August twenty ninth, twentytwenty

 29.08.2020

Love the weather this time of the year. September is going to be even better.
Woke up, did some important stuff succesfully, felt happy because of it, decided to skip breakfast, just had some milk and water and porridge. Received a pack of three pairs of simple drumsticks - they turned out better than the pair I had, and a set of rutes (i.e. thunder rods etc). Drummed a tiny bit, should've used a metronome, but I just was in a hurry I guess. Are you supposed to use the open end of a rute to drum with? I think so, apparently. Didn't do that today, they started to look like they're bending, but they actually just slid down alongside each other. Re-muffled my bass drum again, took the toms off it - so much less ring now, but it slides more. Removed the towel from the resonant side and put a reinforced towel on a battering side. That was yesterday, on 28th, some time in the evening, around 5 or 6 I think.

Today I had a single cup of coffee - 30 beans, then 77 beans over three cups some time later. Didn't really know what I wanted to do, but I remember how I tried training my hamstrings in the summer and I did a lot of romanian deadlifts. Strange how I just cut it out of my routine suddenly - or perhaps it can be explained with my finger injury. Yesterday I still had pretty stiff legs from wendesday squats, so I thought I'd do three light sets and evaluate my remainging energy. Thee sets of Zercher deadlift.

Zercher lift - from racks
40 - 2 sets of 10

60*10

In the power rack (from the bottom position, above my knees)

70*3

120*1

140*1

160*1

180*1 small pr

200*1 better PR :D

220 didn't really budge

180*1 put it back on the racks

60*10

Then I actually ran out of time. Did 4 reps of sack clean&dash (about 2 meters). I think I need to do that more.

My CNS and my general psychology haven't been too stable lately, I'd evaluate them at 5/10 in terms of stability. It's been alright, but battling my neurosity hasn't been too easy. I always have to remind myself that I'm not in the Twilight Zone and not everything is out to get me. So far, I think, it's quite alright, just a bit tense. Imagine if something was actually out to get me right? What a lol that would be, haha.

Right now things are better, writing this blog helps. I feel about 7/10 stable. Ordered food again for some reason - perhaps, it's one of the things that helps me calm down. For obvious reasons. Some people eat themselves to death because of CNS problems. At least I workout and have some nice metabolism. A year ago I was 97 kgs, I think (I definitely was 95 in may 2019). Talk about a shift. I felt pretty good at a light bodyweight, but not as good as this year. This summer was just so awesome, especially in comparison to last year. Haven't had a "good" summer since 2015. I guess 2017 was alright, hard but alright. Maybe not. Maybe I can just change my memories. Maybe I only remember the bad things. Maybe I should stop writing for now.

I really want to finish my song (drums for it, that is) - my next song, I think I wrote about it. Realistically, I only need to record about 20 bars and just copypaste some of them. It's supposed to be very easy. But what sounds good in midi doesn't necessarily sound good with real drums. I'm considering rewriting the beat for the chorus. It's a slow song. I've been seeking inspiration in old school Doom Metal. Listened to Pentagram and Saint Vitus today. They're so awesome. If only they played some parts lounder they'd just be way more aggressive, and perhaps even simply labeled heavy metal. In Pentagram's "Be Forewarned" - there's a part that just sound so heavy (and oldschool) but it's played rather quietly. Maybe I'll play this part and record it, and just post it here. That'd be awesome. I wonder how I should treat my "Spire" channel. I'll probably be renaming it soon - into "Spire & Scroll Of a Champion" (notice how I undelined "a" - I'm hinting that it's not necessarily me who's a champion). The word "champion" has multiple meanings, doesn't it? Champion of the people, champion of truth, champion of Cyrodiil, etc. These meanings have been often used in RPG games.

You can see the range of my Zercher lift here.