October 27th, Thursday - Bench press injury discovery

 27.10.2022

Nice day. Generally okay. Shoulder hurts, but not as intensively. Had a nice night of sleep. Intense dreams, visual, involving music, elements that make it look like a movie. Moderate breakfast, finishing yesterday's breakfast. Too much fat in it, it satiates me very quickly. Thinking about my life. I realise that to a small select group of people I may look like an artist who makes music. And I don't feel like that atm. But, well, I don't not feel like that either. As you can see from my words, I have a rather mediocre intellect. I've been thinking about intellect, wisdom and education. You have information, various amounts of it. Education is formalised information. It might help you develop intellect, which is an ability to manipulate information within your ratio. I realise now I use the word "ratio" in my own developed meaning, similar to russian "разум". I am so cringe, ha ha. I'll keep writing in english, it my hobby and it stimulates my brain. Well, as I've said, intellect is an ability to manipulate information within your mind. And wisdom is a skill of manipulating it. Not just an ability, but a skill of using this ability. Wisdom is commonly developed over time, if you do try to use your intellect, thus growing both your ability and skill, and ideally the pool of knowledge - information.

Am I smart? I don't feel smart right now. I have a low opinion of myself. But in the last week or so I, once again, have been trying. Trying just to think. Thinking, and doing it rationally, as if you were actually trying to accomplish something. Even if you don't see a goal before you.

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Played guitar. All strings rattle a lot, except on my SQUE, which is tuned to D Standard. Low tuning is just rattle city, I guess. Makes sense. I should remind myself not to put on thicker strings on my SG, I don't wanna widen the nut holes even more. I have a lot of experimentation I'd like to do. Try everything. Form a personal opinion on all possible pieces of gear I'd be inclined to use or buy.

I'm not gonna try to do barbell squat today, but I will do BW squat. And bench - heavier than on monday, by a slight margin. We'll see how it goes.

18:45 I shall start my quick workout soon.

Workout

Pushups - 15 reps left pec hurts, then 15 reps didn't hurt

Bench press

20 for 15

50 for 10

90 for 6 - and it's only 19:10. I'm on a good track.

Bench - lying on the bench and lifting - feels like a largely unnatural exercise. I will improve it for this microcycle, and then reconsider my options. I'll have another session with 4 sets of 3, that is, lifting relatively heavy weights. And I hope to go on an adventure and stray not from my path, so it's irrelevant anyway. Not to stray...

130 for 5 - it's 19:15. I'm going too quickly, too casually. Pain in my trap and pec. Not smart. But...

140 for 5 - nice, albeit a little creaky

Had to take a 40 minute long break. Now I'm wondering if I need to re-warm myself. It's not an insanely long break, I guess... Did 10 pushups experencing mild joint dioscomfort, suggesting that I did get cold.

I gotta do something with this pointless pain. I am ill, I made myself more ill last week with some negativity coming from me. My grown hormone is probably lowered. My diet is not perfect. I'm happier today. I need to get back to the garage.

140 for 5 - RPE around 8 ngl. Technique - very bad, uneven. But the whole thing didn't feel that bad. It reminded me of how I used to bench. I should consider my max to be less than 180, at least in my current shape.

140 for 4 - RPE 8 once again. I stopped once I realised that the side of the bench is pressing exactly at the hurt spot in my shoulder! It was the bench, the bench is my injurer 😁 Enough dumbass exercises, we're going back to proper dinosaur training. The bench lost it's spot in my training routine - also the literal small bench that my dad made for me when I was 5, so I can put my feet on it when I was sitting in class.

Well, I'm glad I found something obvious. My mind is a maze, automatically hiding a lot of things. It's not my bed, not the way I stand, not the squat (although it probably contributed a little when i did it a week ago), and it's not stretching. A hypothesis - last thursday I hurt my shoulder, didn't feel the pain under workout endorphins, tried to squat with pumped upper body, making it worse.

No bench. No bench. I won't do bench anytime soon. OHP for the win. Pushpress needs attention as well. Natural movements. Not gimped self-crippling.

I walked. Cardio done for the second day in a row. I beleive it will help me not change my mind, and it will help my cardio when it'll be time to go. I am an athlete, after all. An amateur, but most good athletes are amateurs, unbothered by making money with the sport.

Hard rubber pulls

3 sets of 11 - wacky numbers, ha ha. A way to make working out more interesting.

Did 2 sets or lat-supported tricep pressdowns (not extensions) with the rubber. Fun.

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Didn't end up squatting. I should have. It' not midnight yet. Good for me, I managed to start my workout earlier today. Perhaps I should squat. It'll make me feel good.

Squat

3 sets of 15 - BW. 

I can actually go deep with my heel on the floor if I force my foot up. It doesn't just bend my ankle under my weight, must force it. Well, if my calves were relaxed I'd fall, so it makes sense.

Did the third set with a stick. It randmoly turned into some wacky yoga as I kept streching my pained hips. At some point my left foot caved a bit and I felt some pain around my old surgery. Curious. I need a lot of recovery, man.