July 18th - Bench 150 6 sets of 4, impulse and technique work

 17.06.2026

Alright, Bench workout today! Slept well, ate not too much but it was okay.

I was reminiscing on that day - I can't remember when, probably in May or June - when I had really nice, full muscle but I just did a fairly normal "working", volume workout. I was so full. so unique that day and I wondered today WHY I was full. It had to have been not just recovery but actual energy accumulation.

I had an interesting time between July 2nd and yesterday. Yesterday it ended - I woke up knowing I have a rest day and I felt an urge to go for a walk across the rails and to the grocery store, but some treat for myself not to feel bored. I put on boots, really struggled to reinsert their native soles in lol. I tried to tighten the laces but barely managed to because of the flat laces. I used a multi-surgeon-knot lacing - it was semi-successful, I only chafed my left ankle.

I felt weird cause I wasn't sure if I really wanted a haircut but I decided I do, after all! Took a little walk and got one, really expensive lol. The first haircut I *wanted* to get rather than had to! Since 2018 or even 2016 probably. Heck, maybe even 2015, it depends. No, mark it as 2018, yeah. So I guess it tells you something about my psyche.

I think this kind of acting out is connected to trauma. To a desire to attract people's attention to your trauma. Of course, it can more nuanced. But I hated the way the OTHER people who had long hair like me acted lol. And yeah, it'd have been a lame reason to get a haircut if it was just that. No, I'm ready for a change. I've been growing into a renewed body and renewed mind. This is the 2020s baby! Second half of them.

So I went to the grocery store and ended up buying a bunch of random stuff that was a little too expensive lol. But hey, it'll last for a while! Another jar of instant coffee, more meat, tomatoes - very important for hydration. Ah, I forgot to buy bananas! 😁 Well, we still have some.

And I bought some Red Bull - I wanted to buy some kind of energy drink since I randomly saw in a video clip of couple women fighting in MMA; the fat one tried to sumo-rush the small one and rammer the ring wall with her head and got knocked out and her coach was seen giving her a can of some energy drink. And I had a worm since I saw that and I wanted to buy something, really silly I know. I was gonna buy something cheap but I bought fucking Red Bull which is stupidly expensive lol. It gave me a nice rush and inflated frontal lobes lol. And I think it lowered my inhibitions somehow. A rare case when I buy stuff and THEN my inhibitions are lowered lol. You're just never in the mood to buy random shit unless something like stress or tension of boredom make you wanna lower your inhibitions... Just thinking, musing. There's no smart conclusion here, just observations.

With that Red Bull I had a small coffee yesterday that I made from fake arabica - it didn't taste bad somehow. BUT when I made it today it tasted EXTREMELY shitty, it tasted moldy! TBH I did overbrew it and burn it cause I was playing guitar over it lol. Another silly thing. You improvise and you can't slop to flip the burner closed.

So I gave a lesson and didn't really drink this coffee during and had to throw it out and made a more normal Jardin conventional brew. Enjoyed it a little bit; musing on my writing, critiquing some other people. Some messy stuff, micro-drama - how silly. Annoying persecution fantasies, witches, very annoying thematically. Because modern day women are not witches nor do they get persecuted like them. And it's not a good parallel whatsoever. But anyway, enough self-doxxing.

So. I got Bench today. I wanna work on my technique, on my impulse. Six sets of 4. Just 150, maybe more. "Just" 150 lol - respect the weight darn it! Respect the strength that God gave *you*.

Wrist feels okay. Rest days are really nice but I never appreciate them.

Having a buzz cut makes me look different. I get way too much respect already, naturally. I'm not used to it! People apologizing, wanting to shake my hand. Very random! I kept my beard though. When I was cosplaying Notim Portant people were just scared. Now they respect me for no reason. OR I'm as deluded as usual.

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Workout

Warmup - wall pushups, pushup variations on parallettes, all kinds of light db movements

Bench

20 - 40 - 60 - 70

100 for 6

120 for 5

135 for 4

150 - 3 sets of 4 - very nice! Rather fast, all of them, very powerful; then I took an upstairs break to type it out here. I write my training posts in real time in chunks.

Throat getting a little tickly lol, ears too - head too cold without hair! Funny. Put on some headwear.

150 - 2 sets of 4 - lovely, oh so very easy! I'm super hyped listening to my hype playlist 😄 Lost Horizon

150 for 7 - not bad for me; it's a repeat of my previous result but with a pinky-width grip. I accidentally turned off the music on the first rep lol. There's something special about having music right in your ears when you lift that makes all the mess worth it 😁

138 for 8 - middle finger width grip, a-la "my oldschool" - feels nice! I think I should press like it more. The other sets from here were with that grip too.

108 for 8

60 for 15

Ended up moving the rug more onto the wall cause rubber mats stick out too much for no reason. Then I did some OHP with the bar - a few reps. I noted that my middle back is strained - because I no longer roll my pelvis under my chest on OHP, because I do "Olympic accessory"-style OHP. Worth it? I think so. PP needs to be developed.

Additionally, the fact that I don't have the "ressort" for OHP right now doesn't mean it's difficult to redevelop. But everything, all of it - it still will require a lot of figuring out. And right now my problem again is simply managing load and staying consistent with the working sets. Today was a complete success in that regard.

RPotD - Mały Salatyn, Salatyn, Brestowa