My training log and thoughts

 30.05.2026 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnC5e7vn4WU Here's an interesting idea in that video. An idea that's been obvious to me but never really focused on - when you're lifting too hard and your technique consistently breaks you're learning a wrong motor pattern - the weaker, broken one! - and you grow weaker just because your nerves aren't learning to push. That's a reason to really reign in your horses - let them gallop on open road, go slow over the rocks. Something to think about for a while. *** I really need to buy a mouthguard. Why? Obvious reasons. Occasionally clenching my teeth wrong during lifting. I might have done some yesterday. Need to go visit a dentist. And could also go ahead and have my deviated septum fixed - that'd take a week off training. Stuff to do! Glad my foot is doing better though, that makes me very happy 😀 I'm now able to stand on it rather well, basically as good as left! Well, almost. Pain has been reduced too. I en...

 28.05.2026 Idea from 27th: try doing low bar Squat for a shoulder/elbow stretch. I've had this idea for a while and I hope I won't forget about it. 29.05.2026 Really nice day so far. Yesterday was a little tumultuous, but it ended up as a short day in the end. It was a rest day. I made some insane slop for a meal. My little brother has been cutting the fat off the meat and it was lying there in the fridge, so I went ahead and reduced it all into friable fat, then I randomly fried tiny pork cubes in it - it, I admit, is one of the worst ways to cook pork. Then I took the spaghetti I made and I mixed them with some spice and Korean funchoza mix and then I dropped some flour into them and fried them in the pork fat. That turned out quite appetizing - fried spaghetti. Of course, you do get rather sick of it - after a relatively large portion, BECAUSE it's pork fat, ANIMAL fat - not plant fat. Plant fat would have made you way sicker. I felt rather sleepy last night and I wishe...

 27.05.2026 I actually feel better today than I have in a while. Yesterday was a mess, yes, it was a miscalculation. But I feel good now. I've been eating well, even past my appetite a little bit. I've slept a lot; the quality of my sleep wasn't the highest but it was at least okay. I was a little nervous, a little tender for no reason but I am not right now. It usually happens under certain physical conditions, it's tied into my training. So, I ate well, and now I'm having a fake arabica 35/426 - rather thick, strong taste,  but I didn't brew it for too long. I'm optimistic about finishing chapter 7 and the first storyarc as a whole. And I'm optimistic about my Bench press today. I'm gonna do something I haven't done before. *** When I think of posting stuff on rdr I always start to write a "presentation essay" in my mind. I always pad it, manage expectations. Like, when you get promised a canoe down the river but instead you're le...

 26.05.2026 Nice day. Ended up falling asleep rather soon after last night's DL, slept for four hours, woke up physically nervous, overstimulated by every tiniest sound. Managed to calm down after a while, especially after remembering that interesting quote I got presented with on https://dailyverses.net/random-bible-verse ... Let me find it on my phone... "For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death." 2 Corinthians 7:10 I had an appliance malfunctioning and I kept wondering to myself whether or not I should worry or do something given that I know that it tends to fix itself... and I DID do something, as in take out the more important produce and put it in the other fridge. Then I remembered this verse above and calmed down. Thank God! So, it's super late, as it tends to be. I was kinda hoping I switched to daytime with that early wakeup but no - I ended up getting knocked out later. I think my CNS ...

 25.05.2026 I woke up rather late yesterday with the intention of doing DLs - thankfully, I decided against it (after some struggle). No, my metabolism was just not ready to go forth with it the right way. The deadlift is today. The plan is 4 sets of 6 with 248 - almost a medium-heavy weight / intensity. I woke a little earlier than usual, not much sleep, the heat's getting to me. Also the bed's been particularly uncomfortable for a couple weeks now - it seems I forgot I can flip the mattress, which is funny. Yesterday night I managed to write something nice, yes I did - I'm happy about that. I got two or three scenes left to finish ch7rw4 and the first "story arc" of Michigander Marco. This book has transformed significantly - from brainless quirky fun to nostalgia to wannabe political spy-action-thriller to deeply psychological, interpersonal mess and now into a theological, mythical adventure - with a nice amount of semi-autobiographical stuff. That sounds like...

