February 28th - Failed workout

 28.02.2026

Please keep praying for me. I'm burdened now, cause my issue isn't being solved after all, no matter how many times they tell me it's solved, done with, it's not happening, it's all weighing heavily on me, I'm pretty upset. Worse, I've been wasting my energy a lot yesterday, and even though I had decent appetite today I don't feel like I can do anything. Well, I know that's a false feeling, cause I will do something.

Deadlift

20 for 20

70 for 12

I don't have enough of what it takes today. I'm in a nearly hysterical state, but also mentally fatigued. I keep taking those weird poses and grabbing my face. So, I settled on doing at least something. Maybe I'll bench tomorrow, and then DL on Monday.

70 - 3 sets of 12 - wide grip stiff legged deadlift, not setting it on the floor. Might have tweaked my hamstring a little on the first set, how silly. Only a little though.

Might have been having too much coffee. I slept a good enough amount of hours. I even had a strange nice dream. I don't remember it but I remember that it was nice. Had a nice meal. Then I got really drowsy. Spent some time in bed, but not sleeping. Had a first coffee, a conventional 35/400 something. It tasted really good, funny. I was hoping it's one of those times where you feel falsely drowsy. But no, I felt like shit. Then I had a military special - large metal cup with 5 teaspoons of instant coffee. I bought nice German coffee last time. It's not great, but it's significantly above average, and it not a scam with the dumbass grounds powder mixed in. Because that's a scam I tell you. It tastes like ass and you know those have been brewed already. So yeah, I just had low energy and I checked my damn account again and I put on my deadlifting clothing and sat down on the bed and struggled to get up. Because of my mind. Makes me feel like some kind of invalid. Well, I was also wasting a lot of my energy yesterday too. Brain inflamed (feels like it). Just had to write it down, rant a little. Maybe I'll do some bench tomorrow. Should be good. I'm thinking I could do some OHP and front rack work before bench. Maybe it'll be a bad idea, maybe not. We'll see.

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