My training log and thoughts

 03.05.2023 Nice day. Not much. No bad stuff. Sleep - 6/10, nutrition - about the same. Having my second moka now. Tried adding a tiny bit of salt into the beans, for the sake of curiosity. I've done worse, hehe. Doesn't feel like it changed anything. Today we're deadlifting. It's Week 5, Session 2 - in the program, that is. I'm doing DLs once a week. So, it's 80% for 5 sets of 4. I think we'll pick the working weight from 230 to 250. Should be reasonable? I feel like it is. *** Coffee is working, judging by how negative my thinking has turned. To be fair, it was slightly negative beforewards. Oh well. I have DLs today. And it's already almost 8 PM once again. *** Now it's almost 10. What is wrong with me? Well, I played guitart and got a little bother by more than one person. Helped. Yeah, coffee really is working strong. Well, let's see how we can perform after all that. Workout No upstairs warmup Deadlift 20 - 70 Tried an even wider X-stance....

 01.05.2023 Nice day. Sleep still fragmented in a very strange manner. Appetite low, nutrition - about 6/10. Sleep? I have no idea. I am sleepy right now. I woke up at 2 AM. And it's 7 PM. I haven't had a proper burst of energy in a long time. I need to figure out why and what's up. I guess of what I could do. Today would be a typical workout day. But I'd try to go to sleep earlier and make tomorrow more energetic. Cause Tuesdays normally disappear for me. Things I do at night I'd prefer to move to day or evening tomorrow. That being learning and vidya games. I am so irritated at this confusing fragmentation of my energy, I don't think I've experienced such a thing a thing before. At least not this very specific thing. So, I am and will be sleepy. I so want to make music. I just feel like I have something in there, inside of my head. And I'm more and more coming to a conclusion on my "rebranding". I just need to get more energy. Small things ar...

 29.04.2023 Nice day. Nutrition - 6/10, sleep feels like 75/100 or more, despite being fragmented once again. Had a few things to write about. Coffee. I want more intense coffee. The taste is better, but the effect isn't the same. 80/20 coffee wasn't too bad after all. Also I'm tempted to have an oldschool large coffee. Which is a handful of beans over roughly three large cups of water. Could be fun. It's OHP today. Thank God, my knee is good. Can do PP. 72% for 5 and 82% for 4 sets of 3. So, 100 for 5 and, perhaps, going from 115 to 122 on 4 sets of 3. Should not be too difficult? It's about time I reaccumulated some skill and energy. Yesterday I felt bad. Physically. I had a yearning for something like fruit or juice. Must be vitamins. Instead, I've had a few teas with honey. Got a strong lasting headache. In the end I gave up and took a couple of painkiller pills. Well, the basic ones, not the strong ones that we happen to have in our house now. Been playing ...

 27.04.2023 Nice day. Rekt after yesterday. Fell asleep without a proper supper, slept for quite a while and managed to wake up early, has a nice but medium sized breakfast, ended up falling very deeply asleep, woke up late, had coffee, had a lesson cancelled, helped my brother with his school solfege (music theory), practiced guitar for a while, I'm actually feeling as if I'm moving towards "advanced" fretboard level of familiarity, if that makes sense, coming up with so many curious funny exercises, having my second moka arabica. I've been thinking, and hopefully it is a nice idea - OHP days will be Monday, Saturday and Thursday, and alongside them squat days will be Thursday, Monday and Saturday.  Mon (OHP) / Wed (DL) / Thurs (Sq) / Sat (OHP) / Mon (Sq) / Wed (DL) / Thurs (OHP) / Sat (Sq) So that's a two week spread - not a microcycle! And, of course, we'd be doing not just squat on squat days. And today I kinda feel like having a light workout again, a...

