November 16-17, Thu-Fri - Two light workouts

 16.11.2023

Nice day. CNS fatigued from yesterday, a little. Not gonna squat today. Tomorrow, a better day for it. Last night I finally played RDR2 story a bit more. Got away from Guarma. I'm not a good writer. The best I aim for is "not the worst". Heh. I can only write diaries, really.

Workout

Rubber band pulls, one arm

2 sets of 20 very light

3 sets of 20 folded in two

Floor-supported ring pullups

2 sets of 20 a tiny pump, keeping it all very easy

Calf raises / toe raises superset

2 sets of 20

Calf jumps - I even went downstairs for it

2 sets of 20

Squat

2 sets of 20

That's about it for today. BW squats are underrated, should be done more often by everyone.

17.11.2023

Nice day. Just realised today that I did get scammed with the coding school a lot more than I thought even. My advice? Never sign a document you didn't read and discuss. And I mean it - it's not a joke. It's a hrd lesson to learn, you'd think, cause even though your mind understand what's up you just don't feel it. Oh well. I was desperate back then. In the end, it's the bank that's getting scammed more than I am.

Today I sniffed a lot of dust. This realisation made me all hyper wary, immediatelly made me wanna start cleaning up. Funny psychology. Got a lot of dust in me, ended up rubbing my eyes, now they're horribly red. Wouldn't want some superstitious stickler with a stick up their rear end to see me like that - they'd assume I'm stoned! And I'm so done with people assuming I'm on drugs, next time someone dares to bring that up to me I might get a tiny bit confrontational. I don't believe those people are consciously genuine when they harass bystanders with such questions and accusations.

A bit off balance, but I don't care. Ah. Need my coffee. Also, if stars align (very figuratively speaking) my life can change slightly for the better soon.

Man, I actually don't know about going heavy again. I've made some gains in squat. I might wanna do a little deload or something today, something light and productive enough and then restart the program if I dare. I'm really glad DL is going well. My brain is really not perfect today. I should really put some effort into falling asleep earlier today. Also, another crazy idea - straight up moving my barbell moves to tomorrow, with the OHP. Press will be the main move, some cleans before it. Will be able to add squat to it safely? I hope so.

No, I should squat lightly today. Better something that nothing. It'll be easier for my body in the end. Maybe even just a pair of plates. I'll make sure to warm up well, get plastic and well-oiled, if you will.

I gotta tell you something, though, Wednesday this week was amazing. Like gold, made of peanut butter. Dense, thick, flavorful. Heh. You shall know me by my silly metaphors/similes/parables.

Today is more like some kinda cocktail with all sorts of veggie pulp, heh.

Workout

Some strong lower body stretches upstairs, maybe even too much. I felt good, I even wondered if I could go heavy today.

Squat

20

50

100 - 3 sets of 5 - today I'm feeling stiff in some places and loose in some other places. It's all wrong, not going exactly right. But in the end I felt okay. I got wayyy to little sleep, man. Agh. Thank God I don't feel any worse, I feel above average. Tomorrow should be lovely. Please, help me wake up earlier.

I've had an argument on reddit in the last couple days. Time to confess. This subreddit - r/doommetal - it's a nice sub, but it's not what I'm used to. A lot of it's audience are people who prioritize other things rather than doom. So, it's alright, honestly. Crowbar is kiond doom. As usual, there are some lyrical themes that are dubious and shit. When Electric Wizard sang about "Legalise Drugs and Murder" it was really obvious to me it was satirical - cause murder is bad, and thus, drugs are bad too, okay? Black Sabbath did not sing about snow and smoke and frickin other stuff to promote it. They sang about it cause it's what they were doing, it's one of the things that gave them inspiration and they did sing about how bad it is. Lewis Carrol wrote about devil like a cartoon character cause he was doing a portrayal. He wasn't pushing satanism by making devils into characters, you know what I'm saying? And then there's the new wave of people who wanna see "legitimate occultists" in their musicians and that shit pisses me off. Cause it's harmful to music, to musicians and to people. Cause it's an ideology. It's like songs that genuinely non-ironically praise drugs. It's like politics. Eh, I just gotta went, man. Those second-wavers, man. They do not understand it. Oh well. The best I can do is shame them gently and be genuine. Trust me when I tell you - I am genuine. I'm not trying to get a rise out of anyone when I talk about this issue. Clearly, I drove a guy mad and upset so much by pointing out how he's looking for something in the wrong place. Music is good, satanism and occultism aren't. But I seemingly drove him so upset that I even feel guilty. Well. maybe I postponed an eventual takeover of my genre by "legitimate occultists". Cause doom metal, for God's sake, is not a frickin satanist genre. It does not have ideology, religion or occult attached in front of it and is should only use it for metaphors it wants to stay pure. A bit of a rant over here, eh? Keep my music pure, please. Ideologies, politics, "legitimate occultists" and shit like that - that ruins art. It just does. But yeah, I admit, my point still needs to be refined because it is subtle. But I think I expressed it somewhat well in that reddit thread. Still, not sure if I should link it.