My training log and thoughts

 05.05.2026 Nice day. Slept easy, didn't wake up nervous, appetite above average, had carbs, read a book! So much better than yesterday. Workout Some rather gentle warmup, feeling the deep muscles in abs and upper back Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 12 120 for 8 160 for 5 203 - 2 okay reps out of five - I fished out an old technique for DOHG: grab from ABOVE and wiggle your wrists SIDEWAYS, i.e. "adduction-abduction" - you know, like in armwrestling. THAT's how I was able to do a really good rep in the end! I WILL test it again once on the way down. 233 for 5 right away - kinda hard! 253 for 5 - the "warmup" arrived in the middle of this set - first three were hard, a tiny break to rewrap straps, and two very good ones. Fighting against the sliding sleeves today lol. 270,5 for 5 - not bad, breaks after 2 and 4 - adding chalk, rewrapping. Not feeling fully warmed up, if that makes sense! You know what? I kinda just wanna go and try it again. 270,5 for 5 - it was s...

 04.05.2026 Today it's Bench. Warmup - wall pushups, floor planks. I think Bench is mostly responsible for my new wave of imbalance, I'm not fully aware of how to deal with it. On Bench the bar naturally moves to the right for me, and over time the right side is growing tighter and tighter. I should try doing pushups/bench/stretches and move the bar from side to side on my chest. Did that - a lot of very strong, very unusual worm-like stretches. I think doing LOW BAR Squats could help me fix that issue. Maybe even my whole unevenness thing. Well, help with it. Specifically because of holding the bar on the back, flexing all of the back muscles down. Also - I think narrow grip bench could help. Try some today, with heavier weights? Well, I'm not plannign to do *any* - but heavy enough, perhaps. Also I might xD Workout Bench press 20 - 40 - 50 - 60 From here - only 4+4 70 and 80 90 and 100 100 and 110 120 and 130 - nice 130 and 135 - not bad. Using a grip narrowed by an inch ...

 03.05.2026 Nice day. Alone. Appetite low but I kept eating for a while. Nice and calm, empty house - but not brain. No, brain is full of wiggleful worms. I'm realizing I ended ch5rw4 in the middle and it's reasonable to put a "chapter ending" there - so basically ch4rw4 wasn't empty, it's just it got moved later cause ch3rw4 of Michigander Marco which was basically new content. Those first five chapters - now six - are *sort of* the Act I of the "Summer", I guess. I got way, way too much planned lol - well, not planned, I just simply *have* it. Not planned, it just something that sort of happened and I wanna write about it, all of it lol. Auto-fiction - not really, but close. Dr. Amorphous. I'm too good at "rough drafting" - focus on "rough" hehe. Thank God for my overactive brain! Thank you, Jesus! 😀 So, the "experiments" - they're not a part of the main story, but I don't wanna throw them away. They give ...

 02.05.2026 Nice day. Daytime mode. Ate okay, slept well, curious dreams. Head unpleasantly empty, not stimulated. Workout Warmup - a little bit, I got distracted and went downstairs and started pressing the bar right away Overhead press 20 - 30 - 40 - 50 - 60 70 - 2 sets of 5 80 for 5 90 for 5 closed eyes 100 for 5 closed eyes - an experiment, a really messy one, but an interesting one. Set was messy, not in the groove, not able to apply full power, some instability. Wearing a big belt under navel, loose. Reddit and youtube are cancer. You have to remember that even when you're having a good time there. 105,3 for 5 - much nicer, I'm happy! Eyes open, weightlifting belt in the usual spot (under belly), tight but not choking. An hour long break - gave a lesson, feels good, brain worked well, above average excitement! More warmup - swings, supported squats, lateral (one sided) wall pushes, moving hips. DL got my torso pretty stiff, should have tried to loosen in just a tiny bit b...

