My training log and thoughts

 31.07.2024 Nice day. Kind of messy. Woke up early enough. Busy with random stuff. Angry for unconventional reasons (drunk guy). Confused, but I'm so much calmer these days. Grief and despair don't bother me anymore. Turning into a living zombie does. A lot of coffee, experimenting with the new teapot cause it said onj the packaging it for coffee too. That was a mistake, it barely brewed, but there was enough grains eventually, so it was pretty caffeinating, but it didn't really connect with my brain in my preferred way, more with my parasympathetic nervous system or however you call em. Anyway, I ended up starting my workout after midnight, so it's actually August already lol. I feel very powerful. Workout Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 10 120 for 10 160 for 8 overhand - kind of easy, although it was hard to believe I can do it easily 190 for 8 kind of easy again, mixed grip 200 for 8 nice, about the same but I could feel my upper back starting to give. Hmm... It can be fix...

 29.07.2024 Nice day. An even day, for once! Woke up a little later than normal. Played a lot of FNV yesterday, once again! Yes, I finally got into JSawyer. Already cheesed Chance's grave by hiding on the rocks with the recharger rifle. One small cazador managed to get to me, and another one ambushed me, so I quickly swung at it with the fire axes that I think JSawyer added in accordance with the comic. Did Ghost Town gunfight. I've done NCRCF quests on my last playthrough, so I decided it's okay if I skip them this time. Almost fooled the guard, but it ended up being a huge gunfight with me hiding behind the rocks and cutting down everyone who turned the corner. In real life something like this would have been a huge stalemate, but they have to keep rushing! Hehe. I'm playing on Normal, which is supposed to be JSawyer's intent? Reasonable enough, I guess, cause you die quickly anyway. I'm playing as Henry, cause I figured I sort of based Henry - from Marco - on...

 27.07.2024 Lovely day, honestly. I'm really happy and a lot of my earlier darkness, which even bothered me at the start of this month, is gone. I've gotta admit I've started getting a little too "distracted" all over again. It's a struggle. I go through my life with a swinging beat. I've been quite severely fatigued yesterday. It's all a part of reacclimatization. Now it's pretty late again. My brain and my frontal lobes aren't very swollen, thank God. But it's still a bit of a struggle, maybe not even a bit. God please help me. Pray for me. Anyway, it's late, I've had my two mokas alongside a large portion of sugary foods, now I want one more coffee and then I'd like to start my workout. Today we'll be doing sets of 5 with 90 kgs in OHP. Around 70-80%, I expect. Then some more stuff, maybe bench, maybe some squats. Mustn't be too lazy. Workout Warmup - thorough, mostly upper body Overhead press 20 for 10 50 for 10 70 f...

 25.07.2024 Nice day, messy, can't get enough sleep. That happens sometimes. Really messy, "distracting" type of stuff. But I believe in myself and God. I can move on and be free with God's grace. Workout Warmup - thorough, various moves for sets of 20 Overhead press 20 for 20 33 for 3 sets of 20 - feels good Rubber lat pulls - some Pullups, parallel grip outside 4 sets of 10 - feels amazing, honestly speaking Squat 2 sets of 10 flat shoes, slow and controlled. May want to learn to lift slower, controlled. Because my squat wasn't actually the weightlifting squat, it was super high elitince ATTG without a good reason to go so deep and make the movement so weak. Hmm. 33 for 10 50 for 10 good 70 for 10 cramp of the inner thigh, but light 90 - 2 sets of 10 - feels good, very good, actually. Thank God for everything.

 24.07.2024 Lovely day. Woke up sort of early. Weather okay, a bit on the warmer side. Can you believe I'm at home again? It feels like nothing. Nothing happened. Like I've just took a glance at a TV screen as 4 months sped by. Hmm. So lovely. Okay... Been busy today. First I mistyped "busty" hehe. "Been busty today". Maybe when I'm back to bench pressing, hehehe. Right now I'm kind of a slim fitness model, sub 100 kgs. Ate a little bit today. Pork chop, cutlet, loads of veggies. What else?.. Been doing some stuff around the house. Burned down a half of the rotten pallets. Lovely large fire. My little bother freaked out all too much while I reminisced on my childhood pyromania. Took too long. Roasted a turkey breast, baked some potatoes in the coals. Started my workout after midnight, so it's technically 25th right now. Workout Warmup - none Deadlift 20 - 2 sets of 5 70 - 2 sets of 5 123 - 2 sets of 5 163 for 5 overhand, kinda heavy 193 for 5 lov...

