My training log and thoughts

 30.03.2026 Warmup - OHP stretches, thumb and wrist stretches alongside it (rubber), L flys, some very slow and careful squats I asked myself how come I don't need warmup on DL. Then I realized - it's because I do a lot of actual warmup sets! That's what I did today. Overhead press 20 for 20 50 for 8 60 for 6 70 for 5 80 for 4 90 for 4 100 for 4 103 for 4 105 for 5 - feels good, confident Some step-ups in between sets for PP warmup Push press 105 - front rack hold 70 for 2 103 for 2 113 for 2 - these sets were pretty fast, sort of similar to a double set 123 for 2 first rep okay, second mediocre; then, right away - 128 for 1 and one failed - first rep was really good, second got stuck around the sticking point. I held it, considered putting in more effort - I felt like I could lock it out with some grit, but decided to put it down. Strained my right leg a little bit cause I overextended it. Eventually I decided I was done downstairs. I have psychological issues with PP. I a...

 29.03.2026 So, I have DL today. Really enjoyed writing yesterday. I feel like I'm finally on to something with my idea of showing what you have when you've lost everything. I'm doing something right with the prose. I might miss my crazy energy but I still have it, it's just that it'll need to take a couple steps of transformation into something more formal in my own way. Workout Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 10, focusing on some reps having a fullest lockout, even leaning back 120 - 160 200 for 5 - OHG, only two reps were okay with the full lockout (the last two!) but they all were above knee. It's fascinating that I can't start with a good grip position for OHG. 233 for 2 - one mixed, one straps. Having *some* issues with head pressure, but they're moderate. Nose closes up too, but not excessively. 248 for 2 - hard but not bad 263 for 2 - doable 265 for 2 feels kinda good, feeling the WARMUP 268 for 2 really good 270 for 2 hard but good speed and lockout 2...

 28.03.2026 Song: December Dawn - The Cross Of Stone I wanted to say it sounds similar to another song by Reverend Bizarre I think... Not the whole song, just a riff... Maybe not them, but Cathedral... It goes "how could it be that you forgot after love" or something like that... No, can't find it. I used to have it my playlist frequently on occasion and I can't remember! They had an Ozzy-esque vocal, but less grating. RIP Ozzy, God rest your soul! I'll go on metal archives. Can't find it. It had a nice descending riff, a wall of sound, with an organ. *** So apparently it's Count Raven! "How Can It Be". I have been pretty messy with my sleep and my energy. It's been a mess. Nutrition too. Don't even know what's going on. But I think today I ate okay. My throat has been pretty raspy, I might be ill and not know it. But that's only a maybe. I should just be careful. Had one very nice coffee that made me sleepy. The lights went out, ...

 26.03.2026 I think I accidentally switched to nighttime but not really, cause I didn't manage to have a good workout. I keep having this condition where my blood is too thin and it overfills my head and it hurts and I get close to blackout too easily. I didn't push myself tonight though, but I did experiment. Yesterday was kinda amazing though btw. I should have worked out yesterday lol! But instead my energy got channeled into something more rare as I wrote and really enjoyed it, overfilled with joy. That strange, pure, childlike happiness. It's not manic, it's soft but very strong. Like I have good air to breathe. Today, on the other hand, I got irritated with some random thought that I haven't even consciously processed, I think I might have triggered some painful memory but it didn't appear in my "clear mind", in my higher consciousness! Appetite has been low. What if I do have parasites? No, wait, that'd probably increase my appetite. And I f...

 22.03.2026 Lovely day. Critiquing. Writing. Actually not regretting daytime living. Light workout Calf raises - 3 sets of 20, superset with Hip stretches - wall pushes, 3 sets Curls, one hand, grip by the body 16 kg kettlebell - 2 sets of 5, alternating, passing from hand to hand - pretty hard 16 kg kettlebell - 1 set of 10 per hand (2 times more than previous sets) Pullups 3 - pretty strenuous. Some warmup and rubber pulls Chinups 2 sets of 10 - feels nice. Might wanna do it more often. Too lazy! Rubber pulls - lats and face pulls, light rubber - 2 sets 23.03.2026 Bench Warmup 120 - 4 sets of 5 130 - 2 sets of 5 140 - 2 sets of 5 That was gonna be it but I felt so good. The whole day was my typical "coffee angry" but I managed to hold it back. 120 for 5 70 for 5 160 for 3 that was kind of a mess. I tried doing the "trick". 100 for 5 70 for 5 155 for 4 set to failure, choked myself a little but crawled out from under it. Nothing to be too worried about, cause my be...

