My training log and thoughts

 30.04.2025 I've been kind of a mess. My ribs whatever thingy - perhaps intercostal neuralgia - it sort of healing, then it sort of came back. Going in between going hungry and eating too much. Had a theribbulous reflux this morning, had to take an omeprazole. It helped me back in the day when I unknowingly abused NSAIDs - you know, aspirine - but apparently it makes your bones weaker, which is a big deal. Monday has been kind of a mess. Sunday too, Tuesday - a whole lot of nothing. Tuesday, in fact, was sort of horrible, actually. Bad thoughts. Workout Deadlift 20 - suddenly feeling so bad and weak 70 for 10 - much better 120 160 203 for 3 233 for 3 - very slow, taking pauses between reps - because I think I rediscovered the technique that seriously allows me to shorten my DL range. I'm really forcefully curling down my upper back, which clashes a little with my breathing - so I have to balance, but it's still well inflated, although possibly not to the max. And the bar st...

 27.08.2024 Lovely day. A lot of pain, but it seems to be coming to an end - pray for me, please. You know, that rib and stomach pain, not mental pain. Ate semi-ok, slept a little less than okay but felt good, really enjoying playing music and all that today. Workout - pretty late Warmup - some, pushup variations, right pec tweaking painfully Bench 40 and 70 120 - 3 sets of 10 125 for 10 *Decided* to try a reverse position on bench today - it seems kinda nice, in a way. Now sure if I'm not gonna be fricked to heck if I fail my bench in that tight position - but it's not bad. Well, let's admit, but bench isn't strong enough to generally crush me, unless I specifically get it on my neck and it's not really possible due to how close I am to the ground. Made lovely pasta, poured a bunch of useless old wine in the sauce - it's nice. Beefa da meatballs! I wanted to do DL, bench and light squat today. Will do something tomorrow. It's supposed to be a pretty great w...

 25.04.2025 Lovely day. Ate and slept okay. Gave a lesson, had three coffees with some desserts. Wrote! I'm finishing my current rewrite of tome 3. I kinda had an idea I could finish it today, but we're close. I spent over an hour for one double-length scene, and now I'm editing it. It's a very expansive rewrite to my earlier version. Workout Warmup - thorough, very, in fact - shoulders, wrists, L-flys, strange movements, lat stretches Overhead press 20 - 50 - 70 100 for 3 113 for 2 and one stumble - not a big deal 118 for 1 pretty easy 123 for 1 lovely, not too hard - but there was a pronounced sticking point and a pressout, proper 180 degrees lockout too. That's close to 95% of my old max. 128 for 0 - a good push, a good fail, a fairly confident one - just a smidge away from doing a decent rep, it feels 128 for 0 - roughly the same lift, maybe better, maybe worse. I got nervous on the previous set. That kinda nervous is different from normal lifting excitement. Go...

 21.04.2025 Nice day. Sleep is 'normal'. Food is decent. Some pain in the left side. Workout Warmup - not very long, but feeling good Bench press 20 - 50 100 for 10 140 - 5 sets of 5 - nice, decent, not too heavy Squat - BW 2 sets of 20 23.04.2025 Nice day. Sleep and nutrition good. Deadlift 20 for 20 70 for 10 123 for 5 163 for 5 203 for 5 233 for 3 not very well warmed up yet 263 for 1 pretty easy 290,5 for 2 sets of 0 - not bad. Got first one past the sticking point, but had no power after that. Could probably have jerked my head back and gotten it a little higher, but no guarantee. Got the second one to the sticking point, held it there but alas - not there yet. It's given a more tangible goal. I think I'm very close to doing 290+. I'll restart a program - possibly soon. And I'm toying with the idea of doing deadlifts twice a week. I feel like I can do it. Wanted to do more of anything. Curls / Presses 6+6 kg dbs - 3 sets of 15 each Some squat stretches.

