December 18th - Clean and Press up to 110

 18.12.2025

Nice day. Mood shifting. Ate okay. Really inspired to do some cleans and presses. I wanna try slightly heavier weights, even though my tissues have been I would say not ideas. A little fearful for my arms, but only a little. I watched a random video of a guy talking about how he snapped a part of his bicep lifting furniture - so silly.

I'm trying to write. I was super excited to write yesterday, but today I'm a little foggy. I've ended up switching to nighttime over the last week and now I kinda hope to revert the switch afap. I'm thinking I'll go ahead and try to make these following three days into two. Not gonna be easy though, perhaps! I just gotta make sure to remember a few simple tricks. Such as this night is not night but day. Weird, wacky, no big deal. I wish I was cleaner. I wish things were simple and they're not. People are liars or mistaken, often I am. They're such good liars when it comes to pretending to not be malicious, aren't they? Many are, but not everyone. That's the price of seeing the world through my eyes. Sometimes your advantages make you lose other, smaller advantages. Explain? Being strong, people afraid, they act rude to me right away. So sad! Try to treat me rough; I'm nice until I snap. I can be emotional too, vulnerable. God, please protect me! Very vulenrable. This vulnerability can be a strength - some people appreciate a person sincere in their pain. I'm so different from what I used to be in 2023. Maybe not that much, but **so** different. Writing, writing, writing. It's here, it's there, it's just a beat of time, a hill to cross. Up and down, get in and out. Have I mentioned I'm a graphomaniac? Sometimes I can extract it, real easy, sometimes it takes time, attempt to restructure things. Gotta keep stretching, gonna start soon.

Good news - my ankle and foot are better. Not there yet, but there's tangible progress. They keep hurting, getting swolled. Tomorrow it'll be two weeks since I last twisted it for the Nth time. Please pray for me!

Workout

Warmup - some, pretty long, mostly upper body, shoulders, elbows and arm rotators

Clean and Press

20 - 50 - note, the cleans are all hang power cleans, usually with very little or no dipping; I'm working on developing that 'dip', that jump

70 - 1 clean 2 presses 1 clean 2 presses - it's one set with a very short break to reset for a clean

83 - 1 clean 2 presses 1 clean 2 presses

93 - 1 clean 2 presses 1 clean 2 presses

98 - 1 clean 2 presses 1 clean 2 presses

103 - 1 clean 2 presses 1 clean 2 presses - nice, I liked how I did it

108 - 1 clean 2 presses 1 clean 2 presses - not that great, a little fumbly; did not lock out my right arm on the final press rep due to losing balance. It's fumbly but I did it without any particular bumps in the road, you know? I just gotta get myself together. The quality of my clean is really mediocre but on a precipice of "almost there technically". Also, I'm doing it with a hook grip, all the way up to this set.

110,5 for 1 clean 2 presses 1 clean 2 presses - nice, small PR 😁 Again, the break before the second clean was pretty long but I'm happy with this. Clean is a tiny bit better. Wearing straps here - that made the clean so much easier. Also I listened to Manowar here finally, that helped 😁 I often hurt my progress in my habitual zealousness not to "wear out" Manowar which I sometimes doubt is possible. Well, it is possible - human beings are really malleable, our minds, our brains.
I have Manowar perfectly associated with great mood and physical exertion, that's why I'm trying really hard not to wear it out, not to listen to Manowar at the wrong time! Well, by that logic my own music - As Yggdrasil EP and Passage Ritual and a couple of my jams - by that logic they should be making me sleepy cause of how much I listen to them in my bed. One day I'll return to music making.

110,5 - 1 clean 2 presses, then a longer break. I hurt my arms a lot, connective tissues, just strained, not injured. Didn't wanna keep going without a break; still, I hurried. Then - 1 clean and 1 and a half presses; lost balance, stumbled back on the second rep.

I think my issue right now is that I'm pulling my elbows back rather than up! So I naturally end up with an overhand curl rather than a high pull.

50 - 1 clean for a test, sort of confirmed that idea although I gotta admit I'm nearly drained at this point.

Testing the mesh tanktop with the synthetic second-layer top I bought - the stiny one. It works! I'm not sweaty. And it is fairly warm right now.

I gotta develop, lean into a slightly more careful approach. I want exercises that are smoother, simpler. Today's workout was great though, I have discovered a lot and put some pressure on that nerve impulse of mine. Even though I was doing a curl-clean, I was lifting more than I ever have in such a manner - in my garage, at least. Especially considering I've done 108 so fairly casually 😁 And my nutrition has been on the poorer side, less disciplined.

53 - a few more high pulls and cleans. I feel like I'm getting it, but the skin on my hands and my connective tissues are really worn right now. That's why weightlifters don't do anything beside the actual weightlifting, they don't curl and they rarely bench.