My training log and thoughts

 27.06.2025 Such a messy day. Nice workout though Overhead press Warmup 20 - 60 80 for 12 85 - 2 sets of 12 88 for 12 29.06.2025 Nice day. Brain not feeling great. Energy low. Appetite and sleep low. But not feeling too bad, feeling moderate. Workout Warmup - little Bench press 20 - 40 70 120 for 10 130 - 2 sets of 10 a little messy, stiff tissues - but no cramps or pain. Technique really mediocre 130 for 10 better technique and speed, close to failure though Squat Some hip and squat stretches 70 - 2 sets of 5 120 - 3 sets of 5 - feeling much better. Washed my face, gonna snack on some creatine now. When you don't get creatine your tissues get tight. Not completely sure about tomorrow. I had an idea about postponing tomorrow's DL to Tuesday. That'd be too much, probably. Not sure... Tomorrow I'm supposed to do 252-257 for 6 sets of 4. That's sort of easier than my previous session... Which is actually the point, isn't it?

 25.06.2025 Nice day. Woke up really early. Slept a lot yesterday. Long day today. Thank you for your prayers - there seems to be progress about the clerical stuff. Keep praying, please! It's not over. Ate moderate, but then I ate more. Almost ten hours ago though. Heh. I forget. Had two coffees. Bought a new bag - it's pretty nice. Can't really rate/review it yet, but I like it more than the previous. Arabica, light roast, comme il faut. "Poetti Legenda Ruby". Had two 31-32 over roughly 400 grams. Second one, I double ground it. It was nice. Really enjoying music and writing today. Feeling assured about my abilities. It's early, it just turned 6 PM! And I'm already done with warmup! Workout Deadlift 20 - 70 - 120 160 for 3 200 for 3 - pretty easy overhand reps, all three! Not a very long rest between reps. 230 for 3 strictly straps 250 for 5 not bad, not perfect pacing and movement, but decent 250 for 5 - much better, no breaks between reps; high belt loo...

 23.06.2025 Nice day. Slept okay, too deep for my liking. Dreams a little strange. Ate well, very well. Arms - biceps and forearms - strangely aching for loading, like they used to when I was much younger. Feels like nerve endings are growing. Some coffee, some reading and listening to music - no writing so far today, I have to admit, possibly on behalf of my "distractions". Workout Warmup - a lot of back warmup, some seal pushups - seal pushups are a pretty great movement for bench, emulates it closely. Very little discomfort today, and basically no pain, pec or shoulder! Bench 20 - 2 sets 70 for 10 120 for 5 130 - 3 sets of 5 - nice and easy-medium 140 for 2 sets of 5 - nice, some shoulder tweaking. RPE around 70 brambletitties out of a 100. Squat Some hip and squat stretches first. Thinking about how full squat is a little counterproductive for anything except for highly technical newschool Olympic weightlifting. And I have been doing only very deep squat for a while. I ju...

 19.06.2025 Nice day. Weird. Slept strange. CNS going up and down. Really shaky. Otherwise great, feeling good. Workout Been writing, stumbling over words but still ended up kinda good - the book I'm reading for inspiration very directly influences what I write. I need to find that one Mario Puzo book... But it's been slowing me down today. Warmup - some, shoulder a bit better especially after some time. All sorts of flys and dancing moves. Overhead press 20 - 50 70 for 10 very easy 80 - 90 - 100 for 5 easy 110 for 5 - pretty bad, technique inconsistent but I'm glad I did it. I made sure to go on ahead and spend a few seconds really grinding out the lockout on the 5th rep. Squat 110 - 5 sets of 5 - keeping up the energy. First I did 3 sets with very short break, then a longer break and two more sets. It wasn't perfectly smooth, warmup wasn't very long - otherwise it's all pretty nice, the 5set set was near perfect feelings-wise. 20.06.2025 A lot of crazy writing...

 16.06.2025 Nice day. Ate very well, slept mediocre. Irritated throat/nasal cavity and frontal lobe - been smelling darn pain quite involuntarily. I told this story before, but I once worked out in a freshly painted gym and that made me sick to no end. Similar sensation now. Lighter, thankfully. Workout Deadlift 20 - 70 - 120 - 160 200 for 1 good overhand rep, one failed; three mixed grip ones 230 for 3 263 for 3 kinda hard - distracted a little, writing upstairs, feeling not warmed up 263 for 3 better - pace not perfect, took a pause before third rep but it was a really good and smooth third rep. Summon EFFORT - you have it all! 268 for 3 - not bad, two good reps with mixed grip, one fail - too much technique twiddling, gathered myself and did the third rep - hard but smooth. 270,5 for 3 - eh, not bad I guess - one good mixed grip, short pause - skin is strangely slick, chalk clumping up - possibly due to high humidity - one hard rep mixed - another break - put belt up high, strap...

 15.06.2025 It's been a bit of a mess yesterday; didn't work out. Bought a lot of meat, ate quite well. Slept okay as well. Been giving lessons, enjoying. Writing too! Finally breaking into the parts that require - and are already receiving - some very serious rewriting! Workout Warmup - some, shoulder still hurting; L-flies make it worse! I need to reduce my left elbow flaring. Bench 20 - 50 - 100 not too painful 130 for 10 not bad, although range pretty short on most reps. Pain low. 130 for 16 - not bad, rep PR 😁 Technique, well, it's far from perfect admittedly 😁 Almost a 10 kg PR compared to my Monday's 120 for 17! I definitely did not lock out my elbows fully on the last rep. Pain not noticeable! 130 - lockouts for 10 reps, focusing on that full extension. Pretty hard! Flys no weight - 1 set Rear delt pulls with a spring expander - 2 sets, 1 with one arm 3 springs and second set with 5 springs both hands a-la facepulls but lower Wall pushups - 1 sets of 20 - gott...