 20.03.2026 I'm enjoying this day. I again woke up early and had a nice small breakfast. Just fats and protein, no card or vegetables. Then I managed to fall asleep again, really enjoyed it. Dreamed up somebody talking about me and then me getting bombed. The bombs were surprisingly loud in my dreams. Gave a lesson. I really wanted to work out when I woke up today. But now, in the evening, I'm thinking I'll avoid making that mistake again - the last two training weeks I've been following this impulse and it hasn't paid off well. No, I'll do my OHPs and PPs tomorrow. Also I plan to do some decently heavy OHP and not overstretch/overprepare myself. And I hope my oxygen will be good. Today I decided to have a micro workout, just to satisfy the gentle craving. Calf raises (full range, foot flexion) / Squats (partial, in the mid range) - 3 sets of around 20 reps Lat rubber pulls / curls - 3 sets of 20 reps Actually I used a chest expander with 2 springs - medium-ligh...

 18.03.2026 Nice very long day. I thought it was going to be a mess but it wasn't. Really enjoyed reading Flannery O'Connor. Bench - sets of 5 20 - 50 - 70 - 100 123 - 133 - 143 153 for 1 it was a mess cause I put a plate where my right elbow was supposed to go and it got in the way, so I did a "long pause" press 153 for 3 messy From here, again sets of 5 120 - 130 - 140 145 - 150 - very nice, very well controlled! The right wrist felt messy and swollen but otherwise functional. Skin ended up being a little abused as well somehow - weird, isn't it? 19.03.2026 I have great expectations for today. I slept and ate well, although not a lot - appetite is moderate and I couldn't fall asleep after 7AM. Read, enjoyed. Two conventional coffees, 35/420 and 25/320, double ground washing machine brand. Editing and rewriting some very minor things in early chapters of Marco. Minor in size, but not in meaning. I decided to let the readers know more. Workout Deadlift 20 - 70...

 16.03.2026 Nice day. Woke up at 3AM, but then managed to sleep a little more. Brain is refreshed, to a degree at least, sprayed with some vinegar. Guess what? I think RW4 is happening. It's ridiculous, I know! But the more I look at media, at storytelling, everything, the more I realize how plainly wrong I am about great many things and my own creation, Michigander Marco. It's gonna be half and half first person and close third person. Not an even 50%. I'm not used to it yet, but I know it won't take too long. I wanna load up on some book and just copy it, in some way or another (prose-wise). Plots. I've become a 'plotter'. I have a realization that things, the way things happened, the way I remember them, they are just not very easily digestible to anyone. I wanted to work out today when I woke up. It's not the right day. I'm supposed to rest. But I might want to workout. I dunno, maybe it ain't smart. And I realized I actually don't wanna ...

 15.03.2026 Nice day. Woke up at 1AM. Ate decently well. Slept okay. Had one conventional 35/420, a couple cups of instant coffee. I am going to go back and rewrite chapters 1-5 again. Crazy, isn't it? I just need to somehow figure out a way to avoid my typical pitfalls. I really like Someguy2000's idea - "Don't bore the reader". But I'm not sure if I'm ready to accept it. Also I didn't finish watching that interview he did with someone else, let me... Workout Warmup - wall and floor pushups Bench 20 - 50 - 70 - 100 123 - 4 sets of 5 That concludes the portion of bench I wanted to do today. Yeah, I'm reshuffling the exercises again - it makes so much sense to do Bench right after DL, after yesterday. And man, yesterday was quite the wrecker. Overhead warmup - olympic stretches with stick and rubber, L-flys with 6 kg dumbbells Overhead press 20 - 50 73 - 2 sets of 5 93 - 2 sets of 5 Push press 70 - 5 singles - not bad! Rack was surprisingly good giv...

 14.03.2026 Another extremely rare morning workout. I had good sleep for two days in a row so I'm pulling an "alldayer". Got some stuff to do to later today. Had one conventional coffee yesterday, then one half a large cup of this instant coffee which made me rather drowsy and then one 35/420 double ground conventional. Also I ran out of Jardin and these last two conventional coffees were the washing machine company coffee, pretty nice and thick. Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 12 120 for 8 163 for 5 203 for seven overall reps - OHG except for three reps; one ohg under knee (bad), one over knee (almost okay) and one mixed grip 233 for 5 - taking breaks between reps, but they all were done with a hook grip. And guess what? It's actually a PR in my hook grip DL. I have never done a hook grip DL with this weight for 5 reps. And all of a sudden the tissues in my hands are all good and painless? That's gotta be some kind of blessing. 253 for 5 - nice. Two reps reverse mixed ...

