My training log and thoughts

 30.03.2026 Warmup - OHP stretches, thumb and wrist stretches alongside it (rubber), L flys, some very slow and careful squats I asked myself how come I don't need warmup on DL. Then I realized - it's because I do a lot of actual warmup sets! That's what I did today. Overhead press 20 for 20 50 for 8 60 for 6 70 for 5 80 for 4 90 for 4 100 for 4 103 for 4 105 for 5 - feels good, confident Some step-ups in between sets for PP warmup Push press 105 - front rack hold 70 for 2 103 for 2 113 for 2 - these sets were pretty fast, sort of similar to a double set 123 for 2 first rep okay, second mediocre; then, right away - 128 for 1 and one failed - first rep was really good, second got stuck around the sticking point. I held it, considered putting in more effort - I felt like I could lock it out with some grit, but decided to put it down. Strained my right leg a little bit cause I overextended it. Eventually I decided I was done downstairs. I have psychological issues with PP. I a...

 29.03.2026 So, I have DL today. Really enjoyed writing yesterday. I feel like I'm finally on to something with my idea of showing what you have when you've lost everything. I'm doing something right with the prose. I might miss my crazy energy but I still have it, it's just that it'll need to take a couple steps of transformation into something more formal in my own way. Workout Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 10, focusing on some reps having a fullest lockout, even leaning back 120 - 160 200 for 5 - OHG, only two reps were okay with the full lockout (the last two!) but they all were above knee. It's fascinating that I can't start with a good grip position for OHG. 233 for 2 - one mixed, one straps. Having *some* issues with head pressure, but they're moderate. Nose closes up too, but not excessively. 248 for 2 - hard but not bad 263 for 2 - doable 265 for 2 feels kinda good, feeling the WARMUP 268 for 2 really good 270 for 2 hard but good speed and lockout 2...

 28.03.2026 Song: December Dawn - The Cross Of Stone I wanted to say it sounds similar to another song by Reverend Bizarre I think... Not the whole song, just a riff... Maybe not them, but Cathedral... It goes "how could it be that you forgot after love" or something like that... No, can't find it. I used to have it my playlist frequently on occasion and I can't remember! They had an Ozzy-esque vocal, but less grating. RIP Ozzy, God rest your soul! I'll go on metal archives. Can't find it. It had a nice descending riff, a wall of sound, with an organ. *** So apparently it's Count Raven! "How Can It Be". I have been pretty messy with my sleep and my energy. It's been a mess. Nutrition too. Don't even know what's going on. But I think today I ate okay. My throat has been pretty raspy, I might be ill and not know it. But that's only a maybe. I should just be careful. Had one very nice coffee that made me sleepy. The lights went out, ...

 26.03.2026 I think I accidentally switched to nighttime but not really, cause I didn't manage to have a good workout. I keep having this condition where my blood is too thin and it overfills my head and it hurts and I get close to blackout too easily. I didn't push myself tonight though, but I did experiment. Yesterday was kinda amazing though btw. I should have worked out yesterday lol! But instead my energy got channeled into something more rare as I wrote and really enjoyed it, overfilled with joy. That strange, pure, childlike happiness. It's not manic, it's soft but very strong. Like I have good air to breathe. Today, on the other hand, I got irritated with some random thought that I haven't even consciously processed, I think I might have triggered some painful memory but it didn't appear in my "clear mind", in my higher consciousness! Appetite has been low. What if I do have parasites? No, wait, that'd probably increase my appetite. And I f...

 22.03.2026 Lovely day. Critiquing. Writing. Actually not regretting daytime living. Light workout Calf raises - 3 sets of 20, superset with Hip stretches - wall pushes, 3 sets Curls, one hand, grip by the body 16 kg kettlebell - 2 sets of 5, alternating, passing from hand to hand - pretty hard 16 kg kettlebell - 1 set of 10 per hand (2 times more than previous sets) Pullups 3 - pretty strenuous. Some warmup and rubber pulls Chinups 2 sets of 10 - feels nice. Might wanna do it more often. Too lazy! Rubber pulls - lats and face pulls, light rubber - 2 sets 23.03.2026 Bench Warmup 120 - 4 sets of 5 130 - 2 sets of 5 140 - 2 sets of 5 That was gonna be it but I felt so good. The whole day was my typical "coffee angry" but I managed to hold it back. 120 for 5 70 for 5 160 for 3 that was kind of a mess. I tried doing the "trick". 100 for 5 70 for 5 155 for 4 set to failure, choked myself a little but crawled out from under it. Nothing to be too worried about, cause my be...