 20.04.2025 Christ is risen! Both both churches today. Finally back on the track, more or less. In less than a week we're gone from snowy winter to forcefully undressing summer. Too hot, and the radiators are chill. For a whole week now I've had a 'normal' sleeping schedule - not sure I like it that much, but okay. My training has been off. At least I'm not nervous anymore. Enjoyed some writing and style reflecting today. Had two large conventionals and one small one. A little excessive! Now I'm out of caffeine in system, but there is plenty of space for endorphins. Workout Warmup - very long, a lot of wrist warmups - still very stiff by end, although good Overhead press 50 and 70 90 for 6 93 for 6 good, better, almost warmed up I gotta admit, I'm really sceptical about that Oblivion remake. It's not going to be good! Will be glad to be wrong. 95,5 for 6 - nice, not bad. Feeling wayyy t00 lazy when I remember I've done 13 reps with it... But that...

 17.04.2025 Kinda feel like garbage all day. Woke up early, very little sleep. Well, not garbage - just subdued. i wanted to do my DL today but I can't have it; I'm like jelly. CNS power low. I just need to get a proper long sleep, day or night. Nutrition has been good. Only some pain on one side. A little worried as I'm still trying to deal with that old clerical problem. 18.04.2025 In a bunch of pain. Mostly chest and muscle. Possibly deeply dehydrated, the weather making it worse... Hmm. A load of pec cramps. Gulped down some potassum iodine and one painkiller pill. Workout Deadlift - finally! Reveling in my music, my E-F-R playlist 20 for 20 70 for 12 feeling good 120 for 8 I think 160 for 5 wayy too lazy 200 for 5 - first rep was a really bad overhand rep 230 for 5 - all very easy but very messy. Experimenting with upper back rounding and that gives me even more pec cramping 😁 Not going for anything heavy today. 250 for 5 - nice, easy, done casually, but it wasn't...

 16.04.2025 Been feeling kinda bad today. Not "bad" bad, my energy is not too low, but my 'hardness', my concentration is kinda mid. I feel softer than I should be and I have overwhelming radiating pain through my left side, from back to chest. No idea where it's coming from - caffeine, my uneven bed, or the fact that I might have tweaked my chest and sheared some muscle tissue in my back on that failed rep two weeks ago. But it hurts, the pain is radiating, it does seem really connected to my stomach for some reason, it comes and goes, it's easier when I do the squat stretch aaand I've been awake for almost 16 hours already - cause I might have successfully switched into 1.5 days since Sunday, or possibly even before that. 1.5 days means three days turns into two days, and it's really funny. That's why I'm having a super light session today. Very, very light. I wanted to have a deadlift, I enjoyed my buzz when I had my lovwly 35/420 convention...

 12.04.2025 Light session Warmup - shoulder movements, flys Full range flys, leaning forward a little 6+6 kg dbs - 3 sets of 10 Straight bar curls Warmup with pvc pipe - two sets 17 kg - 2 sets of 10 37 kg - 2 sets of 10 - feels good. Forearms more flexible! Squat - BW Typical squat stretch/hip warmup first 3 sets of 15 14.04.2025 Weird but nice day, very long. Warmup - some very careful pushup stretches, wrist stretches - again, not putting hand too low Bench press 70 for 20 100 for 10 120 for 3 140 for 3 143 - 4 sets of 3 - muscle was really empty by that point, but nice overall Squat 70 for 5 100 for 5 140 for 5 160 for 5

 11.04.2025 Watched "The Frighteners" this night. Really fucked up movie! I loved it. It was a lot of fun, a typical 90s movie. It was fucked up because of how ultimately dark it was. I just felt it, a lot of really dark stuff in there, feels like it was written by someone who has experienced some really bad stuff in their life. Otherwise a lot of fun, one of great 90s movies that we need in our lives. On Wednesday I had way too much fun... Party hardy as some would say. God have mercy, please! I feel good now. My stomach hurts - not related to the aforementioned fun, just so we're clear. Great workout it was, very distracted too but great otherwise. Now I'm having doubts about going back there again. I feel like I'm a deeply incompetent person in most things I do, and really socially unfit for a lot of things. That happens. It's only a feeling. Doesn't mean I'm completely useless. Didn't sleep much today, gave a lesson. Been having kefir in the la...