 12.03.2026 Nice enough day. Slept well, ate good - finally some meat, some appetite returned. Today's we're again doing "heavy-light" but this time singles. And we'll do some moderate pumping too. That's how I'm keeping my bench afloat with it affecting push press / OHP minimally. Workout Warmup - wall then floor pushups Bench press 20 - 50 - 70 - 100 From here it's just singles 120 - 130 140 for 1 143 - 3 sets of 1 Small break here 143 - 4 sets of 1 150,5 - 4 sets of 1 Listened to Battle Hymns on my phone today. Manowar rules! 103 for 4 but reracking and resetting my grip one finger narrower on every rep 103 for 4 same width as my overhead grip - pinkes half an inch away from outer markings And that's it! That's the workout today. Very satisfying. On all sets I made sure to hold a pause with arms locked out. Not the pause on the chest, mind you. I made sure to reverse direction as fast as possible on all reps. Like I was afraid of getting cru...

 11.03.2026 Decided to go for a light workout today. It makes sense to space out my pressing days more. Slept really well, woke up happy. Nutrition mediocre - have no strong appetite. It's five points today. Wall pushups and plank holds, pushups, squat, leg / hip / ankle stretches and the fifth thing that I somehow forgot. What did I want to do?.. It's possible there's some kind of misplacement rather than forgetting. Wall pushups - 3 sets of 50, feels okay, right shoulder a little strained after yesterday Pushup planks, going from arm to arm, even lifting up one hand - 2 sets - can be made pretty hard Pushups - 2 sets of 20 as well as starting the kneel/foot/ankle stretch, also doing the "forearm curl" from extended position, fingers (just them) pressing against the floor - possibly a good drill for wrist and palm mobility. Definitely don't want to overdo this one, but my forearms very decently warm. Thigh squeezer and squat-to-kneel drill - 2 sets - ended up...

 10.03.2026 Another small reminder from the 8th - not that I'm gonna do cleans though... But frankly there's no reason I stopped doing them. They are good in general and arguably crucial to be able to do if you wanna do any kind of overhead lift. Consider doing them as a part of your front rack stretch?  https://www.youtube.com/shorts/yFyO3FpQsys *** Alright. Finally it's the 10th. I'm coming to terms with the fact that when it comes to my "issue" I was simply trawled along by lazy chair-sitters who were successfully playing into my delusions and "just (not) doing their job". They get paid for every hour they sit on their ass and answer messages but when there's an issue of one of them fucking up they just can't do anything. On to the prosecutor's office - hopefully not just another chair sitter's. I wish I came to conclude this much earlier. Maybe God wants me to be pessimistic about it. That's what I keep thinking. Never trust s...

 08.03.2026 Interesting fact about today - I flipped the bar, so the sleeve is now sliding off of the left side. Workout Some rare warmup - calf raises, squat-to-kneel ankle drill (might not have been the best idea) Deadlift 20 - 70 - 120 - 160 203 for about 7 off-the-floors, out of them 2 were good with the flipped side, and one really good one when I stepped over it to even out the sides - so basically just 3 OHG reps, but two were extra difficult in figuring out where and how to grip this flipped bar 243 for 6 - very nice set, somewhat easy. If it wasn't for the bare can of beans I consumed yesterday it would have been an even better set. But by rep 4 I farted so densely and hotly I thought I definitely shitteded myself. Thankfully it was, in fact, just a fart. Realities of deadlifting! 253 for 6 super lame, kinda feeling like shit, otherwise easy. Kinda just low energy, blood too thick. Should have had more food later. 253 for 6 better set. This one was better. I'm close to...

 06.03.2026 Nice day. Slept somewhat uneven, ate okay. Energy above average! Only had one coffee, double ground conventional 34/408 - exactly that number somehow! Enjoying time slopping around on CritiqueCircle. I should dedicate some attention to Descructivereaders as well. Workout Warmup - wall pushups, floor pushups in some fun variations Bench press 20 - 50 - 70 - 100 And from here we only did doubles - 120 - 130 - 135 - 140 - 143 - 145 - 148 - 150 - 153 - 155 comedown - 148 - 143 - 135 - 130 - 120 - 100 - 50 It was a lot of fun. All very easy, focusing on my CNS. I love how light the bar felt in my hands today. Wrists feel very good, pecs too. I think I learned to "bridge" without flexing my traps - it's possible it's a pretty strong improvement. OHP 20 for 20 - feels nice and easy Yesterday I did some squat-to-kneel drills as well for my ankle, and some other (p)rehab stuff such as thigh squeezers. I think I'll work on that today as well, just enough to warm...