 20.03.2026 I'm enjoying this day. I again woke up early and had a nice small breakfast. Just fats and protein, no card or vegetables. Then I managed to fall asleep again, really enjoyed it. Dreamed up somebody talking about me and then me getting bombed. The bombs were surprisingly loud in my dreams. Gave a lesson. I really wanted to work out when I woke up today. But now, in the evening, I'm thinking I'll avoid making that mistake again - the last two training weeks I've been following this impulse and it hasn't paid off well. No, I'll do my OHPs and PPs tomorrow. Also I plan to do some decently heavy OHP and not overstretch/overprepare myself. And I hope my oxygen will be good. Today I decided to have a micro workout, just to satisfy the gentle craving. Calf raises (full range, foot flexion) / Squats (partial, in the mid range) - 3 sets of around 20 reps Lat rubber pulls / curls - 3 sets of 20 reps Actually I used a chest expander with 2 springs - medium-ligh...

 18.03.2026 Nice very long day. I thought it was going to be a mess but it wasn't. Really enjoyed reading Flannery O'Connor. Bench - sets of 5 20 - 50 - 70 - 100 123 - 133 - 143 153 for 1 it was a mess cause I put a plate where my right elbow was supposed to go and it got in the way, so I did a "long pause" press 153 for 3 messy From here, again sets of 5 120 - 130 - 140 145 - 150 - very nice, very well controlled! The right wrist felt messy and swollen but otherwise functional. Skin ended up being a little abused as well somehow - weird, isn't it? 19.03.2026 I have great expectations for today. I slept and ate well, although not a lot - appetite is moderate and I couldn't fall asleep after 7AM. Read, enjoyed. Two conventional coffees, 35/420 and 25/320, double ground washing machine brand. Editing and rewriting some very minor things in early chapters of Marco. Minor in size, but not in meaning. I decided to let the readers know more. Workout Deadlift 20 - 70...

 16.03.2026 Nice day. Woke up at 3AM, but then managed to sleep a little more. Brain is refreshed, to a degree at least, sprayed with some vinegar. Guess what? I think RW4 is happening. It's ridiculous, I know! But the more I look at media, at storytelling, everything, the more I realize how plainly wrong I am about great many things and my own creation, Michigander Marco. It's gonna be half and half first person and close third person. Not an even 50%. I'm not used to it yet, but I know it won't take too long. I wanna load up on some book and just copy it, in some way or another (prose-wise). Plots. I've become a 'plotter'. I have a realization that things, the way things happened, the way I remember them, they are just not very easily digestible to anyone. I wanted to work out today when I woke up. It's not the right day. I'm supposed to rest. But I might want to workout. I dunno, maybe it ain't smart. And I realized I actually don't wanna ...

 15.03.2026 Nice day. Woke up at 1AM. Ate decently well. Slept okay. Had one conventional 35/420, a couple cups of instant coffee. I am going to go back and rewrite chapters 1-5 again. Crazy, isn't it? I just need to somehow figure out a way to avoid my typical pitfalls. I really like Someguy2000's idea - "Don't bore the reader". But I'm not sure if I'm ready to accept it. Also I didn't finish watching that interview he did with someone else, let me... Workout Warmup - wall and floor pushups Bench 20 - 50 - 70 - 100 123 - 4 sets of 5 That concludes the portion of bench I wanted to do today. Yeah, I'm reshuffling the exercises again - it makes so much sense to do Bench right after DL, after yesterday. And man, yesterday was quite the wrecker. Overhead warmup - olympic stretches with stick and rubber, L-flys with 6 kg dumbbells Overhead press 20 - 50 73 - 2 sets of 5 93 - 2 sets of 5 Push press 70 - 5 singles - not bad! Rack was surprisingly good giv...