had a couple moments in the previous months when I felt like I had them in my mind. I should have writted them down as quickly as possible. I wish I managed all the "forgotten exercises" better. Right now I'm managing squat alright, doing it often enough. It only I did pushups and bench more often, no matter how l...