 23.05.2026 Nice day. Feeling borderline sick. Slept all day, appetite moderate. The weather isn't really nice to me lol. I think I might do a daytime flip. Today is tomorrow, I just woke up way too early. I wanna do Bench press. It gives me internal rotation. How to help this issue? I have a few ideas - do a lot of good L-flys (not flies) before, and I mean good ones, with a fixed elbow on your shoulder level; standing ones are not really using the rotators. You won't need a lot of weight. Then, do some basic stretching afterwards - the lean-forward stretch, just some bar unracks. I had it in January, but it was extremely traumatic. Maybe not extremely, but it was very painful and I can't help but think my body re-over-compensated and now I have a log for an arm. I am so stiff, it's driving me insane. But I shan't let it. I wonder if narrow grip bench could be useful to avoid turning into a tin man, in my case. You have to have a right exercise selection, not just ...

 22.05.2026 Note to self: consider trying dips. Chinese weightlifters do them, and old time Olympic weightlifters used them too. Why not? Maybe it'll work the things I'm lacking. Same about lats - pullups, rows, wide grip. They do them too. Why? Probably for a reason. This is the video that made me think about it https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bS-9iq-o9-s Also, I should not be concerned with wrists on PP being "severely" bent back - that's normal. *** Evening time. Managing to write, not liking weather much - too hot in my room! Had one instant coffee, one nice conventional arabica 35/420, and another instant cup as I read "The Big Sleep". It's not really cop propaganda, is it? But it sure is a load of power and luxury fantasies, I tell you, heh heh. Me, I've been thinking really hard. You have to WORK OUT a LOT in order to have a GOOD session. You can manage your recovery, be satisfied with everything, especially when you get your nutrition and...

 20.05.2026 Today should be a nicer day! Yesterday wasn't bad, of course, but peculiar - I feel better recovered today, CNS primed. That's the power of taking a shower 😂 It'd be lovely if I didn't feel like a wreck tomorrow. What could I do to sidestep it? Well, not having too much fun today would be the start, yes. I got Bench press today. AND I'll work up to a moderate weight for a single in my Squat. That's the plan! Also writing, I don't have anything stopping me and I have a good enough amount of time. I am so many things in one. Layer upon layer, but also not really a layer, more like a thing becoming a completely different thing. What gives? That's how I feel, heh heh. Is it possible my body knows I'm not planning to violate it and stress it out with DL and that's why it's happy? 😁 It doesn't need to worry, I'm trying to care about it, especially my hip and my foot! So, I'm vibing, actually having caffeine for the first t...

 19.05.2026 Almost six years of this new lifestyle now. I remember that day well, May 20th 2020. Before yesterday was a pretty fatiguing day, exhausting - I was adjusting my overall metabolism, my overall energy reserves. Yesterday was a nice day; some elements of it were peculiarly pure, best I can put it. I woke up, had a rather tiny meal then decided it was time to finally take a walk and return the cheap player and headphones I bought, so I did. It was an experience, a quiet one but the one that was rather vivid - because I focused mentally on recording everything. It was hot, but I put on my blue polyester sweatsuit, figuring it should be good; it was almost good - if it was just a tiny bit more chill I would not have sweated so much. I put on the trekking boots - they were okay. My foot was *better* - barely noticeable, but better, especially by the end. The usual crossing of the railroad ensued; I wondered if someone dug a little channel for the poisoned water to escape from...

