August 5-6, Fri-Sat: Pushpress, persevering, not forgetting

 05.08.2022

Feeling mixed. Dreadful sleep, as if intentionally disturbed by calls, messagess and forgotten alarms. Also tense. You know when you know you have only a little bit of time left to sleep and you can't relax because of that? How funny. Weather is a promille less awful than yesterday.

Do some conventional acts of work or something along the lines of. No breakfast. Impulsive sleepless yearnings. Overall though, it's gotten way better. I'm sleepy. When you're sleepy but you can't sleep it's pretty dangerous. Alsmost as bad as being drunk. Close to it. As if I had a teaspoon of alcohol, which is a large amount of an non-habitual brain. Can't believe I used to take "adaptogens". There are strange wishes. They're strange. They look like they can be bad, but realistically they aren't, on their own. All of this is nonsense, isn't it? Maybe you can relate if you have similar brain chemistry. I often wonder if I'm autistic, but the casual tests show that I'm not. I'm just slightly angrier, more impulsive and more passionate than an average person. I'd like to imagine that's what it is. Force of nature, or something of the sorts. I used to be so much more. Freed. Trying, doing, acting. Then locked up again, burdened, heavy, pained, crippled. Less so since 2020, when I numerically climbed out of the hole that I've been in for almost five years. HAppy healthy people. I don't envy them, for i've been one of them, and the higher you are - the longer the fall. How hard you crash doesn't matter too much. Falling down and trying to crawl out of the hole takes quite some time. And I'm to climb high, since I'm at the base of a certain "height", if you will. Mountain, perhaps.

Good thing about the mooka pot is that it makes the Robusta coffee taste good! How weird! It's quite a moneysaver that way, he he. In fact, it might taste better.

Let's talk about "distractions". I think it's been over a week since I've been quite seriously "distracted". I've had this very random new "distraction" that was arguably significantly less harmful, even socially acceptable. But somehow, I just forgot about my most severe "distraction". Thank God for that!

Rerecorded some parts in the song. I had to get it moving, I guess? If only I did absolutely anything at least daily any large single project would be dealt with in less than a month. Single project - ita est not an album, he he. I think I'll release this one as a single with an extra song. So, a double. Hmm.

06.08.2022

Nice day. Weather is worse than ever (this summer). Slept less good than I wish, but then it was okay. It's 19:29, and it's still not chill. Having a second moka with robusta.

One hour later. The weather is still hot. I'm gonna start my workout soon.

Workout

Pushpress

Short warmup

50 for 6

70 for 6

100 for 6

105 for 6 - I feel so shit I wanna stop it. I should probably not have worked out on wed and thurs, that could have been simply good for me. My CNS, nutrition and sleep have been just shite. Okay. Well, you know what they say - the warmup isn't what you think it is. Let's keep going.

110 for 6 - so much better. I admit, I succumbed to my morbid curiousity on the previous set and "experimented" once again, by widening my grip and turning the bar "horns up". Man, I wish I had a straight bar that would not bend. Technically afforable. But I've been buying too many. First in 2014, then 2019, and the third one now? I think not, not yet. My first bar was twisted in a spiral, he he. It was ridiculous.

112 for 6 - nice set, although weird, cause I put the weight on my toes, which might have shifted everything to the front too much. It looked like one of those musclebound PPs.
I think I should consider pushing the weight from the middle of my foot. Imagine working out for twelve years and not having any consistent technique xD JK it's just my lack of RAM, I guess. You know what they say about "cues". You can't rely on your memory, is what I'm saying. You need to be more disciplined.

117 for 6 - super nice. Listened to "Sign of the Hammer". Awesome. The set might have been a little wonky. I did not manage to do the 4th rep with a lockout! So I had to fix and push harder. I did 6 full reps and one without lockout. That's almost 7, and 7 is almost 10, which is a double digit number xDDD
It's a "flawed logic" joke, just so we're clear. In real life when I'd make jokes like that in front of people some of them managed to begin thinking that I *am* that simple-minded. Well, i'm not, but i am humorous, and I simply enjoy ehxibiting human nature with jokes such as that one.

Squat

50 for 10 high bar, put it on my hair so it doesn't get wet 😁 Experimented with my head position. Looking down (not vertically down) somehow just feels more natural. I'm pretty sure it shortens the lever that is my torso, makiung the lift easier and thus more efficient, and also less likely to cramp my muscles.

70 for 10 nice, but starting to feel tired

Loaded 100, then decided to load 145

145 for 10 - nice. Easy to lift, but hard to brace. I could really feel my abs! Feels great.

I think I've been forgetting about DL. Some time next week I shall have an accumulation session, doing 140-150 (around 50% of max) for a few sets of 5. Should be nice. It's great for "getting in shape" for specific exercises.

Left the bar loaded for a while. Gotta go and unload it, although it's late.

Unloaded it. Learn to feel good at any time of the day. Hard skill to acquire, but worth it.

Random pic of the day