Sat-sun, 18th and 19th

 18.09.2021

Nice day. Lowered energy, muscles sore, but I feel great. Woke up early from the eastern sun, as has been the norm for a very long time now. Can't wait for the darker days, ha ha. Traps and lower back are sore, lats and glutes a bit sore as well. At least I got some of my energy back. What was I missing? Still can't be sure. I think I pre-exhausted myself on wendesday. I was able to expend CNS energy en masse while "warming up" with coffee for very many hours before the session. That's what wednesday was, and I exhaused myself to a point of feeling ill.

Today I did some proficient things, a modicum of unusual stuff entered my life, then I had 3 teaspoons of instand coffee over roughly 1,5 cups (around 600 mls).

I questioned myself whether I should go heavy today - the program dictated 80% for 4 sets of 2. My CNS felt nice, not powerful but not falling over. I felt content and calm standing up. So I decided to go heavy. 80% of my supposed max is definitely not a joke.

Overhead press

50*10

70*5

90*2

100*2 easy enough, rather strict

110 for 1 rep, went for the second but stopped. I angled it wrong and pressed from the middle of my chest while not leaning back enough, so I pressed too far forward. And also my tricep gave out. Slightly unusual technique to yesterday's muscle fatigue - I sort of started using too much triceps, and not enough torso.

110*1 grinded, not super hard, Didn't go for second.

Bench press

50 - 3 sets of 30 in an explosive manner

Well, I feel good today. Next pressing session is either on wednesday or even later. Monday - some squats, probably, up to and above 140. I think I can have two DL and two pressing session each week, turning one of them into a light session, Not every session will be a "program" session - i.e. it will be light or super light. That's just some notes for me, for later. I['m not rambling, I'm just struggling to be precise in what I mean.

Played guitar a lot. Some time ago I found a nice channel in youtube shorts, and played a blues thing from it. I think it's in E Mixolydian, or A Major. Blues has a lot more rules than might seem at first. That's my impression, at least. Obviously you can reshape a genre in people's minds, in you want, but blues and jazz is still very new to me. I want to buy a better acoustic guitar. I think i actually really enjoy a slightly wider neck on that Yamaha I have (in my study, it belongs to one of the acolytes of the Order).

Here's the video, I'm fascinated that I was able to play it somewhat correctly.

What else? Something. I'll come back later.

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19.09.2021

Couldn't have helped myself and fell asleep. Last time I had coffee from beans was wednesday. And I had a "normal sleep schedule" - i.e. awake in the morning after some sleep - since monday. But energy was really low until friday. I'm sorry, I can't shut up about my energy. It is a mystery, after all. You think you know yourself, but your CNS starts to act up randomly. In fact, I think it has been acting up like that since early august. But I'm not confident there's a connection.

Had a plently of colorful dreams. One was a little scary, but it was evened out through a presence of someone I miss, and it's super funny because they were sort of playing a scary role in my dream. That's about all I remember about it, and some colors and details. Might consider trying to remember some of my dreams, I believe they can be quite inspiring. Woke up early today and realised I might be going to the toilet way too frequently. It's like the water is going right through me. Sorry for details, but that's why I'm happy that almost no one is reading this blog. Imagine if you had a diary that you left in a public place, and you know you keep it there. In a way, it makes this blog more secure - I'm less likely to say shocking things. Well, I didn't write shocking things in my paper diaries. Except a couple times. And they also played a role of a training log, mostly. I started it in 2009 and was pretty consistent for a few years. Then I kept my training log on dinopower forum, and now it's gone. I made sure to create this blog before it perished. We still have teh internet and a club in a social site, so that's something. It's dead too though. Well, at least the books are alive. It's harder for books to disapper than for activity to cease.

It's been almost exactly 11 months since last time I bought protein powder, and I still haven't finished it XD I remember I used it to contradict CNS catabolism. Yes, it was a great idea. But it developed slightly unsustainable appetite patterns. Although I got heavier way later. Gaining weight is more about not losing it rather that quickly trying to blow yourself up. And I've been heavier than ever this summer. I still am heavier and stronger than I've ever been. Well, now that I'm saying it I should really consider getting my grip in shape. My middle finger has been quite nice, not bothering me mentally. And I reckon it could help my wrist as well. Although a more importnant thing for my writst would probably have to be me fixing my right hand drumming technique. Using my fingers more that my wrists, just balancing the stick on my fulcrum. And same for the left.

Now I'm thinking of buying different coffee. My money management has been slightly above mediocre. I bought some stuff yesterday as well - thankfully, it's something I don't regret. Pure robusta coffee though, now that's something I think I shouldn't have.

I think I just might end up buying some more stuff now. What will it be? Ha ha. Maybe I'm not even gonna post it today. Why not have a long post? I already ranted a lot.

I think I wanna post more pictures/videos of my actual self, to preserve memories better.