 05.03.2026 Reminder for today  https://youtube.com/shorts/ZiBRM_8SK4s?si=s9-WpOYGhOZD1sgo I was conflating concepts - not pushing with hips doesn't mean not spreading your knees. Very curious to see how it'll work out. Workout Warmup - long, upper body, lower body during initial sets Overhead press - a bunch of weird little tidbits to prepare for PP, mostly focusing on front rack and then also stretching with the bar in between sets 20 - 40 - 40 50 - 50 Also cooking food ahead of time - smart! But it might be minorly distracting. I am remembering I used to do a heavy weight front rack before PPs in January. Man, it's already March, how crazy. Front rack liftoff / stretch 100 - one set with fingertips, bar on clavicle, one full grip 150 - one fingertips, one set for two reps full grip - moderate pain at the base of forearm flexors 150 - one full grip liftoff; then one with 100 Push press 100 - 3 sets of 3 - really nice! 110 - 2 sets of 3 - same! 123 for 3 - very good! My ar...

 04.03.2026 It's technically still 3rd for me. Well, not technically, subjectively. I've been playing Sim Settlements in FO4. I wanted to talk about how it takes the problem getting serious before you even try to solve it and how funny it can be. My VPN was misbehaving all day today and yesterday and I always just assumed not all of these connections are open. And they aren't. But I googled some problems that it can have. Apparently you need to have port 443 open. It worked without it before, so I opened it, all following internet instructions. And it seems it fixed the majority of it. A problem sort of solved. Something to be happy about, you could say. *** Now it's 11 PM and the day is half an hour away from ending. I am not exactly sure what I want to do today. I think I could have my OHP/PP workout, but it's pretty late. The good thing though, is that I know I won't be upset if I don't. I am currently satisfied on metal. All muscle is pretty stiff. Upper...

 03.03.2026 Feeling good physically. Day really messy though - power outage for a while, internet misbehaving. RN it's okay, so I'm feeling calmer. Deadlift really good today so far. Deadlift 20 - 70 - 123 - 163 203 for 5 - OHG nice and solid. It is conclusive I have become stronger! 223 for 5 243 for 8 really messy set, I was annoyed at the internet and at my player cause it kept dropping off my head 245,5 for 8 really messy otherwise light. I had a lot of problems with my audio player that I need so much. I wish I had my old one. Also I had to deal with one of the heavier collars - it got stuck onto the bar really nice. I figured to pry it off with something but ended up just wiggling it off, bit by bit. Gotta try adding lube - perhaps it's time. The sleeves are still nicely lubed inside though. 247,8 for 8 even messier, but otherwise manageable. I should not have tightened the belt mid-set - pretty sure it made me way stupider and cut off some of the air flow! 250,5 for ...

 02.03.2026 Nice day. Ate little, slept mediocre. I wanted to DL today but I think I simply don't have enough energy. Tomorrow I think it should be better. Even coffee kinda did nothing for me. But reading helped me a lot. I read a couple pages downstairs, got an idea for a scene and had to rush upstairs. Wrote a small scene, that's gotta be something. Wanna do some stuff today. Just a tiny bit. My body's trying to force me to recover. Not a big deal. I keep thinking I can ride high but I can't - at least not all the time! It's good it's only a start of my DL microcycle and I generally have high energy. I'm gonna do some super simple stuff today. Workout Calf raises - focusing on complete extension for both feet 3 sets of 20 supersetted with  Squats 3 sets of 20 Rubber leg curls, seated 3 sets of 40 per leg, yellow rubber folded - harder than red rubber last time. It got pretty difficult by the end! Curls / L-flys superset 2+2 kg dbs - 2 sets of 20+ reps If ...

 01.03.2026 I feel way better today. The weather's very warm, it's all melting. Ate decent. Sleep is half-nighttimey half normal. I've been having these thoughts of regretting my early wakeups. I had decent energy this week at first - first three days, and then it all went to hell. Mostly my fault. Today I feel okay and I'm gonna bench. I think I will do the rack stretches too - but after bench. Some super simple bar unracks, maybe do that "rolling" from OHP to PP rack I had envisioned. I think I might DL tomorrow. Not sure exactly what I'll do today. I want moderate volume, maybe a tiny bit more than that. Right shoulder is a little overstretched - that's because of the overhead fixes I've been doing on Thursday. It was an okay workout but it wasn't what I wanted it to be. I rode the wave and crashed from the top. Not a big deal! You gotta chill. Maybe you have a little crisis - like yesterday. You gotta live through it and chill. Go over it s...