My training log and thoughts

 29.04.2026 Sleep is uneven as I am once again switching to daytime. Tomorrow should be nice! I woke up around 1 AM then fell asleep around 7 after a moderate breakfast. Then I woke up close to 1 PM and did some stuff - semi-important, not to me but to someone else. I don't like this obscurantism cause I think it might spoil my writing but I still don't wanna share too much here. So... wait a sec, why am I writing here today? I don't have a workout, I have a rest day lol! Nice Bench yesterday though. Still kinda yearning to focus on OHP some more, reserve some energy for it somehow... I got an idea - I might switch my OHP and Bench with one another; I'll do Bench after DL and add some OHP, maybe even PP or other overhead lifts, balance it between each other and Bench - and then I'll have more energy for the OHP workout. Also I gotta not forget about my Squat - really happy with my legs and knees, almost no discomfort in any kind of movement today! And guess what - I...

 27.04.2026 I had the sweetest dream. One of the aforementioned "A"'s was there. Nothing excessive! It's just the kind of dream you don't really wanna share with anyone. It's just that it was sweet, and it featured a church, it features us climbing over some broken boxes and me having to catch her. Just a sweet little dream, her how I knew her. It's snowing outside, it was melting all day and now it's getting frozen again. So I was wrong that it was the last snow of the season when I took a walk this one time, during the "transformative day" xD 28.04.2026 Managed to fall asleep last night and woke up early. Feeling okay. Ate well. Wrote! Workout Warmup - long, too thorough, wall pushups and variations of planks, overhead stretches with rubber on thumbs - that overstretched my right wrist Bench press 20 - 40 From now on, it's only sets of 5 - intended to be a double-set summing up to 10 50 + 60 70 + 90 90 + 100 100 + 110 120 + 130 kinda ha...

 26.04.2026 Man, for AGES in this blog my OHP was SHIT! IT WAS SHIT! It was not ATHLETIC, it was some kind of giga retard lean back with no lockout!! I am working on fixing it. Before I got my garage gym I was more athletic, my lifts looked better. I am working on it! That's what physical culture is. Today... Today we have an OHP day. Lowkey yesterday was amazing - it was a day somehow not spoiled by anything! I got "Hunger" by Knut Hamsun and "Curious Case of Dog" by Mark Haddon. I read a part of the preface to "Hunger" and found a lot of myself being described. Heh. If I was... better, for the lack of better word. Somebody compared Michigander Marco to "Curious case of Dog" - I can see why! Marco sort of has fragmented consciousness, he has some "symptoms of autism" - well, it's because he's basically me, slightly exaggerated. Today I'm OH-Peeing. Pressing. And PPing. And I wanna do dumbbells too. My body is so well op...

 25.04.2026 Today I finally will write. Kind of a weird day! Slept little, woke up not sleepy, gave a lesson, ate - a turkey chop then half a bowl of semolina porridge, thick like a pudding. Then I fell asleep again and had weird, almost traumatic dreams that make my flesh tense, but also were strangely entertaining in a way. Woke up a little annoyed. My mother, she pains me! Memories, the fact that she is not responsible for what she does - why? Are women chaos? I know I am chaos, but I am a destructive form of chaos; that is why I am not a man but an animal with balls. My spirit is the one of a man, sure; he is weak even if he pulls at the reigns, he doesn't want me to hurt myself. So, I woke up and smelled something like gas - made me angry. Why, so much pain, through so many years, why can't it stop? You should see a little artwork I drew either in 2022 or 2023 - hidden beside my shelf. It's bad but I tried to express something with it. Annoyed massively because I recei...

 22.04.2026 I don't know why I'm here. Well, actually, I do - I wanted to see if I can put in this vidget right here somewhere: Not sure if I will but I might. Here's the code, just for myself: <div id="dailyVersesWrapper"></div> <script async defer src="https://dailyverses.net/get/verse.js?language=niv"></script> It's from https://dailyverses.net/ I love this site, it gives me something to ponder on from time to time! Also I wanted to try and do something weird - I wanted to see if I can type a text while unconscious, or forcefully "detached". I realize it is, will, simply not possible, but I think I might try. I'm not using anything beside my own brain to reach this state. I just know my fingers are very fast and often type words automatically. Lullaby herethemost governary ethelicary therapeutic herethenever Interesting fact - it's mostly the letters I can see on the keyboard, in between my hands that thi...

 21.04.2026 Perpetual state of confusion - this time it's soft and warm, like I got lost in my own home rather than some unknown place. I know nothing but I'm not unhappy about it! So, interesting fact - the only thing sore after yesterday were my traps. Overall volume was really low for me! Three sets of 8, only one with a "heavy" weight. Today - and yeah, it's today - I wanted to do OHP and PP and other things. I'd like to do cleans perhaps even maybe, like I used to? Could be cool. I'd like to remember what December was like. Workout Warmup - again a little too long, very - unnecessarily - thorough, distracted, dawdling Overhead press mixed with cleans (power cleans) 20 for 20 just OHP 43 - 5 cleans, a set of presses; started with hook grip but switched to straps - skin not great! Ashamed - it's just 40 kgs lol. 63 -  3 cleans, 5 presses 83 - 3 sets of 3 or more cleans and some presses 83 - 2 cleans in straps, one clean with a hook grip and 10 press...

