April 20th, Wednesday - Deadlift, Life, Fun pics, Music

Warning - large pic xd link

 20.04.2022

Well, I'm feeling as bit like, eh... uh... you know. Well, you don't know, but you can guess. I would say it's "not very good", but it's not that. It's not "not very good". Overall I'm fine, thank God.

It always seems to be small things that push you towards that. Choose the lesser evil. Or, perhaps, do not choose evil at all. Prayer helps so much. People underestimate how vile, wild and mindless people are. I am. Very little control over what I feel. If you can control what you do, how come you have to struggle so much much with "feelings" that appear in your head? I guess because the "chain of actions" is shorter. When you're about to do something in real life, you have use multiple algorhythms to calculate excatly what you're going to do, but feeling or thing is much faster, almost autonomous, so it's harder to tell yourself to not be obsessed and subsequently opressed by an idea.

Pain. Death. It's happening right now. Something "not very good". But it's not happening to me. I can feel the darkness gathering where the danger came from. Bad people. Bad person. Danger to stupid person. You know who I'm talking about. Stupid fucking animals. No brain, no mind, barely any soul. 

Me? I am a worm in the dirt. Filth under your feet. Why do I even wiggle in here? Why the fuck am I out on the ground? Must've been raining, ha ha. Get some moisturizing water. Cut me in half and see if I become two. That's wehat they say, right? A living being that is curious toy for you experiment on. Or stomp on when you're just walking by. Why did I even crawl out to the ground? Back, back into the ground.

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Shiiet, that's something depressingly inspiring. Could even use this as straightforward lyrics! VEry metaphorical, and obvious enough to a degree. My peers can relate, I reckon. At least some of them, who are open to themselves about what they are. You can choose who you want to be, but you can't choose what you are. Filth. Dead cells crawling.

You expect me to wallow in filth with you and enjoy it. You can't recognize where you are.

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I need my time. I started having coffee at 5. And now it's 8:30. How come I don't feel ready to work out yet?

Well, actually, whenever this thought pops into my head I start to feel ready. Feels great mate! Today is not very heavy - 4 sets of 6 going from 200 to 225 and 252 kgs for a "clean single". Perhaps I should give a shot to some hook grip DLs? Warmup starting soon. Had some really nice nutrition this morning.

Coming up with inspiring lyrics

Does red flag mean stop or go? Call me raging bull. There's the red flag. I ram and gore. Guts out!

What about that indian chief? Why did they call him Sitting Bull, I wonder? I'll look it up.

Hey, song title idea - "Ram & Gore". Very animalistic sounding and catchy!

The new headphones are great for headbanging. Brain shakes just right, ha ha ha.

Deadlift

50 - 100 - 150 for around 6

200 for 6 laid back

207 for 6 nice and okay

215 for 6 okay. Kind of losing concentration. Gotta amp it up better. More oxygen is what I feel like I need.

225 for 6 alright. Feeling sharp.

253,1 for 1 - super easy. Easier than ever. Too bad I didn't film it.

A lil busy after deadlift. Gotta have my stuff together. Managed to spend some time with my family. The Order. Bonding over our suffering.

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Much later

I don't feel done. I gotta do more stuff or something. My joins are all creaky. Let's do forgotten exercises!

Goodmornings with a stick - 1 set of 15 reps - pretty hard for my shoulders, cause I chose to put the stick like I'm squatting 😁

Goodmornings with rubber on my neck and feet - 2 sets of 20 - feels great for my hips

Listening to a song that I loved so much when I was younger. Vaguely based on Hitchhikers' Guide to Galaxy?

Heaving Sun - Might of the Planet Builders

Actually, they have a Bandcamp too! Much easier to listen to on mobile. (Posted it first)
Such cool artwork!

Mood today. Called this lazy improv "Old Buffalo's Tear". Feeling nice.

Tell you what though, playing electric with fingers is quite a skill on it's own. When I play acoustic/classical with fingers it's way different. Gotta practice more ngl 💩

Random pic of the day

The Ostrov monastery complex is located on the western edge of the historic town of Ostrov in the district of Karlovy Vary.

Chapel of Our Lady of Einsiedeln

More random pics - cool houses found while searching up "buffalo" 🤪

Buffalo, state of New York, USA.

A quick reminder - you can look up the Wikimedia pages for these pic by googling their direct links. It also contains the name of the file. For the curious internet dweller 😀

Kinda really wanna play FO76. What will I end up doing today? It'd be so fun to optimize a vegetarian melee build xD Too bad you're just not allowed to eat meat in that game! For the sake of minmaxing, haha. Femos, a cool Fallout 76 dude, tried making a crit melee veggie build. I got inspired myself. It's fun!

Lemme just post some kinda fun pic from the game... Here it is! Kinda resonates with me right now.