Feb 22nd, Monday - A Unique Day

22.02.2021

Well, it's technically monday, but it's still sunday for me. Did a couple things, felt good, then I fell dead asleep til evening. My little brother woke me up playing drums downstairs. That put a smile on my face. I received an unexpected gift from someone - felt immense (for 23rd of february, Defender's day in Russia, and for many people it's just the "Men's day". Curious, isn't it?) They gifted me two packages of tea, one of instant coffee of decent quality, and one massive mug, which is great, cause we never have enough of those. Anyway, I made myself one cup of instant coffee from one teaspoon of powder, and then i suddenly spent a lot of time being musically productive. I recorded more than 2 minutes of drums for my current song (work title "prayer_doom"), and then I played all bass part for them, and then I played guitar until about 3 am. Felt massive. I should play on bottom string more, ha ha - the "higher octave" part was the most problematic for me today. Or perhaps it's because I covered the pick in pork fat, now that's a real challenge, ha ha. (I did it on accident). Or perhaps it's becuase I've been playing guitar standing up for 4 hours. At some point I couldn't take it anymore, so I went and did  some squat-like exercises, felt great. Back in the day my lumbar region used to get stretched as I sat down for a very long time, now it's getting pumped from being static for too long. Definitely way healthier for your back than sitting down. Not sure about the knees though.

Second part of my song is pretty much a repetition of the first part, but with minor melodic and rhythmic tweaks, I can say that I'm happy with how diverse the second part turned out. I still have eight more bars to write - I accidentally recorded more drums, so I decided to not let them go to waste and write and outro. Haven't done it so far yet though.
Today is the anniversary of my father's death. "Anniversary" feels like such a wrong word. Death is such a unique concept. Nothing is like it.

I have an issue. My sleeping is so bad. I really wish I could fix my sleep for a long enough period of time. SO I'd be able to at least fall asleep at 5 am every day. That'd be magnificent. I expected to get enough sleep and receive my new PC this monday, but apparently my mother wants us all to go to the church on the anniversary of our father's death. She hasn't succeded to make time for us on Christmas - or at least that's how I'm putting, to be fair. Can't put everything on the internet. But I want to. Gotta let it all out, have it be somewhere, so there's a chance someone would read these pathetic words and perhaps feel some compassion to this man-worm. (I am, of course, referring to yours truly, so there's no confusion). Or you can feel digust too, that's fair. I can't stop myself from feeling disgust either. But, actually, that was unhappier me - back in the past. The last couple years were quite merciful to me, and I've been growing happier, although struggling. That's why I have to make music - it's a great way to become happier, even if I'm the only one listening to it. And I'm not the only one, apparently! Well, I don't have a following, or an audience yet. Perhaps I could devote some of my time to obtaining one. And I have other grandiose plans. Pray for me, stranger! Ha ha ha.

Not exactly a random picture, but I liked this creepy bear. Very unique. Found it while browsing quora.

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Much later - in fact, sixteen hours later.

I received a new PC! Quite hyped. Too bad I was tired from being so sleepless. And also stupid. It took we a very long time to search the internet and realise that I don't have a proper cable from my monitor to my new PC. Quickly, I ordered an adapter - VGA to HDMI - and some music supplies - Ernie Ball Mammoth strings, a set of nylon tipped drumsticks, and 9 cms handheld cymbals - they were so quite and very cheap. Perhaps I'll present them to my little brother as his birthday gift. I slept for about 2 hours during the day today, and agreed to cancel one of my lessons. I had some aforementioned instant coffee, and a couple hours later I'm having a thick 160 beans large cup - aforementioned large cup as well. Now I'm slow but feeling good. Gotta persevere and wait til tomorrow for that cable adapter. I only have one online lesson later in the evening, so if they deliver it early I'll be able to start downloading all the important things on my new PC. I hope I didn't damage it in any way as I looked through it today. Tomorrow is gonna be a nice day - I'm also teaching some little kids the basics of music. I should consider being more professional and learning more specific teaching material. But I have the spirit and enthusiasm, which I believe to be, well, quite important. Still haven't finished my coffee, ha ha.

I plan to only do three working sets today - but heavy they shall be. Hopefully, I'll write about them in a couple hours. And then, later at night, I can record the final instrumental part.

My music is quite different from conventional doom metal. I wish I could get a nice connoseur of heavy music to review it and give me an opinion on it. Sort of a "musical identity crisis", ha ha. Well, not really a crisis - I am intensely confident in myself. Yes, intensely. That's one the the "more right" words to describe me and my view on building your choice structure.

Lesser sentient beings - what if we weren't them? What if we could know more about things just from perceiving them? Oh, what a wild fantasy, ha ha.

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Finally, the

Training session

Overhead press

Nice warmup in my room

40 and 70 for few reps

100 - 2 sets of 5 - nice and easy

Pushpress

115 for 4 +1 - not too easy, bad technique - I'm still holding the bar in front of myself, and thus can't lock it out properly. Gotta do some stretching!

70 for 2 reps, proper technique

Stretching with a 7 kg bar for a few sets - making sure to shove the bar further into my throat, flaring my ribs, locking out behind my head, et cetera.

I've been playing AI Dungeon for over a month, and I'm seeing it grow on youtube. Made a few memes on it's subreddit, one of them even got over a thousand upvotes. Maybe I'll post them here at some point. I kinda wanna invite some of my online friends to do MP with me, but something keeps stopping me.

Man, I'm so looking forward to sleeping, once caffene settles a bit more in my head.

Random picture of the day -

Seitenaltar rechts St. Laurentius Pfaffenhofen a.Inn Schechen-3