 22.07.2024 Lovely day. Ended up waking up early despite doing to bed kinda late, but not as late as I used to. Standing is as easy as it was, mostly. I'm definitely way thinner, hehe. Can sort of see my abs, can't grab my chub when standing up at least. A lot of music, cleaning and wiping guitars. So much to rememeber. Today just some high-rep OHPs and squats, I'm thinking. It's 8:35PM, and it's sort of early enough I think. It's not gonna be a long workout. Speaking of, let me charge my player... Also, I oughta buy a different player, perhaps. Well, not oughta, not at all, but I kind of want it. I think I'm not gonna do it. I think I can do a good enough job at saving my money. It'll be hard... I already ordered new Panasonic earbuds. Apparently the ones I've had lasted TWO YEARS! Til they partially disconnected this June, like all headphones do. And the Sony ones are already shiotting themselves... Workout Warmup - somewhat thorough Overhead press...

 18.07.2024 Enjoyed my coffee, the weather, however, was possibly the most hot and humid I've experienced in years that day (it's actually 1:42AM on July 22nd right now) Workout Warmup - mostly upper body Pushups off a folded mat, partially like pike pushups but not fully angled 3 sets of 15-20-25 I think Overhead press with 15 kg bar 3 sets of 30 - excessive Dips - 15 reps - very uncomfortable Squat - 3 sets of 10 barely, blood pressure low Next day I developed a real long lasting cramp in that special muscle which I thought was injured when I was 15. Right under my right shoulder blade, to the right of rhomboids. Thankfully, it was almost over the day after that (20th) 22.07.2024 1:45AM Now I am back home again. I have a lot of things to say. I had a lot of negative things in mind earlier, but they all got smoothed out thanks to the positive experiences of coming home. I'm dazed pleasantly. I gotta stop putting my room in order and shower. For the first time in a while I ...

 15.07.2024 Warmup Squat 2 sets of 20 2 sets of 20 with vest in straight arms in front of me (same as before) 20 reps made it sort of hard for the shoulders! 2 sets of 10 - one legged squat with leg held up with my hand. I go from a full squat even position, push off with the other leg to the side so I can balance on the working leg, and then rise 17.07.2024 Warmup - somewhat thorough Pullups 1 and 5 as warmup, underhand grip 1 set of 5 archer pullups, 5 reps per hand, alternating 3 sets of 1 archer pullup each hand, 4 reps overhand and 4 underhand Deadlift 15 kg bar for 3 sets of 20

07.07.2024 Bodyweight DL for a few sets of 20 and some severe neck training - mostly with arm resistance and uncomfortable angles 11.07.2024 A few messy days, but managed to get myself together Warmup Chinups again the wall 10, 20, 15 ran out of gas. Nutrition has been quite uneven, shall we say 6 inch pipe, weight around 10 kgs, in gloves - some overhand DLs, a couple sets mixed grip DLs for 20 (maintaining proper speed and bracing!), a couple sets OHP. Feels pretty good! 12.07.2024 Warmup Pushups off the folded mat 15-20-25-30-35-45-50 They all were pretty strict, angled downwards for better shoulder engagement, only the last set ended up being more parallel to the floor. I am really surprised how easy they all felt, feels pretty good! 

 03 or maybe 04.07.2024 Warmup - upper body Pushups - cricket/pike pushups, off the folded mat, not changing the body angle so it's more like ohp I guess 2 sets of 10 1 set of 20 Conventional pushups off the mat, range cut a little, narrow grip 2 sets of 30 1 set of 60 kinda hard 05.07.2024 Warmup - focused on lower body, long and thorough, a lot of curious stretching moves such as variations of sissy squats and straight leg floor touches Squat 4 sets of 20 - a bit more like powerlifting squat, smooth and controlled 06.07.2024 Warmup - some, upper body Pullups (chinups) with one arm braced against the wall 15, 17, 20, 20 - in the end, both arms braced against the wall. Not strict, I ended up doing cheat reps in the end of some sets to reach the desired volume. Covered on broken wall crumbs. Drag curls, one arm 12 for 20 19-20 (three items) for 2 sets, with some extra hard cheating in the end - squeezing the muscle for longer time under tension. Not enough nutrition to feel good aft...

 30.06.2024 Nice day, nice workout. Warmup Squat 2 sets of 10 Squat with a weight in arms straight in front of me - loading shoulders and traps 12 kg for 10 15 kg for 10 18-20 kg for 3 sets of 10 - nice One legged sideways squat 2 sets of 10 This sideways squat isn't Cossack squat, it's actually one legged, from a normal deep squat position I shift to the side and try to get the other leg off the floor as early as possible as I stand up on the main leg. It's pretty difficult, the other leg ends up helping a little, cause I don't have enough flexibility to take it off the floor at the beginning of the movement. This squat also looks q little bit like a movement that sumo wrestlers do before the fight, like, lifting their whole body on one leg. That's a cool rare move, a real find for calisthenics. 02.07.2024 Going home this month, hopefully. It finally started to get a little too hot and humid, like back home. So I worked out late, when it got dark. Warmup - short Pu...