December 25th - Deadlift 5 sets of 2

 25.12.2024

Nice day. Fuck everything. Deadlift session 8 - 4 sets of 2 with 85%. Just 255. Should be easy since it's just doubles.

You know, I kinda wanna distance myself from this 'music' scene. I'm not one of these people. No, I am not. Just no. I am not. Music to me is not the same thing it is to them. My music is a chalk drawing on a barn wall. Their music is advertisement. No, no, no, no, no. Just no. Fuck them all, and fuck ever advertising my music. Fuck that shit. This is a deepest perversion of what it means to me. This is taking the music and turning it into some kind of self-degrading circus. Dance, monkey, dance. I am not one of those people. And monkey enjoy dressing up pretty and telling each other 'I'm not like the other monkey'. No, this is BS. This is art, but a very turned art... Still, a curious expression of humanity. Flawed, cursed, perturbed humanity.

Deadlift day hits different. One large conventional brew. Food is shit. Good, but shit. Must focus on deadlift. It'll be a lot of pain. It will be a lot of effort. I will do everything I need.

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Being confused and admitting to being confused - now that is a virtue.

Workout

Deadlift

20 for 10

70 for 10

120 for 8

160 for 5 overhand

200 for 3 lame mixed grip - the 'quick warmup' was too quick after all for once, hehe.

230 for 3 two mixed grip, high belt, narrow parallel stance - nicely even on the first rep even though it was mixed grip. Second rep similar, third rep I put on straps. The skin isn't hurting too much today.

255,5 for 2 nice

You know, for the longest time I'd hear "I walk into a store" in Thunder in the Sky. How funny is that? Also, there's another curious but less obvious mishear I've been having - a nice song from a fairly random album; Illimitable Dolor - On The Crossroads Of Souls - that's the song anyway, from that one compilation. There's a part in it... let me look it up... Born to Lose - Doomed to Die - it's a compilation album. It's not on Metal Archives. There are so many albums and songs that are NOT on metal archives... I think those compilation albums need their own place, clearly.

255,2 for 2 not bad, this time I did high belt again... Very curious. I have two viable techniques. Might not be right. So, about the song - can't find the lyrics right now. There's a part that goes "love embraces fear" - or so I heard! In reality, it's another song completely - Officium Triste - The Weight Of The World (Editors Cover)... In it, the lyrics go... So it's a cover? How curious! I figured the rhymes felt distinctly not exactly metal-positioned, if that makes sense... In metal, you don't rhyme the lyrics this way. But it's metal enough to be metal if it's a cover. Love REPLACES fear! Not embraces! How curious that I initially heard it this way. But yes, this song made me cry the first time I heard and I'd like it to be played on my funeral, after March for Revenge (By the Soldiers of Death). But who's gonna listen to a stupid fucking nutter, especially when it comes to something as fun as a funeral (especially when he's dead)? Oh please, pass the salad! Om nom nom! Lemme some champagne, please!

I fucking HATE funerals. I don't WANT people to EAT at my funeral. FUCK THAT SHIT. Listen to music, have some tea at most and fucking go home. But no, who's gonna listen? No-fucking-body.

And yeah, the original kinda sucks balls... It's feel-less, like a fucking tv show background music. Well, maybe not; but I don't feel it. You can hear the singer doesn't feel what he's singing. Listen to my song Prayer of the Unavenged if you want to hear some real anguish.

255,5 for 2 alright. Not too difficult. A little slower than I'd like, but it's not a big deal. Both reps mixed grip; feels better since I washed hands in hot water with a lot of soap, which works as a degreaser. Skin feels okay, curiously enough. How is that possible? Chalk, on the other hand, feels sort of soft. Also, a curious fact - I did the first rep facing the exit.

255,5 for 2 - first rep mixed grip, second straps. Gotta make sure to inflate yourself as much as possible. I hope my lungs are alright right now.

255,5 for 2 mixed grip on fingertips - that's how I do it on light reps, but this proved to be a mistake, cause it really slowed down the movement (cause if I was faster I'd have dropped it!) and made me focus on my hands for all the wrong reasons. On second rep I put on straps and a proper smooth rep, walked back and racked it on very high racks; the rep was slow, but not too slow - that's good. I can see some very obvious improvement coming soon. And I'm not sure, but I think I managed to finish before midnight today, so it was 25th after all.