Monday 25th

 25.10.2021

Nice day. Woke up early enough. Had nice enough breakfast - nutrition is at 7/10 I'd say. Sleep 8/10. Overall recovery - roughly 7/10 as well. CNS feels great, 8/10. Did some repeatable quests.

Had three posrtions of coffee - arabica. Over a long period of time. Felt kinda lazy, but then I got into it.

Deadlift

Warmup

150*4 overhand

190*4 - first one was a poor overhand (didn't lockout well), the rest - hook grip

220*4 hook grip

225*4 same, toke a callus off my left pinky. Didn't bleed, so that's okay.

225 - 2 sets of 4 - straps

Nice. Nice, sufficiently volumatic deadlift. Everything moved quickly and easily. Powerful velocity. That's why I oughta pump up my supposed max. Today was 80% for 4 of 4. 225 is easy. I should try 290 as my max then.

Bent over rows - 50 - 70 - 100 overhand, narrow grip, short range, nice pump
Those three sets were supersetted with

Bench press

50 and 70 for 10

100 for 20 - sufficiently easy. Wrist hurted a lot, so I put wrist supports on 100. Not sure what to do with my wrist.

Taught my brother how to do metronome warmup rudiment - going from 8 right and 8 left to 1 and back. Just tuning yourself to the metronome.

Quite some time later. Played electric guitar a little bit, wanted to mash up some kind of jam but I wan't really grooving. Ended up just practicing some speed picking (in minor) and pentatonic scales. I should play electric more.

Floor supported ring pullups

20 - more legs (i.e. easier)

20 harder - legs relaxed

10 with legs raised - harder than normal pullups, but you can create some heave from the bottom. BUT you can't heave in the middle.

Kinda wanna do curls. It's late, but I guess I must do it - cause I'm lacking some energy. Just have to do it right.

Curls - 6 kg dumbbells for 30

One arm curl, 12 kg dumbbell - 20 reps

One arm curl, 27 kg ez bar - 10 right, 10 left. Done with pauses on the bed (I was curling from the bed, so there was some slight momentum at the start). I oughta do some really heavy cheat curls if I want the biceps I once had. I had really noticeable biceps in 2017, a few months after I stopped drinking for the first time. I don't remember when that was exactly. I think that actually happened in november or december 2016. And then I specialized on my arms - sort of. Good ol' memories.

I oughta devote a day to train my smaller muscles. And I probably don't need to obsess over pump. The fact that I don't get pumped means I got good endurance, or bloodflow, or some silly stuff like that. Not a scientist, don't care about pretending to be one, but I'd still love to make up some kind of rational explanation. I actually have no idea what pumping entails. I mean, the blood is always there, ain't it? And when you're pumped you sort of become weaker. So... the point I just made still stands.

27 kg ez bar curl - 2 hands, 30 reps. Made an impromptu curling table out of the side of the bed - just sat back on it, put my elbows forward and did some narrow grip curls. Cramped up my pronator muscles, but overall it's easy enough. Got pumped.
Some time later I did 20 more reps and decided to stop. It's late. Gotta learn to curb that enthusiasm.

I gotta write down the details. They matter.

Back keeps cramping. I have to remember to change positions often, as I'm standing.

I so tired of desiring to monetize my youtube channel. It was a fad. I'll keep trying, nonetheless. I just don't care. At some point, of course, I'm not going to care for real. Can't wait.

You know, during my workout days, I dread those rest days. But sunday was nice somehow. What was different? Well, I think I did a lot of music.

Heck, I'm really supposed to be able to remember what happened yesterday. Woke up relatively late, had small but calorific breakfast, some repeatable quests... The repeatable quests (i.e. my job) have to be the answer. I was satisfied and busy. Also no one was home. And late at night I cooked more deepfried stuff - cheese and chicken, and had some. Also I conversed with some guests.

What kind of a person do you have to be to invite guests to your house? I guess I'm borderline autistic, ha ha. Cause I barely can understand it. Sure, there's like some kind of networking shit and blah blah presents favors corruption bullshit. That's for powerful people. And for complacent doodooheads.

Now, I do believe you can enjoy the society of another person. I sometimes want to invite my old grip friends so we can have a workout at my home. I got the plates and bars and music. Basically, my home has everything that a gym needs, and more. Only for one person though, I guess. A good gym definitely has to have more than one power rack. Anything less is more of a "workout spot". Or a personal garage gym, filled to the brim with carcinogenic fumes. 😬🔫

I'm so inspired. I do have something bursting iside of me, beating, willing to tear out and burn. No, it's not jizz. It's a metaphorical expression. In fact, I'd say my libido has been getting lower and lower as the temperature has been decreasing on the street. Can't say I hate it!
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I see it. I see it's burning. I see the protrusions. The endless... something. Why endless? Because there is no end. And when there is end - there is no you. You are not.

Did some wrist curls with 6 kg dumbbells - under and over, 2 sets of 30. I think this can be enough.

Random picture of the day - ancient Roman amphitheatre

https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/3/34/Inglobamento_cittadino.JPG