 20.04.2026 Back to DL. Nice day - ate okay, slept well. Doing some critiques on RDR, expanding my brain, if you can call it that. Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 12 120 for 8 - counted as 4 sets of 2 in one, mental trick 160 for 6 203 OHG - one liftoff, one okay rep, one good rep, a few different bad reps in between them. I FINALLY figured out the PROBLEM with my OHG, even though it was obvious before - I need to grip it perfectly right, only grip it from above, DO NOT put my hands on the bar - cause if I grip it a tiny bit deeper than I need to it's gonna roll out and my back is going to win over my fingers and the bar is going to spin and slap my fingertips. 233 for 8 - kinda messy, 5 reps quick, 3 after that. A lot of side-balance problems today, possibly related to all the rehab I've been doing or maybe it's cause I have been sleeping on one side of my body. The right side keeps feeling too low! 243 for 8 - hard, messy, a lot of breathing. I had a pretty crazy idea to do 260...

 18.04.2026 I would like to learn to hop on one leg again, and on both legs, like I used to so much. It's one of the rehab things. My left leg, to be fair, isn't that springy either! I noticed this, I've been noticing this. I think I need to work on negatives, on landing with my foot cause that's what's lacking. Why am I such a cripple all of a sudden? I'm not, but that's the kind of thoughts I occasionally get. I will become athletic and agile again. I'm already doing it. I can't very well do "one legged hops / jump" on the right, unless I really focus my effort on overcoming the tissue stiffness. Running in place - that works. More hopping - this time I hanged one of my thick rubber bands on the pullup bar and it's assisting me. I can jump pretty high with it! The fact that it's rubber makes it more smooth. Must not overdo it. I still got strained meniscus tissues, the ones I had surgery on - I think that's one of the parts I ...

 17.04.2026 "If only one had a bite to eat on such a clear day! Overwhelmed by the impression of the happy morning, I experienced an irrepressible sense of well-being and started humming for joy for no particular reason." I was thinking how a lot of "literary" (I'm starting to hate this word) books just drag things down, keep things amuck for no reason and decided to confirm my bias and check Knut Hamsun's "Hunger". I was so pleasantly surprised to find this mirroring of nearly my exact thoughts there. It's as if I received an impression from reading before reading. *** I've accidentally grown intensely emotional and over-reactive. More than usual. I am not certain where the origin of that lies. Perhaps it's me engaging with all the literary critique places and people there. Perhaps it's the fact that I DLed 300 and I have some unconscious expectations. Perhaps it's something else - I had something more certain but I forgot. Ah,...

 14.04.2026 Before I fell asleep I wanted to watch Family Guy and I ended up watching it my dream. It dissolved, all I remember is a couple of images that sort of looked like an Aztec map from Counter Strike and I must have been Peter pursuing Lois romantically. Makes you wonder what's going on in my head. 15.04.2026 Nice day. Energy moderate. I think my stomach issue is a little better. Ate rather little, but wholly nutritional - pork, beef, fried potato. I rarely have fried potato these days. I ate about twelve hours ago. Couple coffees, couple snacks, some writing - feels good. Some reading - after writing, it's weird like that today. Workout Warmup - rather long and thorough, wall pushups, floor planks, overhead stretches, pulling on the rubber with the back of my knee, leg extensions with no weight. Overhead press 20 for 20 40 for 10 50 - 60 74 for 4 83 - 3 sets of 4 - feels good. I had different ideas about what I was gonna do today. I thought and wondered if I could pres...

 13.04.2026 Writing. I have received some very flattering critiques and that made me feel a little nervous, like I didn't realize I was walking a tightrope. I liked it better when I made many people rage and few understood. Maybe not. Also mental energy is somewhat moderate since yesterday. Not low, but not at the max. Read some more Strossen's Super Squats, pondered, then read some more Huckleberry Finn. Then I wrote, listened to music. Research topics to look into: https://www.gowriensw.com.au/thought-leadership/vygotsky-theory https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/inner-speech/ Dorrit Cohn - Transparent Minds (1978) - psychonarration, quoted monologue, narrated monologue Mikhail Bakhtin - voice and social speech, formation of consciousness in socialization *** Warmup - might have taken just a little too long, wall pushups, floor planks and pushups. Workout Bench press 20 - 40 - 70 - 90 - 100 - 110 - 120 Today it's just singles, but it's DOUBLES of singles, i.e. two q...

