October 3rd and 4th - Light workout, Deadlift sets of 2 up to 280

 03.10.2025

Some real thorough warmup, some nice writing. Had too much coffee.

Overhead press

70 - 2 sets of 10

Dumbbells 26,5 and 25,5 - 3 sets of 10

Squats

10

16 kg goblet squat for 10

32 kg goblet squat for 10

48 kg front squat with kettlebells for 3 sets of 10

04.10.2025

I've been buying clothing. Bought some real nice tactical pants, size 60 Russian. They're too damn tight. I'm bigger than I've ever been. These pants' crotch is going it tear, I just know it. They have really small belt loops too, I couldn't shove either one of my field belts inside so I took one of my dad's old dress belts and wore it that way. And I bought leather suspenders, so I needed a belt in there. They're a little awkward. They un-loop way too easily compared to my old stretchy ones. But then again, if I'm gonna leave I'll likely lose weight. But my legs lose little weight. My upper body might, but not my legs. I struggled to order a return, but I'm thinking I might not return them. I ordered another suit, fleece crotch and vest but camo rest. Could be good for semi-chill weather. My old big pants are nice and warm though. Not super warm, I guess, but should be tolerable. I don't wanna think nothing. You gotta surprise yourself, you know?

Feeling way too strong and energetic today. But I just started having my first coffee and I feel a little sluggish, it's not settling as easy as I wish it did. My belly's full of spaghetti I made earlier. I tried to measure my weight and it's at least 113 before the scales started dying. There's a battery somewhere downstairs, I should check. Analog scales are better.

I wish I haven't done anything yesterday. I should have preserved my energy better. Nevermind, however. I got stuff I wanna do.

Been reading books, a lot of different ones beside Suttree. Just charging up my brain, not really committing.

Deadlift

20 for 20

70 for 5

120 for 5

160 for 5 - feeling real lazy but it's slowly going away.

200 for 5 - one ohg finger-tipping. I can't do OHG with my calluses (i.e. deep grip) anymore! But I used to be able to. May consider dedicating some attention to it eventually.

230 for 3 mixed grip, two reps reverse mixed grip - I feel very strong but not warmed up yet. Also I guess today's one of those days when I feel like I don't need straps! God bless.

250 for 2 nice, not feeling warmed up yet though. Second rep reverse mixed grip

270 for 2 ok

272,5 for 2 - one mixed, one straps. Belt pretty loose, midsection. Feels decent. Upstairs I'm falling asleep though. Getting used to my previous new pants, the fleece ones, same as the blue ones but thicker and with knee patches. They're pretty good! Way too hot though.

275,5 for 2 nice, easy, straps and high belt

278 for 2 nice, easy

280,5 for 2 nice, pretty easy

Stiff legged deadlift, paused, small deficit, no belt cause I realised I don't really need it

200 for 10 - had to take breaks, done as 2+4+4, but they were small breaks, the end of the song. Every second rep from the floor, but all reps have a pause above the floor. It's fun. But also, I believe, this allows me to train what I need, not just a muscle exercise (even though I also need a "just muscle" exercise - for better toned hams!)

160 for 10 same, slightly wider grip, no breaks - feels good. Finally "grooving" deep. Hm.