 29.04.2026 Sleep is uneven as I am once again switching to daytime. Tomorrow should be nice! I woke up around 1 AM then fell asleep around 7 after a moderate breakfast. Then I woke up close to 1 PM and did some stuff - semi-important, not to me but to someone else. I don't like this obscurantism cause I think it might spoil my writing but I still don't wanna share too much here. So... wait a sec, why am I writing here today? I don't have a workout, I have a rest day lol! Nice Bench yesterday though. Still kinda yearning to focus on OHP some more, reserve some energy for it somehow... I got an idea - I might switch my OHP and Bench with one another; I'll do Bench after DL and add some OHP, maybe even PP or other overhead lifts, balance it between each other and Bench - and then I'll have more energy for the OHP workout. Also I gotta not forget about my Squat - really happy with my legs and knees, almost no discomfort in any kind of movement today! And guess what - I...

 27.04.2026 I had the sweetest dream. One of the aforementioned "A"'s was there. Nothing excessive! It's just the kind of dream you don't really wanna share with anyone. It's just that it was sweet, and it featured a church, it features us climbing over some broken boxes and me having to catch her. Just a sweet little dream, her how I knew her. It's snowing outside, it was melting all day and now it's getting frozen again. So I was wrong that it was the last snow of the season when I took a walk this one time, during the "transformative day" xD 28.04.2026 Managed to fall asleep last night and woke up early. Feeling okay. Ate well. Wrote! Workout Warmup - long, too thorough, wall pushups and variations of planks, overhead stretches with rubber on thumbs - that overstretched my right wrist Bench press 20 - 40 From now on, it's only sets of 5 - intended to be a double-set summing up to 10 50 + 60 70 + 90 90 + 100 100 + 110 120 + 130 kinda ha...

 26.04.2026 Man, for AGES in this blog my OHP was SHIT! IT WAS SHIT! It was not ATHLETIC, it was some kind of giga retard lean back with no lockout!! I am working on fixing it. Before I got my garage gym I was more athletic, my lifts looked better. I am working on it! That's what physical culture is. Today... Today we have an OHP day. Lowkey yesterday was amazing - it was a day somehow not spoiled by anything! I got "Hunger" by Knut Hamsun and "Curious Case of Dog" by Mark Haddon. I read a part of the preface to "Hunger" and found a lot of myself being described. Heh. If I was... better, for the lack of better word. Somebody compared Michigander Marco to "Curious case of Dog" - I can see why! Marco sort of has fragmented consciousness, he has some "symptoms of autism" - well, it's because he's basically me, slightly exaggerated. Today I'm OH-Peeing. Pressing. And PPing. And I wanna do dumbbells too. My body is so well op...

 25.04.2026 Today I finally will write. Kind of a weird day! Slept little, woke up not sleepy, gave a lesson, ate - a turkey chop then half a bowl of semolina porridge, thick like a pudding. Then I fell asleep again and had weird, almost traumatic dreams that make my flesh tense, but also were strangely entertaining in a way. Woke up a little annoyed. My mother, she pains me! Memories, the fact that she is not responsible for what she does - why? Are women chaos? I know I am chaos, but I am a destructive form of chaos; that is why I am not a man but an animal with balls. My spirit is the one of a man, sure; he is weak even if he pulls at the reigns, he doesn't want me to hurt myself. So, I woke up and smelled something like gas - made me angry. Why, so much pain, through so many years, why can't it stop? You should see a little artwork I drew either in 2022 or 2023 - hidden beside my shelf. It's bad but I tried to express something with it. Annoyed massively because I recei...

 22.04.2026 I don't know why I'm here. Well, actually, I do - I wanted to see if I can put in this vidget right here somewhere: Not sure if I will but I might. Here's the code, just for myself: <div id="dailyVersesWrapper"></div> <script async defer src="https://dailyverses.net/get/verse.js?language=niv"></script> It's from https://dailyverses.net/ I love this site, it gives me something to ponder on from time to time! Also I wanted to try and do something weird - I wanted to see if I can type a text while unconscious, or forcefully "detached". I realize it is, will, simply not possible, but I think I might try. I'm not using anything beside my own brain to reach this state. I just know my fingers are very fast and often type words automatically. Lullaby herethemost governary ethelicary therapeutic herethenever Interesting fact - it's mostly the letters I can see on the keyboard, in between my hands that thi...