 11.04.2026 Nice day. Slept really well, been eating well, although digestion is a little weird. Had the sweetest dreams, strange but insanely sweet, nostalgic, precious. Can't really elaborate! Well, there was that dream - I think I was in a location that vaguely looked like some place in Morrowind and I begged the girl from "Say It Isn't So" movie not to marry whoever she was gonna marry (just like in the movie!) and she did. Then there was some more adventure-esque stuff as I tried to figure out a rifle that had three charging handles. I've been having stomach issues. I suspect that I might have been eating too much of that citrulline malate. I had to decide to postpone my DL session to tomorrow. More energy, or so I'd hope! Perhaps it's a good thing cause I was planning to have a light one and now I think I'm gonna have a heavy one. 12.04.2026 Man, yesterday was a real wack day. I felt pretty sick. Today - I couldn't help but wake up early, ate...

 09.04.2026 Nice day, lovely day. Slept very well, if not too much. Nutrition above average. Went a little insane when I opened up a bag of Lavazza coffee and there was robusta in there. It says "arabica" on the label but there was robusta inside. Shame on them! Ended up ordering Jardin pink label - it got delivered pretty fast! Brain going hard, high RPM. Wrote! I wrote! It was a long break. Conceptualizing training episodes - it WILL be solid, it will make sense, it will have HIGH verisimilitude - because it will be less disjointed. And all the important things that really happened - they will be there too. Workout Warmup - somewhat long, but a good amount Overhead press 20 - 40 - 50 - 60 70 for 6 80 for 6 90 for 6 lovely, like a weight I'd use to pump my muscle! 100 for 6 about the same - very short break after 90 😁 100 for 6 - made it wayyy too strict, also cramped my right oblique - I love how easy it feels 😀 103 for 6 nice. No belt, good stability, easy movement -...

 07.04.2026 A morning workout - they're becoming less and less rare! Conceptualizing the training parts in Marco. Old version sure will be fun to reread and compare later, in the future. Workout Warmup - wall pushups, pushups planks Bench press Today it's sets of 4. 20 - 40 - 70 - 90 100 for 4 110 for 4 120 for 4 130 for 4 140 for 4 was wondering here if I should slow it down and maybe do more sets with this weight 150 for 4 nice 160 for 4 heavy but lowkey inspiring cause it moved well 170 for 2 - not bad 😆 but I did drop it. I felt really close on the third rep but I didn't make it through the sticking point. THEN I pressed the next weight, right away, like the last time - 160 for 2 - sort of to make up and make it a set of 4 😁 It's an interesting method, you know. Work up, then work down, splitting the sets as you drop the weight. 150 for 2 - nice, it's lovely how easy it gets on the way down And from here I pretty much did it all as one long set of doubles with...

 05.04.2026 Lovely day. Ate decently well, slept nicely. I raged hard yesterday - over writing forums. Head's been hurting a little, thanks to that citrulline malate, but not getting knocked out. Wrote! Feeling really good. Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 10 120 - 160 for 5 203 - a messy set, but I did a few nice OHG reps and about the same amount of partial OHG reps as I struggled to find that elusive grip position 233 for 5 - hard, also lowering the bar kinda smoothly cause it's late, but you should never do that really. I was considering what to do. Take a pause, let my leg recover better? 253 - 3 sets of 1 - feels good, nothing's getting triggered 😀 273 - 3 sets of 1 - same, nice 😀 283 for 1 - nice, not too heavy at all 😀 It moved pretty smooth, although I was a little worried about my tissues, a little superstitious in general. Hallelujah for this excellent workout today! Thank God, Truly and Forever, my Lord Jesus Christ! 😀 OHP - 20 for 20 Dumbbell press Each rep was a ...

 02.04.2026 Amazing day. Nutrition moderate but good, sleep nice. Got that protein and citrulline malate, as well as tea and coffee. But they cancelled the knee sleeves! I suspect they've grown lazy. Before they'd've rescheduled it and delivered it. Or maybe I have a bad "customer rating" and that driver ratted on me for being mean to him (by holding my mouth shut) while I did not say a single thing about him nor have I even rated the delivery. I just did nothing! Now I suspect. Workout - super light one today Rubber lat pulls - light Squat-pullups, rings (aka "floor supported pullups") 3 sets of 20 and curling my forearms at the top Some curls with 2 kg dbs, telling myself I have a workout tomorrow Thigh squeezer - 2 sets of 50 reps This exercise is not just for thighs but can be used for FEET and CALVES too, all lower leg, as rehab for ankle rolling! That's what I'm doing for my old injury, some increased activity to maybe help my recent injury...

31.03.2026 OHP 20 for 20 somewhat randomly Rubber lat pulls 2 sets of 30 super light Pullup-squats with rings (a.k.a "floor supported pullups") - although today I definitely used my legs rather little, on the account of my stiff and swollen right knee 3 sets of 20 On the third set I tried stretching and relaxing so much I could sit on the floor; that increased the time under tension quite significantly so around ten reps I had to go and try to start helping my lats with my legs after all. Otherwise it's a perfect light lat & arm exercise for any kind of rest day.  01.04.2026 You know what I'm realizing? When you're starting a story you kinda wanna drop the pretentious vocabulary and purpleness, you wanna be clear and set a good stage. Way too many people wanna splash you with glitter in the first few paragraphs. I definitely have that habit too, and I noticed recently while critiquing someone how the writer's "intended tone" relaxes by the end of...