 12.06.2025 Okay, gotta do something. Nutrition okay, sleep close to okay. Angry, a little irritated, otherwise content, happy even - without going too much into details. God Bless. Shoulder, left shoulder still not perfect; it's got some vulnerable hypermobility - but I can press without any strain if I focus my shoulders forward. I think I will do some cleans after all but then I'll just stick to moderate weight and volume off the rack. Workout Warmup - some, varied Overhead press and clean 20 - 50 70 for 3 90 - 3 presses, 3 cleans 90 - 4 presses, 3 cleans Well, it's interesting - now all my OHP is matched with cleans. Admittedly, it's a tiny weight and micro volume, but still. My cleans got better as they went, press was very easy too. Push press 90 - 2 sets of 3 - from rack. Glad I can do something athletic! It's all feeling fresh. I'm expecting good results when I switch back to overhead focus after bench. Squat Warmup - some more hip/squat stretches; caugh...

 11.06.2025 More or less nice day. Was a little anxious before I went to bed. Going back to struggle with that clerical error. I think I might end up taking a more direct approach in the end. If I can't find anything out. I have a few different things to try before I go there. Today I have 260 for 4 sets of 4 planned. This feels easy. Ate semi-decent. But it was hard to fall asleep, as I said. I enjoyed writing and having fun yesterday. I've been playing New Vegas and FO76, intermingling them together. Weird feeling! But you can tell it's naturally the same game, more or less. FO76 has so many nice little ease-of-access features. If only new the Fallout games were more gun-nutty like New Vegas was. I wanna play Tarkov to find out more about it, but honestly I'd rather just go there personally 😁 Too tired of it all, too boring. Writing and working out are the only things that are fun. Gaming, in turn, is a part of creative process, same as reading. I'm very angry. A...

 09.06.2025 Mildly strange day. Woke up yesterday at 11 PM, some intermittent sleep throughout the day. Nutrition slightly above ok. Mood fluctuating. Enjoying some writing. Workout Warmup - unnecessarily long with a lot of weird rubber moves for shoulders Bench 20 for many 50 - 70 - 100 for 10 120 for 15 pretty ugly, left shoulder not perfect, pecs tense - but it was easy. Still not warmed up here 120 for 17 much nicer - better technique, more confident, no problem with shoulder, pecs aren't squeaky - might be just the warmup OR the fact that I turned my elbows lower just a teeny tine smidgen... SOMETHING TO CONSIDER. This is not full on "elbows down" cue - just a tiny little turn, exactly like on OHP when I use my rotator cuffs... VERY interesting. But I'm not going to do much more heavy-ish stuff today. 100 for 30 - nice, possibly a lifetime PR +2 reps 😁 Speaking of - 120 for 17 definitely was a PR too 😂 I wanna heal my shoulder tweak. What do I avoid? What cause...

 05.06.2025 I'd do bench today - I'm a little concerned with my shoulder; I think it needs rest. However, it needs active rest. Hmm. I already planned to lighten the load moderately - we'll see. Workout Warmup - some Bench 20 - 50 - 70 - 90 - 100 for 10 100 - 2 sets of 15 - not too bad. Pecs okay, shoulder close to okay. Squat 50 for 15 70 - 3 sets of 12 - nice, short break, just feeling. 07.06.2025 Nice day. Some neck pain. I don't know where it's coming from. Deeply confused, somewhat distracted. Not too distracted right now, but in general. Hard to explain. Ate okay but not great. Same with sleep. Nerves a little tense. Hope to deal with my stupid BS. So lazy, dumb, not helping myself. Enjoying life otherwise. Staying chill. It's DL day. 4 sets of 5 with 255. Doable? Definitely. Deadlift 20 - 70 - 120 - 160 200 for one okay overhand lift, two mixed 230 for 3 mixed grip 255,5 for 5 - not bad for the first working set, smooth, RPE moderate. No issues with the i...

 04.06.2025 Lovely day. Didn't sleep much, ate moderate, feeling overall good and great, fanciful. Jazzy. A little cold. It's late - but not too late! Workout Warmup - L-flys, stick moves, squat and hip stretches. Left shoulder is a little, well, screwed, almost literally it feels like - some and reduced mobility. Because I have not been pressing enough! That much is obvious. Perhaps we can reduce the fancy moves I have in my head and focus on just pressing - at least at first. Stay stiff and springy. (😁) I speculate my left shoulder issues might be related to high pull as well as bench impingement. Overhead press 20 for 20 40 for 20 60 for 10 60 for 3 sets of 15 - nice pump, all over, short breaks since this is more BB style tiny bit of a workout. Flys - full range 2+2 kg dbs - 2 sets of 20 - on the eccentric phase I added a short pause when arms are horizontal. More L-flys - a couple vigorous sets with 2 kg dbs Squat and ham/hip stretches - you know, you can train your quads...

 02.06.2025 Nice day so far. I've been really reflecting on my constant fleshful confusion; I do not wish for anyone to experience that. It is undescribable and makes me feel completely out of control. I wrestle it back, with effort and prayer - not easy. Thankfully, there's nothing too dangerous my flesh is being compelled to do; this confusion is multilayered - not only do I not understand why, I do not understand what. Flesh speaks not in letters this time; a disconnection, translator fired, unwilling to interpret. A unique experience; few people corner themselves the same way I do, I believe. Freedom is what people want, not facing the animal while animal drags them; they simply peer at the sky. Today we're doing sets of 6 from 235 to 245. Should be easy? Good. *** Been doing quite some writing... Over 2000 words, a "double" episode if you will. Rewriting some old rewritten stuff... *** It's pretty late now. Did I mention I've been awake for a while? I...