Wed and Thurs, 15 and 16

 15.12.2021

Nice day. Not much new. Woke up early enough, decent breakfast - mostly carbs, did some work, slept a bit cause my sleep schedule has been shifting again, had 120 beans. I was afraid it was gonna take me off the rails again, but thank God, it didn't happen. I didn't get jumbled, and worse things didn't happen either. You'll know it if you're a caffeine user, the same kind as me. Most likely you just wanna be a gym nut and abuse pre-workouts to get close to my experience, ha ha. (It's a joke, do not do anything).

Anyway, I think my CNS was somewhat underrecovered, so I felt quite lazy and took a long time to get to the workout. And then I was even lazier, but as the training session went on it got better.

Overhead press

Warmup

40

60*5

70*5

80*5

85*5

87,8 for 5 - all nice and easy, rather strict, technique (clavicle-wise) wasn't exactly what I wanted, but it was okay. Didn't get tired or fatigued, but I decided to end it there.

Squats

3 sets of 15 - bodyweight, all super easy, I just love it. Rediscovered the fact that hip tightness will go away if I put my weight on the outer sides of my feet - i.e. stretch my groin area and actually turn my thighs outside. I've been squatting with my toes turned outseide, it's been feeling much more confortable than hip-oriented toes forward squat. Same for DL, to be honest.

Floor-supported prone ring pullups

3 sets of 15 - done in an easier (than normal) fashion. Not sure if bending my legs makes it easier, cause when you straighten your legs you're close top the standing position, and that's way easier.

Played New Vegas a lot. Finished Honest Hearts - it's the third time ever, I think. Picked the violent option for the first time ever (not sure, actually) - defeated the bad guys' chief, and, to be honest, I'm sure if I liked the preachy nature of the ending slides. I guess they were just trying to say "War never changes", and suggesting that the only way to avoid constant war is trying to achieve peace some other way. Now I'm watching Alchestbreach's playthrough of a mod that remakes all of Honest Hearts into a somewhat silly story, it's fun. I love Alchestbreach. I'd say he helped my mind stay at peace during somewhat troubled times of spring 2019 for me. And he's connected to Someguy2000 in a way. And overall, he's an incredibly jolly person. I'd love to have him as a friend, but I'm reminded that even as a friend I can be quite harsh and unpleasant to be around. Well, it depends on circumstances. I think I might be a severely judgemental person. A real prude, in a way. Maybe not. Can't really evaluate myself, as I love to say. Things I say about myself - that's the way I see me, not how you or some other person might see me. So, obviously, people have different reputations with different people. I have a rather poor reputation with myself, ha ha.
Started playing New Vegas Bounties II. I love it so much. Gonna play it later today.
Later at night I played Fallout 76 for the first time in almost two months, I think. It was plently of fun. The game feels a lot like The Sims, to be honest. It's so beautiful and detailed. I can only wish that Bethesda makes the right choice at some point and makes it into a singleplayer game with mods. Just imagine the possibilities! Until then, it can be another MMO-style cash cow for them. And I should consider supporting them and buying some cool outfits or weapon skins in their Atom Shop. Because I kinda do want this game to stay around. A significant portion of my personality developed around the artform that is video games, and Bethesda games take up a noticeable portion of all the games I played. In fact, a Bethesda owned game is my most played game. People who worked on Bethesda titles worked on this game, so there is some proper legacy there.

16.12.2021

Nice day, more or less. Reminded of things that happened in the past. Makes me feel pain - a moderate amount, or so I way now. I don't wanna go crazy. Hope I won't. Gotta write some music and let it out.

Had 120 beans of coffee. I want more. I just do. Numb my old brain. Not really old, but sure has taken quite some damage over the years. I wonder if I could have been smarter if I hadn't had it damaged multiple times as a prepubescent child.
I gotta stop implying stupid shit in my silly obscure texts. But it's so much fun, ha ha.

Anyway, I don't even know what I wanna work out today. Thinking about light bench. Maybe some heavy bag work. Could be nice.

Been playing guitar a lot. Kind of having a tunnel state, I think. Not noticing things. Gotta beware. Learned a lot of cool chord sequences in A Harmonic minor. And that means I practiсally know 6 more non-diatonic modes. Familiar with super locrian - one of my songs feautures it a lot (Elders Awaken), in C# as well as D, cause the main key was D Harmonic minor in there as well, and now I'm finally getting to know it better, not just playing single notes, but getting an apprehension of its mood.
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Quite some time passed

Pushups

15 - 25 - 35 - 45 harder that I'd like. Nice pump in my pecs, hard for triceps. Well, I remember doing a 100 rather easily, but now I did 120 together. Gotta get back in shape. Not forget my pecs. Since BW squats worked so well for keeping my squat up, perhaps pushups can work the same way for bench.

One arm kettlebell press

16 kgs - 3 set of 15 - just keeping it as light as possible.

Some lights flys (not flies).