Popular conservation fever (fastidious)

 12.08.2021

Caffeine... What a thing. Am I myself anymore? It doesn't feel bad to believe it uninhibits me if it's just me that it uninhibits, if it doesn't make me do something I wouldn't have thought of. I only had a half of a fistful of beans - not a lot, and immediately got quite cranky.

Overall, I've been feeling well today. I reckon caffeine might be wasting my energy more than my actual working out. Felt tired and fell asleep during the day today. Very relaxed day. Played FO76 a lot and enjoyed a lot. Isn't that surprising? I completely didn't care about playing a few weeks ago. What did I care about? Not exactly sure. Actually, I'm starting to remember. I've been cranking the shaft a little too much at the time. Can make you depressed if you do it too much. It just depletes hormones in your brain. And now those hormones get to please me when I'm making music, working out and playing videogames. Gotta have good discipline and habits when dealing with hormones.

You know, it's funny that stock images are a meme. What is this pic supposed to represent, for example?

"handsome-man-shooting-himself-gun-shoots-his-head-idea-bulbs-coming-out-his-head-96871957"

Anyway, here's my short workout.

Lat rubber pulls - 2 sets

Prone ring pullups - feet on thew floor, body is about 20 degrees to the floor

15 - feels kinda hard. This time I put them in a wide position. I did pullups yesterday too. I wanna feel some pump today. Gotta hurry up.

15 - even harder! I can feel the pump. I make sure to squeeze and pull ever so slightly more at the top, so my forearms are working a lot.

15 - might have miscounted

Darkness is my inspiration. But I wouldn't call it darkness. What I feel feels dark, but it sort of doesn't feel like "darkness", more like, I dunno, "thorny, painful, high pressure, popping". That's the feeling I have that I put in my music. Plus there's still a bit of conventional fatalism. I believe it is a national trait for people like me.

Then I did two sets of squats to let the blood flow down a bit more. (2o10)

Some curls with 6 kg dumbbells - one and two per hand. (so it's 6 kg curls with both hands and 12 kg curls with one hand)

Elbows kinda hurting. Why, I wonder? I think it's probably normal, just a lot of load. Doesn't mean you should always stop, but I'm gonna limit the volume a bit.

One arm dumbbell curls

31 - 2 sets of 10 - not too strictly, of course.

(Front) Squats with 6 kg dumbbells

4 sets of 15 - great stuff, I'm just enjoying it so much it's surprising. Also playing guitar between the sets - trying to get into all that jazzy stuff. I gotta record some backing tracks.

Here's something kewl I came up with after watching all of some of those jazz theory videos - I don't wanna record myself, so I'm just gonna transcribe it.

Too much fucking pain. I better use it to write some nice lyrics, ha ha. And I can't tell you much.

Random picture of the day

Fowls of the air. They can't talk, they can only chirp. Can't guess if it's aangry chirping or happy.