 17.05.2026 Yesterday was a nice day. I read, wrote, enjoyed myself, did some minimal rehab. The leg feels somewhat tender today. Look peculiarly big in the mirror, pecs very big somehow. The weather is hot and humid. I don't want to miss early Summer, I want to take it in to understand my book better. Not much to tell. Been eating slightly above average, slept very well although again a bit of a nighttimer. Made coffee, the suspected Lavazza robusta. I made it something like 35/450 (thin) AND I poured it all out into a cup after I brewed it - poured over cool water with hot, then let it rise. I basically didn't let it "steep" and it tasted close to good! Added 2.5 teaspoons of sugar. Sugar does drastically change how the drink FEELS to your body. I wanna write tonight too, but it's not as much of a priority as if it was yesterday, but also, there's an easier part to write. No, I need my OHP, PP and my Squat tonight and, as usual, it's already 10 PM lol. I...

 15.05.2026 I really blasted my ass with the one-legged deadlifts yesterday lol. A very unusual load, just one muscle head sore! Lats and shoulders sore too for some reason. Re-watched Fargo last night, as I was doing my kneeling stretches. It's a pretty short movie. Nowadays I can't help but think there's some deeper propaganda within it. Not exactly sure what kind, how political. I'm just saying I'm distrustful of anyone these days. Didn't manage to sleep on my bed backwards this time - my throat was closing up. Had to go back to normal. Changed my sheets, now I'm washing them. I wanna do some Bench today. I feel rather fresh. I have strange ideas I'd like to try out, such as doing multiple warmup sets with the same small weight without making jumps before making a slightly-bigger-than-average jump. I think I'm supposed to do sets of five? That's reasonable. Do you remember how I was recently doing "compound sets of 10" (i.e. 5 + 5 wi...

 13.05.2026 Yesterday was a fun day, writing-wise. Have I mentioned I've been sleeping in the other direction on the bed, and that has deepened my sleep immensely ? It's kinda crazy. Although it does feel pretty uneven. I had a lot of fun writing yesterday. I wrote close to three thousand words and realized that this former chapter 5 needs to be broken up again! How crazy. 14.05.2026 " You guys wanna share interesting anecdotes about your WIP and your method? I've been wanting to talk about some things for a long time but something's been holding me back. You know how if you freeze a smooth jar of water below 0 degrees celcius it stays liquid, but if you shake it, or if there's a tiny dent in the surface then it freezes immediately? That's I imagine every time I'm mid-process and I start to lag and get confused. I have a bunch of little ideas of how I deal with this. Just whip myself to pick up the pace back to normal. I use a wordweb app and press a ...

 12.05.2025 I've been sleeping in the other direction. It's really awkward cause the bed is somehow even more uneven on the other end, even though it got way less use. But man, the depth of my sleep, the dreams I have - really, really intense. I slept in the morning and had a lot of violent, unpleasant dreams. I woke up and had some food and then I feel asleep again and had really nice dreams! Ended up sleeping for too long. I'm in my typical state of "struggling to start". I had one pot of disgusting coffee, poured out one cup, then another small pot of normal arabica - much better. Brain's finally buzzing and it's kinda pretty late, that's how it happens. Writing this helps. Just warming up my brain-finger connection. I've already started my general overhead warmup. I thought earlier today about what I want to do. I just want to do OHP, PP and Squat. I considered if doing them all light would be enough - and I felt that it wouldn't. my heart ...

 10.05.2026 Man, I got quite a story to tell. Might be long! So, I had a nice day on the 6th. Had a light workout, had great bliss after I wrote, had about three instant coffees, and I had a cup of citrulline malate before I started my light workout. The "after-day" lasted too long and I lost my grace and I got 'distracted' in kind of a big way, like a 180 degree turn away from what I believe lowkey, and before going to bed I realized I'm hungry so I went downstairs and looked at some of that discount meat mother bought - cause it's expired, see; some chicken meat wrapped around a walnut filling, so I fried it up a little and then put it in the over and took it out and ate and concluded it was partly raw but still I took another bite and then I put it back into the over on max heat, and after a while the whole house filled up with nasty smoke and I took them out and tried to air the house out but the smoke went right into my room via draft like it usually does...