March 26th and 27th - Two overhead days undercut by mediocre recovery and impulsivity

 26.03.2026

I think I accidentally switched to nighttime but not really, cause I didn't manage to have a good workout. I keep having this condition where my blood is too thin and it overfills my head and it hurts and I get close to blackout too easily. I didn't push myself tonight though, but I did experiment.

Yesterday was kinda amazing though btw. I should have worked out yesterday lol! But instead my energy got channeled into something more rare as I wrote and really enjoyed it, overfilled with joy. That strange, pure, childlike happiness. It's not manic, it's soft but very strong. Like I have good air to breathe.

Today, on the other hand, I got irritated with some random thought that I haven't even consciously processed, I think I might have triggered some painful memory but it didn't appear in my "clear mind", in my higher consciousness! Appetite has been low. What if I do have parasites? No, wait, that'd probably increase my appetite. And I felt too sleepy and I fell asleep and my blood pressure was rather low.

Definitely wasted too much energy yesterday, especially when I got randomly excited when someone I know responded to a comment I left on a random video but then deleted their comment. Could barely fall asleep. I got strange adhd-style symptoms. All I really need is a good enough amount of recovery.

Workout

Warmup - some

Overhead press

50 - 70

80 - 2 sets of 5

Then I did something interesting and I carried a couple pairs of 10 kg plates upstairs and tried pressing the big dumbbells. I cleaned them on the third attempt but got very close to a blackout.

And another very curious thing I discovered - my big dumbbell bar is not 3.5 kgs, it's 6 kgs. It blew my mind how I thought it was 3 even though it's way bigger than a pair of collars who are also 3 kg together. I measured it on my coffee scale and it's 6 kgs. It's a very underutilized piece of equipment.

So one dumbbell got awkwardly loaded to 41 kgs, although I think this DB bar is probably 3 kgs. This thing just appeared in the house one day and I took it. So it probably was 43 kgs - and a 49 kg really unwieldy dumbbell. I'd really love to figure out this blood/oxygen mystery. Is it possible my arteries are weak at this point? Have I been overpressurizing myself? I'm definitely overthinking it. I had the same thing after my last bronchitis in 2024, it persisted. Low blood pressure. Lacking some chemical. I reckon I should just eat more protein. Might be it's time I bought some powder.

I wanted to do some PP but as I went downstairs I realized I can't do that. Maybe I'll work out tomorrow (today)? Maybe I'll do bench instead lol, since this was quite the nothingburger. Maybe I'm actually still in daytime mode and I should just have been sleeping. Maybe I'm simply overworking a little.

27.03.2026

Nice day overall. Sleep quality mid, nutrition high in volume but low in quality and overall placement. I should have eaten earlier in the day.

Workout

Warmup - some, forgot L-flys, but did some lower body warmup (just some squats) - that was good

Overhead press

20 for 20

50 for 10

70 for 10

83 for 10

Last two sets were supersetted with front rack stretches and cleans. I did 50 for 3 and 83 for 4 cleans. I'm glad they work alright.

Overall my energy was so mediocre and muscle felt wrong. I went to try and do a full grip front rack but my forearm hurt more than it should have. It told me I have to stop.

I need to focus on my recovery. Learn to spread my meals and get a better quality sleep. I need to re-work myself into the groove, cause right now I'm stumbling. But I also know I'll get way stronger soon, strange, isn't it?

Trying to write. Interesting stuff, but not excessively productive today.