 26.04.2023 Nice day. Nutrition - close to 9/10, sleep - not sure, confusing. Slept at night some and tried to sleep during the day, but couldn't. It's been different ever since I managed to cover my windows more effectively. Music. Fiddling around with Musescore and Cakewalk. Mostly remembering. *** Brain. It's gotten active again. Good times. Not normal. Tunnel. Eyesight. Music does that. Grooved up, and some caffeine on top of that. Gotta do more, but so confused. Wait. Know what's important. Might have been woven into my blood. It's the deadlift. The heavy lift. We're doing it today. We're doing a lot of stuff. So much stuff can be done so quickly. He he. Silly video game quotes. So much to do, so little time. Have you seen the elves? What else... Mudcrabs, patrolling the Mojave... What else? What are some of the best ones? Think of them right now and tell me in your mind, and we can laugh together (in your mind). I allow it, if you do. Conjoined minds. ...

 24.04.2023 Nice day. Sleep - 6/10, nutrition - 8/10. A tiny bit more disciplined, but far from perfect or even from what I planned. Not too much to worry about. Almost 8 PM now, but I've done my minimal pre-warmup. Coffee? One moka while giving a lesson, one over the next hour, and one traditional 60 bean brew. Going from 107 to 115, I think. 5 sets of 4, and before that a 100 for 5, as dictated by the program. 5o4 isn't the only working set portion. Workout Pre-warmup - a little bit, not very thorough Push press 20 and walking around the garage with a bar in the rack position - it's empty today. Realised that flipping the bar might be a solution to it seemingly being bent in an unusual direction (it must have gotten flipped). I put stickers "on top" of the bar, and one of them is a bit more uneven - that's supposed ot be the left one, I assume. 50 and 70 for 5 100 for 3 unusual. Rotators still feel strangely fatigued. Not a problem. 108 for 5 much better, so...

 22.04.2023 Nice day. Sleep - at least 7/10, food - I guess it's fair to say it's 8 out of 10. Really decent! Last night I learned. Was going over the seminars I've missed and to my massive surprise realised I missed out on one more than I thought. Things just go by my head sometimes. That's okay. Cause I managed to do everything much faster than before. And I couldn't stop learning and looking up various things. Such as geometry which I've studied many years ago and how to use github when you need to fix your mistakes. Git interface isn't the most intuitive sometimes, but it works on second attempt. All of the GPT, the many of them, are helping a lot too, especially when it comes to repeating things. I ask it to go over something step by step and it does so. So far without too many problems, cause I'm learning rather simple things. Me, a programmer? Believable, I guess. Since I was young I imagined myself as a philosopher and a teacher to the people. Th...

 20.04.2023 Nice day. Not much to day. Nutrition - 5/10, sleep - 65/100. Having my second coffee late. Going to do 4 sets of 8 with 105 kgs in PP. Shouldn't be too complicated. Also, I might have been reading my program a bit wrong. Yesterday, I was supposed to do 85% for 4 sets of 2, not 82. Not a big deal. Coffee's working a little weird. Can we celebrate the fact that it's been quite a while since I last thought about suicide? Today's the first time in a while. I hope to blame coffee. It distorts some things in your head, or maybe it just opens up old wounds, things we don't wanna see. So, if we don't count today, we can consider it a pretty long streak of staying positive. Workout Some upper and lower body warmup, very light stretches Push press 20 50 for 8 - 4 presses and 4 pushpresses 70 and 90 - same. Press feels pretty smooth, rotator cuffs (L-flys ones) feel pretty fatigued. I've done some of them on Monday, maybe even a lot, if I remember right. 10...

 19.04.2023 Nice day. Calm so far. On monday, I stayed up as usual. Before that, on sunday, I couldn't help myself but fall asleep around 10 PM and wake up at 5 in the morning. Same thing happened yesterday. I felt a little extra tired after my monday workout, but I kept going the way I do "normally". So, yesterday I was sleepy all the time. Might not have gotten too much sleep. Also I moved my melatonin jar to another spot where I'm less likely to eat it too early, and I guess that lead to me not eating it at all, which might be extranatory as to why my sleep is different, not to come to any early conclusions. I don't feel bad. I know coffee will work on me. This sleep change feels somewhat natural. I feel sleepy, but I don't feel like I can fall asleep. It's like there's two different types of liquids in your brain which get restored during sleep, and now their restoration is out of sync. One is full, another one - not so much. Seemingly complex biol...